ARNAV RAIZADA

I stood in one position as I looked at her, she was right here, standing in front of me with that gorgeous smile on her face, she looked so happy, so beautiful, but I couldn't believe it, it wasn't possible, Sona was dead there was no way this girl standing in front of me was her, but then looking at her, everything about her was like Sona, how was this possible?

"Arnav." She smiled as she came rushing towards me, she wrapped her arms around me and embrace me into a tight hug, I felt so many emotions as soon as she hugged me, anger, pain, betrayal, happiness, and what not, they were all mixed emotions but the one that overpowered it all was happiness, she was here, she was hugging me, she was alive.

"Sona, is it really you?" I broke the hug and cupped her face, looking her into the eyes to make sure it really was her, or was this just a dream? Was I going to wake up and realize that she was still dead?

"It's me Arnav, I am right here." She smiled while nodding her head, her eyes were filled with tears, so were mine, she was here, it was all real, it wasn't a dream. My heart was beating really fast I felt like it was going to pop out of my chest any moment, I had no idea how this was possible, but here she was, standing in front of me, she was perfectly fine and I was so glad.

"You're here?" I smiled, still trying to make sure this was real, it had to be real, I was touching her, I had hugged her, of course it was real, this wasn't a dream Arnav!

"I am, I really am." She smiled happily, I pulled her closer looking her into the eyes, yes it was her, it had to be her, she was back, my Sona was back! Oh God, I was so freaking happy!

"I missed you so much, I... I was broken without you, but I'm glad you are back, I missed you Sona." I pulled her face closer to mine and kissed all over it and then hugged her tight once again.

"Where were you all this time?" I asked as I broke the hug and looked at her curiously, I was happy she was back but I like I said, I had mixed emotions and right now I felt betrayed too, she was alive, all this time and she dint even bother to inform us? We mourned for her for days, I was so hurt without her that nothing felt right and she didn't even let us know that she was okay? She let us all suffer without her when she was alive and she could have saved us all the misery by telling us she was alive.

"Arnav..."

"Where were you Sona? Why would you let us believe you were dead? Did you want to make us suffer?" I asked.

"Of course not, I would never want that for you, I would ever do it on purpose, you know me better than that don't you?"

"Quite honestly, at this moment I don't feel like I do. I went all crazy without you Sona and you... where were you? We performed your final rituals, all this doesn't make sense." I couldn't understand this.

There was an accident, she was taken to the hospital but she didn't survive it, we performed all her final rituals, so how was she alive? None of this made sense.

"Asha!" I said as I rushed towards her as soon as she walked inside the mansion, she looked so happy, of course she was happy, who wouldn't be happy to find out that their daughter was alive?

"She's back Arnav, she's here with us, can you believe it. My Sona is back." Asha said with tears of joy, she hugged me and rejoiced happily, I wanted to be happy too, I mean I loved this girl more than anything and she was here, right in front of me, of course I was happy but I had questions and I needed answers too.

"Sona, we really can't believe this, you are here, standing in front of us, and you're perfectly fine." Mom smiled happily as she walked towards her and hugged her. We were all happy but we were shocked too because none of this made sense.

I was there, the entire night, I was in the hospital sitting beside her, begging her to wake up, I broke down, cried like a baby and did everything I could but she wouldn't wake up, she wouldn't listen to me, she let me cry like that when she was alive?

Was she pretending all that time? I mean that's the only thing that could make sense, how else would a person go from dead to alive if they weren't pretending to be dead in the first place.

"I missed you all so much." Sona said as she turned to look at me.

"And you my love, I missed you more than anything in the whole wide world." She walked towards me once again and cupped my face, looking me into the eyes.

"I am so sorry Arnav." She apologized.

"You should be, you let me cry miserably for you, you let me believe you were dead, you... you broke me Sona. I didn't think I could live without you, why would you punish me like that when all I ever did was to love you?"

"And I love you too baby, I was coming to tell you that and I promise the accident wasn't a lie, it was real, it happened, I got hurt but I just dint die..."

"Why would the doctors lie to us? We would have known, this whole thing doesn't make sense."

"It will, once I explain everything it will make sense and I promise I will explain everything but right now let me just feel that I am back home, I am back around you. All I want to do is hold you in my arms and feel safe, feel like I am home now, please?" She opened up her arms wide, she knew I could never say no to her, no matter how angry I was, so I gave in, I rushed into her arms and held her tightly once again.

This time when I hugged her, my eyes fell on Khushi, she was standing just beside Sona, she looked all shocked, her eyes were red and moist, oh my God, for a moment there I had completely forgotten than she was here too.

And in one moment, the reality set in. I was with Khushi now, she was my girlfriend, I had promised to be with her, I had promised I would never hurt her but seeing at her right now, the look on her face, I was hurting her.

She blinked her eyes and the tears came rolling down, to avoid the awkwardness she tried to walk away, but I couldn't let her walk away, I couldn't hurt her, she didn't deserve this.

I grabbed her hand and stopped her from leaving, I had no idea why fate played this game with me, I waited so long before I could really move on from Sona, and I met Khushi, she made me happy, she made me believe that I could be happy once again, she brought light into my life, how could I make hers dark?

She didn't say a word when I got hold of her hand, she just stopped there and stood still, right now I didn't even know what to do, I didn't even know what was going to happen after this, but once thing I knew was that I promised her honesty and communication and I was going to keep my promise.

I pulled apart and looked at Sona for a moment, she was the only girl I had loved, my whole life revolved around her, I was so freaking happy she was back but I couldn't let Khushi leave just like that.

"I'll be back." I said as I headed out of the mansion pulling Khushi with me, she didn't say a word, she just followed me silently until we were outside and away from everyone else, I stopped walking and turned to face her.

Her beautiful hazel eyes were full of pain, how did I always end up hurting her like this? How did I always end up giving her pain when all she ever gave me was happiness?

"So... Sona is... back. You must be... so happy?" She tried to fake a smile, she tried to look so strong.

"I am." I nodded.

"It's good. You should go back inside, I'll go home." She tried to walk away.

"Khushi." I stopped her once again, why was she running away from me?

"I am sorry." I looked at her sadly, as soon as those words left my mouths, her tears rolled down nonstop, she tried to look away because she dint want to show me how much this was hurting her.

"Hey, please don't cry. Look at me, I am here, I am right in front of you, and I am not going anywhere, if you think I'm leaving you then I am not." I said as I cupped her face and looked her into the eyes.

"You aren't?" She seemed relieved.

"I know Sona being back makes you feel like it's the end of us but... right now I am confused honestly speaking. I promised you communication right and that's what I am trying, I don't know what this means for us, and I... I just need time.

I need time to think things through, I need to know what happened in the past, I need to understand my feelings and I... I don't want to hurt you but I am not sure of what I feel right now."

"It doesn't make sense to me Arnav, on one side you're saying you aren't living me and on the other side you aren't sure of what you feel, what am I supposed to do with that?"

"I... I don't know. I'm sorry, I really am, I am so confused please just give me time."

"Take all the time you need Arnav, it isn't like I don't know the answer already. It's been obvious since day 1 hasn't it been? You're going to choose her, it's always been her Arnav, isn't it? I was the stupid one here that believed that things could have turned out differently." She said as she looked at me for a moment and before I could even say anything she just nodded her head in disappointment and walked away, I kept on shouting her name, calling her out but she wouldn't stop and once again here I was, hurting her all over again.

How did I go from flirting with her, teasing her the whole of last night, being intimate with her in the morning to hurting her? What the hell was wrong with me?

I walked back inside the mansion and found everyone seated on the Sofa, they were all talking to Sona, I walked towards her, sat down beside her and looked at her seriously.

"I need an explanation, right now!" I ordered.