I sat silently through the traffic, as usual Darshan's music was playing on my radio but unlike usual, I wasn't even singing along. You know that saying, when you're sad you listen to the lyrics and when you're happy you listen to the music, it was a similar kind of situation for me.

Usually I would even play sad songs by Darshan and just sing along happily, because for me it was always about his voice, and the music, but today, despite Pehli Mohabbat playing, I wasn't singing along, and instead of making me feel any better, it was just making me sad.

It had been two months since the wedding, it had been two months since I last saw Arnav and yet, the pain was still there. I had gotten too attached to him that it was so difficult to get over him, I still had NK's phone number but I hadn't even thought of calling him because I still dint feel ready for it.

As the traffic finally moved, I drove to the temple, I just thought of passing by before I headed to work, I had a wedding to attend today, I had been planning it for a week now and it was taking place today, so I had to be there to make sure everything was ok.

I parked my car outside the temple and headed inside, it was pretty early in the morning so it was mostly empty, there were just a few people around.

As I walked in, I saw a man standing there praying, from the back, I could swear it was Arnav, he was dressed just exactly like how Arnav would usually dress, his height and body and everything looked just like Arnav's, but I wasn't so sure, could it be him? I mean there was a possibility, I had seen him here once before, I remember he had been pretty sad that time.

I walked closer towards him and finally stopped beside him and to my surprise, it was actually him. He was standing there, with both his hands folded near his chest, his eyes were closed so he didn't see me, I just stood there beside him and stared at him for a moment, I was seeing him after two months and I wasn't even sure whether I should talk to him or just pray and leave.

He looked so peaceful, as if there were no thoughts in his mind at the moment, he was deep into his prayers so I just decided to finish my prayers and leave, maybe if I tried to talk to him, it would just make things harder than they already were.

I closed my eyes for a moment, prayed and then opened them and turned to look at him again, he was still in the same position, maybe he was talking to God about a lot of things, anyway, I was already getting late for the wedding so I had to leave.

I took a step backwards and then turned around and took another step away from him when he grabbed my hand, I stopped feeling a rush of adrenaline, this touch, it always gave me butterflies.

I just stood there still looking away from him, I wasn't sure if I wanted to turn around and look at him, I had no idea how that was going to make me feel, and I dint want any more feelings than I already had at the moment.

"Khushi." He whispered my name, oh God, why did it sound like the most beautiful name ever?

I finally mastered enough courage and turned to look at him, he smiled as soon as I turned around and faced him, my attention was drawn to his eyes immediately, they were bloodshot, as if he had to be drinking a lot of alcohol or he was crying but there were no tears in his eyes, which meant he wasn't crying, could it be alcohol? He dint smell like it either.

"I thought we agreed to greet each other in case we ever came across each other." He said.

"Yeah, I was just getting late for work and you were praying, I dint want to disturb your prayers, but how did you know it was me? Your eyes were shut."

"I don't know... I just knew." He smiled faintly as he finally left my hand, oh the pain... why was it still there? It had been two months, it was supposed to get better right?

"So... how have you been?" I tried to fake a smile so he would think I was doing perfectly fine, even though I wasn't. I mean I wasn't really terrible, but I wasn't great either, I was in between.

"I've been good, just pretty busy with work, there was a lot since the wedding and then Samar also went for his honeymoon so I had to handle a lot of stuff on my own but now it's back to normal."

"That's good to know."

"Yeah... anyway, it was nice seeing you."

"Same here... listen I really have to run, I'm late for work."

"Yeah... yeah I get it. I guess I'll see you around sometime then, maybe bump into you here or somewhere else again."

"Maybe." I smiled faintly and then turned around and walked away as quickly as possible.

Honestly speaking, in the past two months, I hadn't come across him even once, and I was hoping it would stay that way, because not seeing him was easier than actually seeing him and knowing how I felt towards him but still couldn't do anything about it.

Oh Why did this hurt so freaking much?

*****

The ride to the wedding venue was pretty hard, I spent the whole time trying not to cry, trying to act strong and then when I pulled up at the parking lot, I ended up crying. I always thought that whatever that was between Arnav and I wasn't that strong to make me feel this way, but all it needed was once meeting and I felt like all the work I had put into moving on for the past two months was for no use, because I was back at square one.

I quickly wiped off my tears and got out of the car, I just wanted to get busy with my work so I wouldn't have to think about Arnav so that's what I did.

I started checking on everything to make sure it was all according to what my clients had asked for, the guests had already started arriving so in case there were changes to be made, I had to do it quickly.

Samar and Sonali's wedding did really good to my career, I mean it was so big and I had put so much thought and effort into it and it had turned out really well which gave me a lot of new clients, I was already booked for the next six months, could you imagine that?

In the last two months I had planned four weddings, which was big, because usually in such time, I would have just planned one wedding normally, but thanks to the marketing I got from Samar and Sonali's wedding, I even had to get more staff to get the work done, which was really great for me.

I took a round and checked on the decorations which had been done exactly the way the client wanted them to be done, so that was great, after that I headed to make sure the caterers had arrived and one thing after the other kept on coming up, which actually did divert my mind from Arnav for quite a while.

Once I was sure everything was perfect, I headed to watch the wedding as usual, it had begun a long time ago, so I picked a corner and stood there watching another couple tie the knot.

It looked like my life was just about watching other people get married and not even having a chance to think whether I would ever get married or not.

A few minutes later, I felt someone's hand on my shoulder and then I saw NK standing right beside me smiling brightly.

"I didn't think I would be this lucky today." He smirked at me.

"NK! What a pleasant surprise. What brings you here?" I asked excitedly, I was really happy to see him, we had bonded pretty well over Samar's wedding, he was such a great company.

"The wedding of course." He laughed.

"Oh... are you related?"

"No, we are friends. I dint know you were the one planning this wedding." He smiled.

"Yeah well, I've been pretty busy, I've got back to back weddings."

"That's why you never called me, I was pretty sad." He pouted.

"No... I just dint have an excuse to call you, and I dint even know what I would say." I bit my lip nervously.

"Maybe something like, it's been a while, let's catch up." He said to which I just smiled, I dint know what to reply to that so I replied to with it silence, not a good answer but whatever that works.

"Seriously though, if nothing else I thought we could be friends." He said.

"I just... It's complicated NK. You had given me your number to call you when I was ready for a date or so which I am not. I mean I would have but that would have given you false hopes which I didn't want. My life is pretty complicated and I just dint want to drag you into my mess.

You are such a great guy, and if I have to try this dating thing with you, I would want to do it wholeheartedly, not because I am trying to move on from someone or something, that would be just using you and I am not that kind of a person.

So I'm really sorry I didn't call you, I am just not ready for anything like that at the moment and you are, it would just make things messy." I pouted.

"It's okay, I understand. But look, I am ready for it, doesn't have to mean I'm ready for it will only you, we can just be friends and I promise I won't take it otherwise, I just thought you and I would do great together, but if that's not what you want, I have my eyes open, I'm sure I'll find someone here." He smirked.

"Well let's hope you do then." I giggled.

"Anyway I have to go, my friends are waiting for me, but it was really nice seeing you again. Don't be a stranger okay?"

"I won't be." I smiled, he gave me a tight hug and then walked away, I just watched him and he went on to join his group of friends, which coincidentally, consisted of Arnav too, who was currently staring at me.

Here we go again!