I was looking at you while you were looking at the couple infront of us.

"Pearl..." I trailed off and you turned towards me.

"Move on." It was something which sounded more like I said it to myself. Once I said that, the tears you held back started flowing.

"Let's get outta here." I took hold of your hand, it felt warm. I wanted that to last forever. Your warmth.

I took you far away from your happiness and sadness.

Once we reached a particular place, I stopped, turned around and hugged you where you broke down in my embrace.

"Shhh it's gonna be alright. I'm here." I said rubbing circles on your back, calming you. Trying my best not to cry.

I wonder, you love him but why do you always calm down in my embrace not his?

After awhile you just sobbed and moved away.

"T-thanks Tan."

"For what you idiot?" I said and flicked you on your forehead.

You just shook your head words not coming out and hugged the life out of me.

Soon you fell asleep. I booked a taxi and took you home. Then I went to mine which was next to yours.

I went in the bathroom and oned the shower. Once I felt the cold water on my bare body, the emotions I bottled up started flowing out.

I slide down against the glass wall, harshly holding my soft locks and banging my head against the said wall, tears flowing.

"Why?"

"Why don't you look at me once the way you look at him?"

"Why can't you love me?"

"Why do you give me hopes then crush them?"

"Pearl he is gone! He never loved you!"

"How much longer am I supposed to held back?"

"How will I move on if you keep appearing broken infront of my eyes?"

"Argh!!!!"

I shouted letting all my feelings out. You can never hear them. You can never see them too, more precisely you will never see them.

I love you so much where I can't explain it in words. I can't explain it in actions too.

How can I when you look at him, the way I look at you?

With so much adoration and love.

But you have pain too, just like me.

Just like how I look at you with so much love, adoration and pain.

I went out of the bathroom to my bedroom. I pulled up the blanket and tried to sleep.

"Pearl.... I-I love you so much. I can't see you looking at him with love in your eyes." I said to no one

"I can't bear to see you cry for someone like him."

"He never cared for you and will never care."

"Please don't leave me. I don't have anyone else. P-please." I choked on my words.

I curled up inside the blanket and cried myself to sleep, asusual.

I love you, only you while you love someone else.

It hurts, it seriously does.

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