It's Not Your Fault

Part 3

For hiromysuperhero

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It has been a month since you lost your memory. Everyone had been overly concern, kind, and patient- for the most part- with you. Not minding when you asked a question with an obvious answer or didn't know something.

Hiccup though, he was the most concern, the sweetest, kindest, and most patient with you. Astrid being second. Hiccup, however, was a bit overprotective at times, especially near any well, or large body of water (anywhere you could drown).

He complimented you often, claiming it was a habit of his. He told you many things and always tried to get you to smile, which was often.

You learned that (D/N) was your dragon, but Astrid took care of her for the time being. Hiccup- being overprotective again- didn't want you going away from Berk without Astrid or himself. You didn't go anywhere without Hiccup and/ or Astrid.

Hiccup would often take you places he said you've been before, but no memories came back. People would tell you how you met them or the times you spent with them but once again, no memory came back.

Whenever you tried to do something dangerous, Hiccup would stop you, distracting with someone or something so it would hopefully leave your mind. Which led, you to sneaking out at three in the morning.

"Sorry, Hiccup," you whispered, almost inaudible. You set a pillow where you were lying, hoping he wouldn't be able to tell the difference in his sleep, and quietly slipped out the door.

You ran to Astrid's and found (D/N), who had woken to the sound of your footsteps. (D/N) perked up when she/ he saw you. It had been over a month since you last rode her, and she/ he missed you dearly. She/ he nudged you, demanding your attention.

You giggled quietly and petted him/ her. "Hey, girl/ boy. Let's go on a flight. That sound good?" (D/N) immediately allowed you on his/ her back and took off to the sky. You gave a small squeal and prayed to the Gods that no one heard that.

You flew over the ocean and leaned to the side. Your hand touched the freezing cold water as you flew farther from Berk. You made sure to keep Berk in sight, but you didn't want to wake anyone if they heard you scream or shout. Once you were done with the water, you had (D/N) fly up past the clouds.

(D/N) spun as she/ he flew up, as spun flying down, went in loops, and would catch you if you jumped or fell off. You often let out a yelp, squeal, carefree laugh, or scream- hoping it wasn't loud enough for someone to wake up. As far as you knew, no one woke up.

An hour before the sun started to rise, you went back home and found Hiccup's arm over the pillow that replaced you, snoring lightly. You carefully moved the pillow and returned to your spot, Hiccup's arm laying over you. This was how you normally slept. Hiccup claimed it made him feel better, that it helped him know that you "were safe" when he was sleeping. You snickered and then went back to sleep.

You snuck out every morning for two or three hours, returning before anyone woke up.

One morning, you jumped off (D/N) and waited to near the the ocean below before getting back on him/ her. You heard a dragon's wings coming towards you from the side, but passed it off as (D/N) coming to catch you early. You looked around to find (D/N) behind you, but before you could call for him/ her, two paws grabbed both of your arms.

"(D/N)!" you cried.

The dragon holding you threw you up and over him and it's rider grabbed your arm and guided you in front of him. You sat in the lap of the rider and looked up at him. Hiccup. And he was not happy.

You opened your mouth to explain but he closed his eyes and shook his head no. "Come, (D/N). Home, Toothless." He flew back home and put (D/N) in her stall. Hiccup grabbed your wrist and pulled you behind him as he went to the room you two shared.

"Hiccup, I-" He put a finger to your lips, telling you to be quiet. You nodded and he removed his finger.

It was silent for a minute. Hiccup seemed to be in deep thought.

"Hiccup, I'm-"

"Shh," he interrupted, finger to your lips again. "Let me think." You sat in a chair behind you as Hiccup remained standing.

It was silent for another minute.

The suspense was getting to you. Would you be in trouble? Would he let it slide? Would he forbid you to fly (D/N) again? Would he let you fly her in the daytime? Only with him or Astrid being there or by yourself as well? What would he do? What was he thinking?

"(Y/ N)," he said, slowly. Cautiously.

"Yes?"

"Did- did you enjoy flying (D/N) again?" he asked, slowly. He didn't seem mad. He didn't seem happy either.

"Yes."

He nodded once. "This wasn't your first night sneaking out, was it?"

"No."

"How long have you been sneaking out?"

"Almost three weeks."

He nodded. "Why?"

"What?"

"Why did you sneak out? Why did you ride (D/N)? Why only at night?"

"To fly on (D/N). I wanted to. And so no one would stop me."

He shook his head, eyes closed again. "No. I want the real answers, (Y/ N). I want the whole truth."

You sighed, your turn to close your eyes. You opened them before speaking. "I wanted to do stuff like everyone else. Be in danger and have fun. Y'all always have so much fun flying on your dragons but whenever I was with you, it's always calm, slow, peaceful. And while it was fun and I had a great times- I wanted to be daring and fierce like you. And I did it at night because I didn't want you to worry or stop me." The entire time you spoke you avoided his gaze, staring at the floor with your knees to your chest.

He knelt down so you could see most of him. Then he placed a finger under your chin and tilted you head up slightly, waiting for you to look at him. "(Y/ N)," he said, smiling softly. "Thank you."

"What? How? Why?"

"For telling me the truth. For being yourself. And for not leaving me." He paused. "I know you may not remember me," he continued, "but I have always- will always- love you." He kissed your forehead once again. He did it often.

"Just please," he begged, placing his forehead against yours. "Don't go flying without me."

"I won't."

He smiled, "Thank you."

"As long as I get to do whatever I want while we're flying."

He frowned, "At least a few limitations. Please? Something so I know you'll be safe."

"Fine. You will always be there. There, happy?"

He frowned but agreed. "Me or Astrid."

"Now," you dragged out, stepping out of his arms. "Let's go flying!"

He smiled and raced you to the skies.

********* A month later **********

You sat on a sea stack with the others, watching Snotlout and the twins fight over who was going to show off their tricks first.

"Guys," Hiccup tried. "Uh, guys? Hello?"

"SHUT UP!" Astrid yelled, punching Snotlout off Hookfang.

It got silent real quick.

"Thank you, uh, Astrid. You okay, Snotlout?" He grumbled a yes as he climbed back on Hookfang. "Great. So, um, (Y/ N), do you want to go first?"

You shook your head no. "Nope. I'm good. Why not have Fishlegs go first?"

"Fishlegs?"

"Sure! Let's go, girl!" He had Meatlug, his dragon, circle around the sea stack and land right in the same spot they had been in moments before. "Yeah! Good job, girl!" Everyone stared at him like he was an idiot. "What? It's our best time!"

You sighed and shook your head. "Tuff? Ruff? You wanna go?"

They started fighting over who was going first.

"You have the same dragon, you idiots!" Snotlout yelled at them.

"Oh, right," Tuff said. They took off.

At first, they were doing well, surprisingly, but then they went two different directions to dodge a sea stack and they barely missed the ocean before flying back to their spot, fighting over who's fault it was.

"My turn," you grinned, kicking your legs in excitement.

"Nope! My turn! Snotlout! Snotlout! Oi! Oi! AHHH!" he screamed, having a death grip on Hookfang, for his dragon took off in the air faster than a comet.

You couldn't help but quietly snicker to yourself. The twins did so too, just less subtle.

Hookfang zoomed this and that, jerking Snotlout around. You all busted out laughing when he landed and said, "I'm alive? I'm alive!" He saw Astrid's reaction- a smirk aimed at him like he was stupid, which he is. "I mean, of course I am. I'm Snotlout."

Astrid went next, doing a few cool stunts before landing back down.

"Okay. Okay. It's your turn, mi'lady," Hiccup said, gesturing for you to go.

"Fine. Whatever you say."

(D/N) took off to the skies, spinning as she/ he fell down. You smiled as you neared the ocean.

"(Y/ N)!" Hiccup yelled, telling you he wanted for you to stop spinning and start flying. You didn't listen. "(Y/ N)!" he tried again. Still kept spinning closer and closer. "(Y/ N)!" You were near the water.

"Hiccup, NO!" someone shouted.

(D/N) opened her/ his wings and you were jerked up, but held on to him/ her tight.

You saw Toothless and Hiccup hovering near the sea stack. He was going to come after you. The worry disappeared from his eyes as he saw you stop. Then he proceeded to turned back and watch you perform. You giggled.

(D/N) flew straight up until you were the same level as the others. You then jumped straight off him/ her and he/she flew past you upside down. You gripped onto the saddle and he/ she did a loop in the air. Fighting gravity to keep yourself in a straight line, you finally sighed and sat back in the saddle once the trick was over. It was a really cool but really hard trick to do.

You landed next to Hiccup. He kissed your forehead before flying off on Toothless. He did many minor tricks and flips before flying toward two connected sea stacks.

He closed Toothless' tail and stood on his back, knees bent as he prepared to jump. Toothless wobbled a bit as he had less control since his tail was shut. Seconds later, Hiccup jumped! He landed on the sea stack but used the energy to run across it. He ran right off the edge and landed perfectly on Toothless. They flew past y'all, shooting plasma blast in the air.

"They win," Astrid said as you all clapped and cheered.

You smiled and added, "Again."

Hiccup landed next to you and walked to you. "Enjoy the show, mi'lady?" You giggled while nodded, giving him a closed eyed smile.

You all dispersed after that and you and Hiccup went home.

"Hiccup?" you asked, hours later, as you laid halfway off the bed, legs kicking back and forth as Hiccup sat at his desk.

"Yes, love?" He grabbed your hand and made you stand up. He looked into your (E/C) eyes and smiled.

"Um, I, uh, I w- want t- to, uh, say something," you stuttered, switching from looking into his eyes to avoiding his gaze.

He used his finger to make you face him. "You can tell me anything, (Y/ N). Remember that." He kissed your forehead lightly. "Now, what do you have to tell me?"

You avoided his gaze again. "I, uh-" He gently placed his finger under your chin and made you face him again. "Even though I still don't have my memories, I love you."

His eyes widened and his smile grew. He wrapped his arms around your waist and kissed you full blown on the lips. You were both breathing heavily when he pulled back.

"I love you so much," he breathed, placing his forehead to yours.  "More than anything."

"I know."

He placed a gentle kiss upon your lips.

"You have no idea how long I've waited to do that."

He kissed you again, this time more passionately. You gasped as your back hit a wall.

Everything hit you at once.

"(Y/N), are you alright? Did I hurt you?" he asked, worried.

You smiled at him and shook your head. "No, I'm fine. But I remember now. My memories, they are back."

He brightened up and kissed you again.

Soon, he had his lips against your neck. "I'm sorry for forgetting everything. I'm s- sorry for putting you through all that. I- I'm s- sorry," you gasped, trying to think as he sucked the soft flesh on your neck.

"Don't be," he murmured against your skin. "Its not your fault."

You chuckled once, humorless. "You say that a lot."

He pulled back and lifted his head so he was looking at you. You had to tilt your head up slightly.

"Only because it's true, my love."

"I love you, Hiccup."

"I love you, too, (Y/ N)."

He leaned down and kissed you again.

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