It's Not Your Fault

Part 1

For hiromysuperhero
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You are both 16. HTTYD 2 spoilers. Has both of Hiccup's parents.

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"HICCUP! HICCUP!" you screamed, landing (D/N) a few yards away and running the rest of the distance, grabbing his hands. "HICCUP, I NEED YOU TO DO SOMETHING!" you yelled.

"Yikes, love. Calm down. I'll do anything you want me to," he smiled, placing his hands firmly on your shoulders.

Astrid laughed, trying to muffle it with her hand. She was the one talking to Hiccup before you started shouting for him. "Bye, Hiccup. Bye, (N/N) [nickname]."

"Bye bye, Astrid," you said, giving her your closed eyed smile and a wave. She got on Stormfly and flew off.

"Hic-"

"What do you need, mi'lady?" he asked, patiently, holding your hands and smiling gently.

You smiled your closed eye smile again. "Come swimming with me. Please! Please! Please! Please! Please! Please! PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE! Pl-"

"(Y/ N)!" he interrupted, placing a hand over your mouth, trying to contained his laughter. He found your childish demeanor adorable, though he rarely saw it.

"Hmm?" Yes? you asked, your voice muffled by his hand.

"I'll come. Give me a few minutes and I'll be there, okay, love?" he asked, slowly removing his hand from covering your mouth.

"Okay!" you smiled, cheerfully.

Unexpectedly, he kissed you, pulling away, moving his lips up your jawline and next to your ear. "Your absolutely adorable when you act so childish. Stunning, as always, my love," he emphasized. You giggled, letting him leave a trail of kisses down your jawline, peck your lips, and pull away with a smirk on his face. He put two fingers under your chin. "See you at the cove, mi'lady."

You were barely able to give a simple nod, but managed to give one.

He grinned, happy to know the effect he had on you, and led you to (D/N), helping you on her before letting her fly off to the cove. He ran off to get ready to swim.

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Your laugh echoed off the walls of the cove as you swam in the cool water on the rare warm day on Berk. You sucked in a big breath before diving underwater. As a challenge to yourself, just for the fun of it, you tried to swim to the bottom.

Your lungs burned, desperate for new air. Black spots blurred your vision. You hand touched cold sand before you used the floor of the small pond to just you a boost back to the surface.

Some more air escape from your lungs, creating air bubble that went to the surface much faster than you. Then again, you weren't the strongest swimmer on Berk.

The light grew brighter as your neared the surface, but your vision grew darker, lungs begged for fresh air. Just as your fingertips barely reached the surface, darkness overpowered you and you sank back down.

I'm sorry, Hiccup, (D/N).

********** Hiccup's P.O.V ***************

"I'm here, mi'lady!" Nothing. "(N/ N)!" I yelled, landing in the cove next to (D/N), who was sleeping in the sunlight. "(Y/ N)? Love, where are you?"

I walked over to the pond and saw air bubbles near the middle. I waited a few seconds, waiting for her head to pop up, but the air bubbles disappeared all together. "(Y/ N)!" I shouted, jumping in after her, not caring that I was still fully clothed.

I quickly swam to the bottom and center of the pond, swimming in a diagonal line to (Y/ N). I saw a dark mass near the floor and quickly swam to it. To her.

She hit the floor. Her head hit a rock and bounced slightly. Her arms followed, hitting the sand at the bottom. My lungs began to burn. I wrapped my arm around her waist, her back against my side, and swam straight up to the surface as quickly as I could.

As soon as I could, I sucked in a big breath of air. I quickly noticed (Y/ N) wasn't breathing and panicked. "Toothless!" I shouted, swimming to the dry ground. "Toothless! Help!" He glided over and landed in the water next to us. I grabbed onto his saddle and he began to swim to the land at a much faster rate than a human.

Once Toothless got us to the shallow water, I lifted (Y/ N) bridal style and carried her until there was no water. I quickly laid her down and pushed the water out of her lungs.

She woke suddenly, sitting up and leaning to her side as the water came out of her lungs.

"(Y/ N)!" I cried, tears falling to the ground. I put a hand on her shoulder as she laid back down, gasping for air.

"H- Hiccup."

Her eyes closed. Her head rolled slightly to the side. Her breathing became softer. Quieter.

"(Y/ N)!" I screamed, pulling her up slightly by her shoulders. "NO! (Y/ N)! (Y/ N), NO! DON'T LEAVE! OPEN YOUR EYES!" I laid her back down and put my hands in my lap. "No." I began to sob. Her breathing was soft and quiet, but it was better than her being dead. I shivered at the thought. "Toothless! Come on, bud! We need to get (Y/ N) to the healers." I carried (Y/ N) to Toothless and we flew to my house.

I carried her inside and set her carefully on my bed before telling Toothless to stay with her and running to the first person I saw.

"Hey!" I called.

Tuffnut turned around. "Yeah?"

"This is an emergency! (Y/ N) is unconscious. She almost drowned at the cove. I need you to get Gothi and Gobber and tell them to go to my house. Do you got that?"

He shook his head slightly. "I'm sorry, what did you say? The house behind you is so brown..."

I sighed, aggregated and said, "Never mind. Just forget it."

"Whatever you say, Hiccup."

"Hiccup!" Astrid yelled, landing next to me on Stormfly. "Hiccup, I need to know what (Y/ N) wants for her birthday."

"Astrid! Thank the Gods your here! I need your help." I told her what I told Tuffnut and she looked mortified. She was good friends with (Y/ N). "Can you do that?"

"Yes. Now hurry! Get back to (N/N)! I'll be back with Gothi and Gobber as soon as possible!" she demanded, jumping on Stormfly and flying away.

I ran back to (Y/ N) and pulled a chair up next to the bed. A few minutes later, Gobber came running in, followed by Astrid and Gothi.

"What happened?" Gobber asked as Gothi started looking over her.

"She was at the cove, swimming in the pond. And she must have stayed to long underwater and passed out. When I got there, there were air bubbles from the air leaving her lungs and I jumped in after (Y/N). I pulled her to the surface and she wasn't breathing," I paused, tears starting to fall. "I- I got her b- b- breathing again a- and she woke up and coughed out w- water and w- went b- back t- t- to sleep. I tried to wake her b- b- but she w- wouldn't."

"Calm down, boy. She's gonna be okay," Gobber reassured, reading some symbols Gothi wrote on a piece of paper. "She should wake up within a few days. When she does, make sure she stays in bed. She cannot- and I repeat- cannot get out of bed. Is that understood?"

I nodded yes.

"But what if she doesn't listen? You know (Y/ N)," Astrid pointed out.

"She can't stand up. Hiccup can carry her downstairs if he likes, but she cannot stand up. She needs the rest if she wants to get better."

Astrid and I nodded. "I'll do it if she wants," I said. Gothic nodded, smiled, and left.

"Okay then, I will be back tonight. I will come back three times a day until she wakes up to put food in her stomach," Gobber said. "Good luck, Hiccup." He left the room, shutting the door behind him.

"Are you okay?" Astrid asked, hesitantly.

I pulled something out of my pocket and messed with it. "It's all my fault."

"Hiccup, it's not your fault. It's nobody's fault. These things happen."

"Yes it is. I let her go by herself, knowing she wasn't a strong yet daring swimmer, just so I could get this," I held up a ring.

"Oh my Gods, Hiccup. That's beautiful! Is that for..." She trailed off.

"I was going to ask her to marry me today. We've been dating for a little over a year and I love her with every fiber of my being, so I thought now was as good as time as any. I know we're both only sixteen but... we could get married in a few years. I just want her to be mine."

"Hiccup," Astrid said, softly, putting a hand on my shoulder. "I understand. But you need to realize that this isn't your fault. It's just an accident. You heard Gobber, (N/N) will be alright. Just give her time."

"Thanks, Astrid," I said, grateful.

"Your welcome. I have to get some things done. Come get me if she wakes up."

"Okay. Bye, Astrid."

"Bye, Hiccup." She left, leaving me with my thoughts.

The days came and went. Gobber came by three times a day to give (Y/ N) breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Astrid and Fishlegs would come for a little bit each day, taking turns making sure that I ate and took care of myself. Other villagers would come for a few awkward minutes to ask me how was I doing and stuff like that. I paid them no mind. I refused to take my eyes off (Y/ N)- except for when Fishlegs and Astrid forced me outside for five minutes a day. I fell asleep, leaning on my bed and holding (Y/ N)'s hand. Overall, I was a wreck. I barely left (Y/ N)'s side as she laid there unconscious.

At first, she'd mutter my name. "Hiccup," she'd say. Sometimes slowly, other times quickly. Each time it filled me with hope that she'd wake soon. One time she said, "I love you, Hiccup," then smiled. Once again, I screamed at her, begged her to open her eyes. To wake up.

But Astrid and Fishlegs came in to find me shouting as I begged (Y/ N) to wake up, tears streaming down my face as I held her head, leaning over her so her forehead touched mine. Within seconds I was pulled dragged out the door.

"NO! (Y/ N)! NO! LET ME GO! I CAN'T LEAVE HER! NO! (Y/ N) PLEASE WAKE UP!" I stopped fighting them and just shuffled my feet as they walked on either side me, gripping my arms tightly so I couldn't get away from their grasp.

They dragged me away from my house. Away from (Y/ N). And sat me down on a bench near the square.

"That is to far, Hiccup," Astrid scolded, trying not to cry like I was. "You can't go doing things like that. (N/N) won't wake up because you were screaming at her."

"No," I mumbled. "She can't leave me. I- I HAVE TO GET BACK TO (Y/ N)!" As I starting yelling, I tried to run back to her, but Astrid caught my arm and slowed me down so Fishlegs could grab my other arm and hold me back.

"HICCUP!" she shouted, slapping me across my face. "STOP IT! YOUR NOT HELPING HER BY HURTING YOURSELF! Take care of yourself, take care of Toothless, and (D/N). (N/ N) will wake up when she's ready. Yes, you will have to be there for her, but clean yourself up so you don't look like you've been sleeping outside for a month! Get control of yourself! It's not just you, this hurts other people as well! And it doesn't help when you shut everyone out! Now, you are not seeing (Y/ N) until you straighten your act up. Am I understood?"

Looking at the ground, ashamed, I nodded. "Yes, ma'am. I'm sorry."

"Good. Now, go do something productive. And if this happens again, we'll move (Y/ N) while your sleeping and you won't be able to see her until she herself asks for you, okay?"

"Yes, ma'am."

"Good. Fishlegs will make sure you don't do anything stupid as I get Snotlout or Ruffnut to help me watch (N/N)." And with that, she walked off.

I hung my head down, ashamed, as Fishlegs dragged me through the village and he finished some things. Constantly, I asked when we're we going back to see (Y/ N), but the last time he told me it was longer since I had asked.

Around the time the sun started to set, I waited until Fishlegs was preoccupied with something and ran back to my house.

I entered the house quietly and found Astrid and Ruffnut laughing at Snotlout, who had probably just made a fool of himself. The girl's backs were to me and Snotlout was staring at the floor, frowning, so I used the moment to quietly run up the stairs and see (Y/ N).

I sat down in the same spot I had been sitting in for fifteen days. My eyes started to close for seconds at a time, each time I jerked myself away.

I heard Fishlegs downstairs, but couldn't make out what he was saying. I heard Astrid scream "WHAT?!?!?!" then stomping coming up the stairs. But I was asleep before the door opened.

***** Astrid's P.O.V. *****

Ruffnut and I were laughing and making fun of Snotlout when Fishlegs came in panting, "Hiccup... gone! I turned around... for a minute... and when... I turned... to ask him a question... he was gone!"

"WHAT?!?!"

"Bet he snuck past us and is with (Y/N)," Ruff suggested.

"Oh, he better not of," I frowned, stomping up the stairs. I opened the door yelling, "HICCUP HORRENDOUS HA-" I stopped, seeing Hiccup asleep next to (Y/ N). He was sitting in his chair but leaning on the bed, using his arms as a pillow.

"Should we wake him?" Snotlout asked.

"Nah, let him sleep," I said. "He needs it."

"No kidding," Ruffnut said, turning to walk back downstairs. "Did you see those bags under his eyes?"

"Yeah," I agreed, quietly shutting the door. "(Y/ N)'s condition is driving him insane. If she doesn't wake up soon..." I trailed off. Everyone knew what was coming up tomorrow if she didn't wake up... We couldn't keep her alive if she wasn't going to wake up. Hiccup couldn't live without (Y/ N) though, so either we keep trying for a little while longer, or she wakes up by tomorrow afternoon.

******** Hiccup's P.O.V. *************

I felt fingers play with my hair. It was nice. Soothing. But I was so tired I didn't open my eyes. Instead, I let the calming feeling help me fall back asleep.

When I did finally wake up, my bed was empty. (Y/ N) wasn't there.

"(Y/ N)!" I gasped, eagerly, thinking she must've woken up when I was sleeping and went downstairs. She wasn't in my house. She wasn't outside. Though it was still early in the morning and the sun hadn't fully risen yet. I went to her house. Empty.

I went to Astrid's, who lived next door to (Y/ N) and saw her feeding Stormfly chicken.

"Astrid!"

"Hiccup, you up!" she noted.

"Where is (Y/ N)? Do you hide her from me like you said you would?"

"What? Oh. No, I didn't. Did she wake up?" Astrid asked, hopeful.

"I don't know. She wasn't there when I woke up."

Astrid was about to answer.

"AHHH! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"

"(N/N)!" Astrid gasped.

"(Y/ N)!" I yelled. I hopped on Toothless and took off towards the scream.

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