ok so for my friend who made this code name, it relates to a book I love which I've hinted at above.

dear, Aleksander (see very far from your name)

I don't know what to say sometimes so I wait for you to say something, I have feelings I try to hide, but, as usual I'm terrible at it. in all honesty if this sucks its cause I'm not as used to writing as I used to be. what's really funny about me writing this is the fact that it proves you right in a way. I do want to tell you somethings, but I'm to stubborn to tell you or I don't know how to word it. I'm scared I might drive you away, you've said I wont but, I'm an expert at it, I probably will. my friends have left me cause of it, anyway that's why I try to force myself back in my 'shell' so I don't get attached, and so I don't get hurt, but it is to late for that now, especially cause I'm......

-deathbyravens 

PS: I'm sorry about how I acted today, I was letting Brody and Keifer get to me and I got ticked, so then I snapped at you. it was a jerk move on my part and I'm really sorry that I did.