Authors Note :/: it's hard to sleep on a couch that isn't comfortable and my back hurts a lot:/:

Tom's PoV
Jordan came over to me and gave me a hug. His hugs make me feel better.
"I just don't get it why did it attack me" I sigh, I'm particularly crippled.
"I don't get it ether tom" I pick up the apple in front of me, I'm not hungry anymore.
"I don't wanna eat anymore." I say and put the apple down.
"Oh Tom, you need to eat" he put a hand on my shoulder, just the thought of eating makes me not want to eat. "Please Tom if you don't eat you won't get better you want to get better don't you" I nod, "then will you eat."
"Ugh but I'm not hungry" I moan, "I want to go upstairs". I try to get up, Jordan comes over to my side and helps me.
"I'm sorry" he says he can tell how aggravated I am. I'm mad at life right now, I can't walk without someone's help, I have to use a wheelchair I'm just done. "Tom getting mad won't help" when he said I pulled out of his grasp.
"You try having a stab wound, switch me places for a day have my personality, and while being crippled" I snap standing against a wall.
"Tom I'm sorry I can see your struggle with this" he puts his head down, "do you wanna go upstairs and sleep?"
"Yeah" he picks me up again and walks up the stairs, when he puts me on the bed I went under the blankets. Jordan left the room, I was thinking about dec and champ, and Sonja and Tucker. They seemed to have the perfect relationships, I want one I just don't know who I want one with. I kinda wish I hadn't called Jordan, maybe I would have died, i wouldn't have to be lonely. I move my hand down to the bandage, I'm so fucking sick of this and it's been what a day. I just want my life to be normal again, me going out drinking with Tucker and Sonja, kissing random girls, that is what I liked to do. I missed the touch of someone's soft hands on my cheeks and waist, I just wish it was with someone who actually loved me, not just a one night stand.
The one memory of my mom is her saying "don't let your thoughts ruin you", that's all I remember of her, in fact I have one memory of each of my family members, my little sister Paige, I remember I was 18 and we were playing a game, I remember her sweat laugh, I love that laugh, my older brother John, the last time I saw him he was 22 he went to the dianite army, I gave him on last hug, then 4 months later we got a letter saying he was killed by friendly fire. My dad, I remember when I was like 6 we were listening to 'all you need is love' by the Beatle (haha) we were fixing up a old barn. The last memory I have is a fire, I went to Paige's room but she was a dead burnt corps, I went to my parents room the were dead burnt corps, I had 3 degree burns, I had made it out barely alive. That how I became I zombie dianite saved me but he couldn't restore my body so he turned me into a friendly zombie that doesn't burn.
"Hey Tom are you alright" I was waken from my thoughts when Jordan started talking.
"Yeah just tried is all" I pull the blankets over my face.
"Tom something wrong" he said.
"Memories" I simply state.
"Would you like to talk about them" he ask I nod my head no they hurt to much to talk about.
"Ok Tom we won't talk about them, I'm going to go in my room to read" he says. I didn't want him to go I want his warm body cuddled next to mine. But I know if he wanted to cuddle he would have so I'm not going to force him.

Jordan's PoV
Tom looked so sad, like a sad puppy, today when he saw dec and champ kiss he looked like he was torn between something. I don't know what though. I know this is hard on him and everything, but I've noticed that he can't look at people being couplely. That's it I know what I can do I can find him a girlfriend, maybe he would cheer up then, YEAH that's a plan.

I left toms room and went in my room I need to call Sonja, but I think I'll walk I need to think for a bit. "HEY TOM IM GOING OUT FOR A BIT CALL ME IF YOU NEED ANYTHING" I yell. I walk out the door, the walk to Sonja's was short, I was about to walk into town but she was at the pigs so I'll just go talk to her there. "Hey sonj I need to talk to you about something" I say and walk up to her.
"Oh sure anything" she said smiling.
"I think Tom is lonely I want to find him a nice girl" I said.
"Jordan Tom has had so many on night stands, you would have to look for days to find someone he didn't bang" she said, oh my god.
"Oh my lord, what did you guys do before I got here." I ask her she smiles.
"Nothing little innocent Jordan needs to know of" I got annoyed by that, I may still be a virgin but I'm not that Innocent, is everything here about sex.
"Im not that innocent" I snap.
"Sorry" she puts the pig she was holding down and puts her hand up.
"It's fine, but Tom looks so lonely, today when I took him he turned around in his wheelchair and saw dec and champ kissing" I cover my mouth almost instantly I realized that I just told Sonja that dec and champ were dating "shit".
"OH MY GOD THATS SO CUTE" she squeals.
"Shhh don't tell anyone" I whisper. She nods.
"I don't think Tom wants a girlfriend who will just leave him after she is done with him, he wants someone he can trust." She said.
"Yeah your right what was I thinking" I sigh.
"Jordan you're just trying to help a friend in need" I was still thinking about what she said. His only close friends were me Tucker and Sonja. And it's not like Sonja would date him. I'm certain he isn't gay, I'm 100 percent sure.

Tom's PoV
Jordan left to go somewhere.
"Tom I'm home" I heard him yell from downstairs, im going to pretend to be asleep. He walked in the room "Tom are you awake" I didn't answer, "well I know why your sad, and I know your feeling lonely but you have Sonja, Tucker, and I so no need to feel like that if you wanna talk about anything you know where I am" he kisses my head. I try not to blush wait why did I try not to blush, I'm straighter then Tucker and Sonja combined.

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OHHHHHHHH TOM

SUMMER OUT