Xaiden's POV.

It's been two days since I took Ella by surprise and had that amazing, mind-blowing kiss. I was yearning to taste her tempting pink lips for so long. Every time when I would see her, I would have to hold back the great urge to envelope her in my arms and show her how much I loved her. Words were less to explain it and now I just wanted to show her my love. My this longing ended the moment her lips were claimed by mine. Her soft lips moved against my rough ones. The way her body was moulded against mine. It felt like it was indeed meant for me.

A smile would always make its way on my lips the moment I would remember how I called her name. How she hid her burning red face in her soft hands and turning around, she scrambled out of the corridor. Every time when her face would go red, a single thought would cross my mind.

Cute!

Damn! She was so cute.

The way she gave a small smile, the way she acted shy. The way her face easily went red, the way her eyes sparkled on listening to something interesting.

She looked like a small adorable girl.

I placed a hand on my mouth trying to suppress the wide grin. A smile never once left my face and my jaws were hurting now. I wonder when was the last time I smiled this longer? Probably never. I never had the reason to. But she became my reason. She was behind my everyday smile, my everyday glory.

She was my innocent, sweet Ella...

She was the reason behind this lovesick Xaiden...

She was so naive.

So innocent.

So pure.

Unaware of the danger around her.

The complete opposite of my existence.

Sometimes, I wondered if I did wrong. I shouldn't have fallen for her, shouldn't have taken the first step, shouldn't have loved her.

I had dragged her into my life, my fucked up Mafia life. I shouldn't have been so selfish. I wondered how she'd react on knowing how dangerous I was. Would she leave me after knowing about my sins? Would she still like me if I would tell her the real reason behind me being here?

I don't think so...

She would leave me the moment, she'd come across my reality. The moment she'd meet the monster, the vicious beast behind this gentleman. I knew she would leave me.

But would I be able to let her go? Would I be able to forget her?

You have to... It's for her own safety, her own best.

But why my heart constricted in my chest by just imagining this. How would I leave her? How would I forget her from my life when she was my existence now. How would I function without her when she was my mind and my heart. She was my soul now. A part of my existence, my entire being, my life, my presence.

How would I leave her?

You have to Xaiden! For her own good... To protect her from monsters like you. To protect her from your own father.

'I'll kill that poor girl.'

His words from earlier registered in my mind, echoing like a warning, ringing in my eardrums like the fire alarm indicating danger.

Xaiden! You'd leave her when the time's come. You'd let her go.

No! I won't!

I would never let her go! Never Ever!

I would fight for her. I would protect her. I would be her shield.

Really? You would protect her? And what if she ran away after knowing you? What if she left you?

My conscience mocking at me, making my temper to flare up. It made me furious accepting these what if's...

What if she left me? Then what?

My chest felt tight as my body stiffened. My hands curled in fists as my nails digging in my palm and my nostrils flaring with anger from all these possibilities.

Damn! Fuck this life! Fuck this world!

No! I'd not allow her to let me go. I'd make her trust me, I'd make her love me. I'd make her mine. I'd not allow her to leave me.

I didn't care if this made me selfish, I didn't care what I was being called. But if it's for Ella... I was fine being selfish.
I would never leave her side. I'd be her protection, her armour. I didn't care about the things or through what type of problems I had to go through. At least it wouldn't be that difficult and painful than letting her go.

With my face hid in the hood of my hoodie, I jogged in the estate's grounds. My breath was rapid as I was covered in sweat. My mind was constantly filled with thoughts of Ella.

I decided to go for a walk in the morning to clear my head up a little but it seemed like it was useless.

I came to America, came to that school to find that bloody Austin, to seek revenge and to end her and her empire.

But instead, I found something else and lost my heart to someone. I came to kill that slut and got slain by her beautiful smile, her emerald eyes, her golden silk hair, her cherry pink lips.

I couldn't find that whore Austin but found my precious innocent flower.

Her soul was as innocent as an angel. Her whole presence as light itself. A torch that showed the path in the darkness. The light at the end of the tunnel of despair and agony, my tunnel of despair.

She was my light... My light in this dark life...

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Ella's POV.

"What? You did what? Oh, God! I can't believe it. Sara! Pinch me."

I rolled my eyes as Jessica was over-reacting and fanning herself with her hand. She was acting like a drama Queen right now as if she was giving an audition for the next top actress of 2020.

Gosh! How can one be so dramatic!

"Jess! Stop it, girl! You are overreacting." Sara chuckled, hitting her head with her register.

We three were sitting on a school ground as it was our free lecture. Miss Ayla was absent today as her 4-year-old daughter was in the hospital. She fractured her arm while playing with her dog. Poor kiddo!

So, no chemistry lecture for today!

"El! You didn't tell us!"

"What? Jess! I just told you right now!" I tried to reason.

Actually, this all fuss was due to my damn breaking news. And what was that news?

My first kiss!

Yup! I told them that I had my first kiss and now they both were acting like crazy girls gushing, screaming and full of excitement.

Its what teenage girls are like. No biggie Ella!

"You are telling us after two days. TWO DAYS! Why? Tsk... Tsk... Tsk..." Her arms crossed on her chest as she shook her head.

"El! Forget her! She's a weirdo! You tell! What happened next? How was it? Was it magical, amazing? Did you feel like you were on cloud nine? Did you moan? Come on! You did feel hot right?"

What?

I was speechless. I think I just made a wrong damn move telling them about this. My best friends just got their brains eaten up or had completely lost their senses. Because one was acting all so dramatic and the other one was bombarding me with hundreds of questions.

They were gonna cause me to lose my own mind. God!

"I think... I just made the wrong choice telling you that."

"No!" They said in unison and I chuckled.

"You both are acting so childish."

"Nah girl! We are just....just....uh...happy."

"Yeah! Oh, I see you happy." I mocked as they both gave me a wink making me roll my eyes at their weirdo behaviour.

"Awwww! Look! Our Ella is all grown up now. This little munchkin had her first kiss..... Proud of ya! Girl!!!" Sara hugged me, making me blush on remembering the kiss.

I wish, I could taste those lips again.

His rough yet so perfect lips against mines.

My hand unconsciously went up to my lips as my thumb rubbing my lower lip.

Shoot!

Oh, God! What am I thinking about!

Idiot Ella!

"But I missed it! How could I?" Jess pouted.

"El, girl! Come on! You have to repeat it. Retake that scene!" Jess clapped her hands together looking at me with innocent eyes. While mine was staring back at her with shock.

What!!!! Seriously! Was she for real?

Retake that scene?

Well, the thought wasn't that bad. I'd get to kiss his addicting lips one more time and what if this time the kiss would go more intense and deep. Would I feel the same feeling I felt before? Or it'd be different?

"Yes, Girl! I see! The thought is quite wonderful! Isn't it?"

I came to my senses and looked at Jessica's smirking face. Her one elbow on my shoulder, while her face seeing in distant.

Damn! What was I just thinking right now?

Idiot!

But, Ella! You must admit it! Just the mere idea of it was quite wonderful.

Urghhh! No! No, it was not.

Uh!!! Who you are lying to? You know you want that! You know you wanna kiss your boyfriend again!

Urrggh!!!! Stupid! Stupid inner voice! Shut up! You bitch!

You want it, Ella! Admit it!

No!

Yes!

No!

Yup d dup!

Nah! No! Nope!

"Why is Ella face-palming her while blushing?"

I came back to Earth - from that World war which I was having with my inner stubborn self - on hearing that voice.

His voice!

Damn!

That's not good.

I slowly opened my eyes and took a glimpse in that direction still hoping that it was one of my mind tricks.

Please! Don't let Xaiden see me like this...

But to my dismay, he was standing all in his magnificent presence. His hair neatly combed back and a usual heart burning smile playing on his dry lips. His well-built muscles were perfectly on exhibition due to that white half sleeve shirt that he was wearing. With a brown jacket hung on his shoulder and those glasses he had on on the bridge of his nose...

Only one word...

Hot!

Damn! It was getting hot in here! Somebody gave me a fucking fan or I'd just melt right here.

Yup! Hot! He was looking gorgeously hot.

"Ella! Close your mouth and stop gawking at him!" Sara whispered, chuckling.

Shit!

I averted my eyes and shut my already half-closed mouth.

I need to stop checking him out so shamelessly...

Lunatic girl!

"OK! So... Uh... What exactly is going on here?"

"I'll tell you. Actually, I was asking Ella to re-shoot that scene."

Jess replied to him to fill his puzzles of thoughts and I just drowned in the pool of embarrassment.

Double! Triple Shit!

Was this idiotic woman my best friend or not?

And...... The award of 2020 for getting your BFF most amazingly embarrass goes to Miss Jessica! Bravo!

Gosh! This girl was so wild, crazy and uncontrollable...

"Which scene?"

Darn it!

"Oh! That one where you both shared your-"

I placed my hands abruptly on her mouth as her voice muffled. Her hand reached mine to move them aside, a tint of mischievousness in her hazel eyes.

I shook my head mouthing a no as my eyes wide with shock and my heart hammering in my rib cage. Ever had a friend who would try to continuously embarrass you in front of your boyfriend or your crush by making some remarks which you had told her about him, and when you ask, she'd just wink and stick out her tongue indicating that she loves messing with you.

Then this Jessica was my that type of friend. Always teasing me and messing with me.

"No!" I whispered and she winked. For Sara, she was laughing her heads off and poor Xaiden was staring at this scene, befuddled.

"Uh... What is happening here?" Xaiden asked Sara this time who was so busy laughing.

"I'll tell you. Come!" I turned abruptly before someone else could answer his question. Freeing Jessica and gathering my stuff I took his arm and strode out of there. I could hear them laughing their ass off as I smacked their heads inside my mind.

I'll get back at you!

After shooting them a last glare, I went to the opposite side of where we were sitting.

Phew! Free of embarrassment at least!

I sighed and let go of his hard muscular arm. Walking towards an empty bench under the shady tree, I settled there as Xaiden sat beside me. His presence beside me made my heart bloom with happiness. Knowing that I had someone who loves me and cares about me, it made me so overjoyed.

These emotions were a whole different feeling.

I closed my eyes, smiling and enjoyed as the cold breeze hit my face.

So peaceful...

So calm...

I felt at peace. I hadn't felt like this in my entire mafia life. Always had that tension, that worry, that insecurity eating me up at every second, every minute, every hour in a day. I was afraid of not knowing whether I'd be alive the next day or not. Living a life full of murders, traitors, killers, monsters and thousands of enemies. It felt like despite having guards 24/7, despite living under full protection but my life was still at bay. I didn't know when it may end.

But right now...

I guess...

Being with Xaiden made me feel this relaxed.

I think...

Xaiden was my peace...

He was my calmness...

He was my life...

I don't know if I was being deluded but that was what my heart just feels.

I felt fingers brushing against my face as the lock of free hair was being placed behind my ear. I opened my eyes and his silver moon eyes met mine. A warm loveable sentiment in them. I felt like I was being treasured like I was more than important to him.

I could see his love for me...

I could clearly see that in his eyes...

"Xaiden!" I breathed out as I placed my hand on his.

I had made up my mind now. Today I'd tell him how I really felt for him. Today I'd tell him what importance he has in my heart. Today I'd tell him how much I love him.

"Xai-"

He nodded and drew closer. His thumb rubbing my bottom lip as his eyes waiting for me to say my words.

The words of my heart...

"I....I..." My heart was about to fail and my throat was chocked up by my own breath. It was damn difficult to say out those three small words. They sounded so easy but it felt so difficult to utter them from your lips.

No! I'll do it! I have to tell him how much I love him.

I have to!

"Xaiden... I..."

Enough with the stammering!

Just blurt it out.

OK!

"Xaiden! I lo-"

My sentence was cut off by his phone ringing noisily. I just wanted to smash all fucking phones to a wall or crack them up with a hammer, like a nutshell.

Why?

Because every fucking time, something or someone had to barge in, ruining our moment completely.

Damn!

Xaiden removed his hand and I missed his warmth, making me wanna take out all of my wrath on his phone. He looked at the caller's identity and I felt his body stiffened at once. A dangerous, dark aura created around him which reminded me of Mafia leaders.

No! I must be hallucinating...

"Xaiden!" I called out his name but he didn't even flinch. I called again and this time he looked up. But his silver eyes weren't warm anymore.

They were dark and dangerous. They didn't look like the silver moon but the grey ashes of burnt wood, the grey dust of the burnt coal.

My throat went dry as I gulped on my saliva. My eyes averted from his cold stare and I hung my head low. Those eyes reminded me of the eyes of a killer, the eyes of a person whose aim was to seek revenge. I knew it because I had seen the same fire, the same rage in my father's eyes. The way Xaiden's eyes turned to stone, it felt like he had just remembered something.

But what?

I stayed there not uttering a single word. My teeth chewing on my inner cheek as my eyes staring in thin air. None of us started a conversation and my words vanished like a midst of dust.

"Ella!" He spoke and I turned my head at him hoping he was going to tell me about what just happened to him.

"Yes?"

"Do you know anyone named Ellen Austin?" His eyes not looking in mine. But for me...

It was a call for damnation.

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