Rain

I was making pancakes for breakfast when Rach entered in the kitchen.
"Good Morning." I said to her with a smile on my face.

"Morning." She replied as she sat on the stool and inhaled deeply.

"It is smelling like heaven in here, I don't know what I would do without you."

"Don't worry, you are always gonna have me." I said. I looked at her when she didn't said anything and found her lost in thoughts. Actually, she is behaving differently for some days, she is looking lost somewhere nowadays.

"Rach, is everything okay?" I asked her with concern.

"Yeah, actually I wanted to talk to you about something." She said in a serious tone.

I nodded and asked," Do I need to worry?"

"No, it's just that, Um.... actually....." There are very few times when Rach is short for words and she was also fidgeting with her fingers, which means she is nervous, something is definitely bothering her that's for sure.

I walked to her side and sat next to her, "Hey, it's alright, you know you can tell me anything, I will support you no matter what, I promise." I assured her.

"Yeah, I know, Um.. the thing is my Boss is launching another branch of our Company in London and I need to accompany him there. So...." She trailed off.

I don't know what to say to her except that I am happy for her. I mean I don't want her to go but she can't stay here only because of me. I have to take control of my life at some point, I can't be dependent on her all my life. I have to do this for myself. So, I put a brave expression on my face and hugged her tightly.

"I am so happy for you, Rach." I said genuinely, because I was happy for her in real even though I was freaking out inside. I don't know if I can do it or not but it would be wrong of me to stop Rach for achieving her own goals in life.

"Rain, I know what are you doing. Stop with this act because I know you from inside out. Are you really okay to be here all by yourself because I know you are afraid of being alone in the house all by yourself. So, tell me the truth, are you really okay with me going?" She said while searching my face for any indication of panic on my face.

"For how long will you be gone?" I asked with a frown.

She lowered her face and whispered like she didn't want me to hear but I heard it," Two months."

"What? That long?"

"Yeah, I didn't know how you were gonna react so I was finding a good time to talk to you but didn't found any and now I don't have much time remained."

"Rach, I will be okay,  I promise and it will be a great opportunity for you. Besides, I can't dwell on an incident my whole life, I have to move on and take control of my life." I said with determination in my voice.

"I know you can do it because you are one of the strongest women I have ever known and you have overcome much difficult than this before." I nodded at her. But I am panicking from inside. I close my eyes to drive those awful memories, which still makes me shiver deep into my soul. I counted to ten and open my eyes. She was already looking at me with concern.

"When are you leaving?" I asked her to stop her from saying what she always says, 'why don't you see a therapist?' what she doesn't know is that I never want to visit that hell again.

"Next week."

"Really, that's pretty fast."

"I know I should have told you when I got to know but I didn't know how to say it to you?"

"It's okay." I said and returned to breakfast.

"I am gonna take a quick bath then we  will have breakfast together." I nodded at her.

"Don't start without me." She yelled from her room.

"Oh now, I definitely will." I said and heard her chuckle and shook my head.

I was setting the breakfast on the table when 'I will find you' started ringing and Miles voice entered my ears. I have been deliberately avoiding his songs, after that crazy dream  and changes the topic when Rach talks about him. But I guess I was not lucky this time.

She has left her phone on the kitchen island. I walked to it and looked at the caller, when I entered in her room I can still hear the water running, so I knock on her door.

"What?" She shouted from inside.

"Cole is calling on your phone." I shouted back to make her listen.

"Answer it for me."

"What? No, you can call him back yourself when you come out."

"Please, pretty please, if you won't pick it then he will  tell me again that I was making excuses to not to talk to him."

"And why wouldn't you talk to him? Did you two fight again with each other?"

"Kinda."

"Ugh..." I groaned and picked it up.

"How much time do you take to pick up a call?" He said with annoyance.

"Hello." I said.

"Who is this?" He asked in his deep grave voice.

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                    Faith Williams.