tw: talk of eating disorder, anxiety.

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-Seven months later; out of high school-

You put on a a black leather skirt and a t-shirt for your visit. You fixed up your hair and grabbed your things, including the file on the new little girl you were visiting.

You grabbed an apple and headed for the door, leaving your apartment. You sat in the drivers seat and put the file on the steering wheel, so you could read it.

name: Kim Sujin
age: 12
issues: eating disorder, anxiety.
reasons for issues: she's adopted, for her parents abused her when she was younger, forming her anxiety of other people. She was often called fat by her biological parents and classmates, which ended up in her not eating properly.

You closed the file, shocked that such a young girl could have gone through such things. You headed towards the families home, getting out once you arrived.

You knocked and put on a friendly smile, and shortly after, the mother opened the door.

"You must be Y/N. Please come in." She said.

"And you must be Mrs. Kim, it's very lovely to meet you."

She smiled, ushering her husband over.

"This is my husband, and this," she paused as a little girl walked out of the kitchen. "Is Sujin."

You smiled down at her, and she looked at you for a few moments before running to Mrs. Kim and hugging her waist.

"Sujin, I'm Y/N. It's so nice to meet you." You said.

"Hi." She mumbled.

You held out your hand, and she very shakily and hesitantly took it, shaking it gently.

"You and I are going to have a super fun day and get to know each other, how does that sound?" You smiled.

Her lips started trembling. "You're gonna hurt me?"

You crouched down and held your pinky out, making her tilt her head cutely. "I would never hurt you, I'm here to help you. I pinky swear."

She slowly linked her pinky with yours, making you and her parents smile.

"Okay, but only because you pinky promised, and you don't seem like the type to break a promise."

You and Sujin walked through the city, hand in hand. As you walked to a ramen shop, she squeezed your hand tighter as someone passed by her. You walked in and took a seat, and one of the waiters came up to you.

"What would you ladies like today?" He asked.

"I would like a water and the traditional ramen bowl please." You said.

You looked over at Sujin and she had her eyes glued to her lap.

"Sujin, order what you want." You told her.

She looked up at you and then at the waiter. "The- the same thing as her, please." She stuttered.

He smiled politely and walked off into the kitchen. "Y/N, I don't want to be here."

"We've gotta eat."

"I'm not hungry."

"Yes you are, I can here your stomach growling from here."

Your food and water came quickly, and you pushed Sujin's ramen towards her.

"I used to have an eating disorder." You spoke up. "My ex boyfriend called me fat, so I stopped eating so he would like me. Eventually, I didn't like the way I could see my ribs, so I made sure to eat well." You paused and looked up at her. "Do you like seeing your ribs?"

She looked at you and shook her head. "No, I don't."

"Then eat well. Your health comes before anything, and those people that made you feel like you needed to stop eating are ignorant."

She smiled and nodded. After about ten minutes, both of you were done and Sujin had cleaned her bowl out. You were surprised your encouraging words worked. You paid and walked back out to your car.

"How long has it been since you've eaten like that, Sujin?"

"A long time. Mom and Dad try to make me eat, but I would tell them I wasn't hungry." She paused. "But I believe that I can do better since you did too, and I want to look as great as you, Y/N!"

You smiled and she grabbed your hand that was resting on the console. Once you pulled up to her house, both of you got out and you rang the doorbell.

"Hello, hello!~" Mr. Kim sang as he opened the door.

"Hi, Dad!" Sujin exclaimed, hugging her fathers waist.

Then she let go and hugged you tightly. "Bye, Y/N! Thank you for the amazing day! You'll be back right?"

"Every Tuesday." You smiled.

She clapped and ran upstairs happily.

"How'd she do?" Mrs. Kim asked as she walked towards her you and her husband.

"She did very well. We haven't talked about her anxiety yet, but I got her to eat a whole bowl of ramen. I told her about the eating disorder I used to have, and that helped her."

"That's so amazing! Thank you so much!"

"It's not a problem. I'll be back next Tuesday."

"Okay, bye honey!"

You headed back to your car and as you got in, your phone started ringing. It was Felix, so you immediately answered.

"Hey baby." You said.

"Y/N?"

Your stomach dropped. "Felix, are you crying?"

"Will you come to JYP?"

"I'm on my way."

You pulled up and parked on the curb, getting out. As you walked towards the entrance of the doors, they opened, Felix and Chan coming out.

Felix ran into your arms and sobbed into your shoulder, and Chan joined you.

"What happened, Lix?"

"He- he eliminated me."

Your heart stopped and your voice caught in your throat as you started crying yourself. You hugged the two tighter and ran your hand through Felix's hair.

They pulled back and you finally saw how upset they really were.

"Minho and Felix, Y/N. What am I going to do?" Chan cried.

"You, Chan are going to stay strong because you have a group that looks up to you. JYP will realize what he's done. He'll come back around." You said.

"What if he doesn't?" Felix whispered, grabbing your hand.

"Then he lost an amazing idol that will find another way to pursue his dream."

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