Dear Bang Chan,

Today's the day! I can't wait! At 2:45, meet me at the swing set at the park. ;)

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Chan's POV

Today's the day I finally get to meet this kid. I hope all of my questions will be answered. They better be, or this entire game he made was a waste.

School was kinda a blur for me. My mind was focused on this guy, and the notes that he sent. He made me feel like I was not a mistake, like I actually matter in this world. Which was something that Kunpimook failed at doing.

After school, I packed my stuff as fast as possible and ran to the park. I sat on the swing set and checked the tine. It was exactly 2:45. It was exactly the time the boy was supposed to be here. I decided to wait, he could just be running late. I would wait hours as long as this boy came.

An hour passed, and the boy still hasn't come yet. I'll wait, I'm sure he will come.

Another hour passed. I finished all of my homework, and he still hasn't come yet. It's only been 2 hours, he could just be a little late.

Three more hours passed and I was still on the swing set of the park. I came to a conclusion that this boy was never going to come. I packed my stuff and trudged out of the park.

Of course he wasn't real. Who would compliment such a terrible person? But he seemed real, which made it more painful. Hot tears began to roll down my cheeks.

A man passed by me and saw that I was crying. "Here." He said, handing me a pack of cigarettes and lighter. "These are the best remedy for pain."

I was about to turn it down, because I know that cigarettes are hurtful to me and those that care about me. But nobody cares about me, and I no longer care about myself so what do I have to lose? I took the cigarettes and lighter and inhaled the dangerous gas on my way home.

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Anonymous POV

"Please??" Jeongin and Seungmin begged for ice cream that day. I knew I was supposed to meet Chan today, but those two combined are too cute to turn down. "Fine but I have to go somewhere."

As we left the ice cream shop, I was walking to the park when I heard my phone buzz. It was Changbin calling me.

Hey, can you go to the store and buy milk, eggs, and cream?

Why can't you go, I have to meet up with someone.

Cause me and Hyunjin are both covered with flour and we don't wanna go. We tried to make a cake and didn't realize we didn't have half of the ingredients. You're already out, just buy it quickly, come back, and go meet your person.

Fine. I hung up the call and ran to the nearest supermarket.

When I got there, I realized that I wasn't in the grocery store. I had no idea where anything was. I practically went hunting around the store before I found what I needed. By the time I finished, it was already 4:00. I'm already so late for my meeting with Chan.

I took my bags and walked to the house to drop it off. When I got home, I saw flour scattered on the kitchen floor, and Hyunjin and Changbin in a heated make out session. I cleared my throat to get their attention.

"You got the stuff?" Changbin asked, a blush crawling onto his face.

"Yeah," I said. "Bye." I walked out of the door quickly.

As I walked back to the park, I heard my phone buzz again. This time it was Seungmin.

What! I snapped into the phone.

Damn anger issues much, I was just going to ask you to get your butt back to the house and clean your room. It's so disgusting in there! I know you wanna meet your friend but like-

I hung up the phone and continued towards the park.

By the time I got back to the park the sun was already gone. I looked at the time and it was close to 8. Chan was no where to be found. I didn't blame him, he probably thought this was all a joke. But before I walked home I called his name to see if he was nearby. I saw someone with a cloud of smoke turn around. I ran towards them, assuming that it was Chan. It was.

I hugged him so tightly and buried my face in his shoulder.

"I'm sorry." I said. "I'm sorry for not coming."

He stayed silent for a while. His cigarette dropped to the floor and he wrapped his arms around me. "Are you him?"

"Yes, I am. It's me, Felix."

i didn't know what to write for days and when i finally get an idea i can't write it the way i want to.