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mami stace

November 21, 2019 AT 6:12 PM

You're home na, Lexi?

hi mami staceee

yess home na ako

Wala kayo practice ngayon?

waleyy postponed ngayon kasi busy ung instructor namin

why you napachat

Nothing much. You look off kanina sa school, eh.

Actually di lang kanina. Mula pa nung Tuesday.

Are you okay?

yes mamiii

alam kong sasabihin mo na i might be lying kasi i always say i'm fine when i'm not but i'm tryingg

it's just

boy problems na i shouldn't even waste my time on

Is this Niko?

who else pa mami sksksks

You know you can rant to us?

I may not be active that much sa gc, pero here sa dm you can freely drop a message.

i knooow

but it's something i can handle naman

he just burst out last Monday during practice

hindi niya nagustuhan ung ginawa nung partner ko sa step na kailangan talagang hawakan yung likod ko

idk what's with him

Selos. Men are simple.

exactly mami stace, i feel like he was jealous

pero bakit siya magseselos?

ano bang tingin niya sakin?

naiinis lang ako kasi

ang gulo niya

ang gulo ko

ang gulo namin

in the end, walang nangyayari AHAHHAHAA

well, not that i'm hoping na something will happen pero it's nice not to have this chaotic feeling in my chest you know

like for once, everything would be clear

ewan ko mami AHHAHAHA

di naman na kami nagpapansinan ewan ko ba diyan sa kanya bahala siya

di naman ako yung may kasalanan

I noticed. Dinaanan ka lang kanina.

Pero did you notice?

alin mami?

The moment you two passed by each other, Niko turned his back to look at you. Napansin niya lang na tinitingnan ko siya kaya lumingon siya uli pabalik.

he did?

Yup. And the look on his face was unexplainable. Pero the closest word was longing.

It looked like he wanted to talk to you.

if he wants to then he should drop this act and come talk to me

balak niya bang paabutin to hanggang debut ajskajkassk

But how about you? What do you feel now na hindi kayo nagpapansinan?

Be honest.

ih

See? Kaya ka naguguluhan kasi you're not trying to acknowledge what you're feeling.

i just

siguro

naging tahimik paligid ko nung hindi niya ako pinapansin

and silence was supposed to be peaceful pero these past few days, it's not peaceful at all ://

i hate this hays

it's weird nga eh

how can he be noisy and talkative but everything feels calm

and this silence we have now feels chaotic

he just

he makes me feel at peace

especially sa mga moments na gulong gulo isip ko

when it comes to the steps i'm having a hard time getting

nandyan siya para turuan ako

when it comes to acads at hindi ko alam gagawin ko

when i'm starting to feel insecure with my performance at school

nandyan siya para tulungan ako

para iklaro sakin

para sabihin yung tatlong words na tumatak na sakin

mahihirapan, matututo, masasanay

idk anymore mami hays

kaya sana

this chaos in our hearts would be clear

and i want him to make my heart be at peace

kaya sabihin niya na kung anong nararamdaman niya sakin

You know you have your answer by what you said, Lex?

i know

mami stace

i think i'm starting to truly like niko

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