MINI DISCLAIMER !
since this flashback was held
in 2008 , all of the characters are
18 just to let y'all know. and
mention of abortion !

mini flashback

૮₍ '𖦹 ˕ ×' ₎ა
/づᡕᠵ᠊ᡃ࡚ࠢ࠘ ⸝່ࠡࠣ᠊߯᠆ࠣ࠘ᡁࠣ࠘᠊᠊ࠢ࠘𐡏 𓂃 𝓘N THE YEAR OF 2008 , A TEENAGE GIRL STARED NERVOUSLY AT THE SMALL PINK THING THAT SAT CALMLY ON THE RIM OF THE SINK , the girl right leg occasionally bounced up and down from her being nervous.

could you blame her ? she has never experience this kind of trouble before. she really hoped that the test comes out negative , she's not prepared for a human being growing inside of her stomach.

subconsciously , her hand sat against her stomach , rubbing it softly. she doesn't know why she made that move , her own body told her to do so.

she groans out , her hand coming up to cup the front of her forehead. she felt an incoming headache coming through from all of the stress from thinking if she really have a baby inside of her.

your mind started to wander off. you really started to think before realization came to your head , your period hasn't come up within the last two months , now you were really nervous.

you haven't been paying attention to see if your period came up since you were sleeping a lot and been throwing up your food.

your family even noticed your behavior , they were really worried about you , especially your twin brother takashi. he's been worried every since he woke up in the middle of the night only to find you throwing up.

he quickly came to your aid whilst holding up your hair , making sure that no throw up got caught up in it. he started to rub your back in a smoother manner , asking if you were okay , you replied with a shaky nod.

now takashi thought that you were going to be okay since he thought the food that you ate made you throw up. but his mind quickly changed as soon as he really got a good look at your new behavior.

he noticed that you started to have bad mood swings , he once remembered when you and him were at a festival. you had some ice cream that you suddenly craved out of nowhere.

once you guys both left the ice cream stand , as soon as you took a lick out of it , it suddenly fell from your hand causing not only you to freeze in your tracks but also takashi.

takashi expected for you to walk away and go order another until his irises widened once he saw tears starting to welled up in your eyes. takashi quickly forgot about his ice cream and ran up towards you with you intensely wrapping your arms around his neck as you started to sob.

"takashi , my ice cream fell !" you cried out , tears streaming down your face fast , takashi slowly rub your back whilst whispering to you saying that you can buy another one. you immediately shook your head.

"no , i wanted the one that i just had." you pulled away from the hug , crossing your arms underneath your breasts causing you to let out a small whimper once your forearm hit your sensitive nipples.

takashi stared dumbfounded at you , his lavender eyes staring into one that matches his while the other is ( e/c ) , both of them filled up with tears. you got your other eye color from your father who's now out of your life.

your mother was completely awed at your eyes when you first opened them , they never thought that they'll have a baby with two different eye colors , it was breathtaking once they saw it.

he sighed out , his warm hand scratching the nape of his neck.

"h-how about i give you mine ? they're both the same." he decided to give you his since he doesn't want to see you crying over something childish.

immediately , the once tears that was running down your face was intensely gone and now replaced with a happy face.

you quickly grabbed his ice cream out of his hand before he had the chance to give it to you. his eyes slightly widened at how fast you grabbed the cone of ice cream from him.

"thanks takashi !" your voice was muffled from how much ice cream was stuffed inside of your mouth. takashi laughed at the sight of you looking like a chipmunk from how chubby your cheeks got.

"don't talk with food in your mouth ( y/n )." you hummed at what he said , not really paying attention since your eyes were on the dessert that was about to be gone.

nevertheless , he was glad that you weren't crying any more.

another thing that he had noticed is what you're craving. now , he knows he's not good at things but the things you be eating is so nasty and weird.

he remembered this one time when he woke up in the middle of the night to get a drink of water. he didn't expect to see his sister leaning up against the kitchen counter eating pickles with peanut butter.

you stopped yourself from eating another one of pickles and peanut butter once you saw your older brother staring at you like you just committed a crime.

"oh takashi , you're up." you sent him a grin after placing your little midnight snack inside of your mouth making you hum in delight. takashi slowly blinked his eyes before walking towards you , the floorboards creaking from his sudden weight.

takashi finally came close to you then peaked over your shoulder to see you had the full jar out along with the peanut butter. he scrunched his face up imagining himself tasting something like that.

"since you're pecking over my shoulder like you want some , here taste it." you handed him the fork that contains the items that you're eating.

takashi gulped down his saliva , beams of sweat could be seen rolling down his temple , he took a glance at you to see you looking at him with patient.

takashi took a deep breath in , he doesn't know why but he's scared of eating this thing that you're making him eat. he knows that if he doesn't eat it , you'll cry again with him taking hours for you to cheer up.

takashi immediately shoved the pickle and peanut butter inside his mouth with his taste buds tasting the flavor of pickle juice and the dryness of peanut butter. he tried to swallow it but his throat was declining it , he ran towards the trash can to spit out the snack that you were eating.

you puffed your cheeks out , crossing your arms under your breasts , you made sure not to hit them like last time. "what a wuss." you stuck your tongue out , watching your brother desperately trying to get rid of taste.

"sanzu tried it and he liked it." you shrugged it off , continuing eating the snack with takashi sending a glare towards your back.

"that's because he's your boyfriend and didn't want to hurt your feelings." he wanted to say that but he decided to keep his mouth shut not wanting to argue with you about some nasty snack.

takashi let out a tired sigh before walking out the kitchen , not before bidding you a goodnight with you saying it back but kinda muffled.

takashi knew why you were suddenly craving gross stuff and why your mood swings have been getting worse , and why you have been constantly throwing up. he just didn't want to tell you , so he waited until his mom pointed it out.

which she did.

your mom came to your room the next morning , seeing that you were already dressed in a one of boyfriend shirts with some shorts on.

you quickly noticed your mom causing a smile to curl upon your face. "good morning mom , don't you have work today ?" you asked , receiving a head shake from her causing you to arch a brow in confusion.

"( y/n ) , have you felt any changes in your body or anything ?" you thought for a moment before nodding your head.

"my breasts , they have been feeling sensitive for a while and i don't know why. and i have been eating weird things and things that i know that ion like. i also noticed that i gained extra weight." your spoked out to your mom who was listening to every word you said.

she let out a sigh already knowing why. she opened up her purse and then started to dig in it which confused you until both of your eyes slightly widened at the box that was presented in her hand.

a pregnancy box.

you looked towards your mom who's smiling at you then handed you the box with you shakily taking it from her hands. "b-but." you tried to say something but you couldn't form any words since your mind went towards that night with sanzu.

you saw it with your own eyes as you saw sanzu slipping the condom on before he started to handle the business. then you thought , did the condom break while he was thrusting inside of you ?

"take it just in case , sweetie." your mother told you , her hands rubbing yours to comfort you. you let out an unsteady sigh before nodding your head then get up from your bed to head to the bathroom.

this is where you lead off now , you snapped out of your mind once you heard a beep sound come from the test. you felt your heart beat fast , your hands felt sweaty from how the nervousness is starting to come back.

you took a deep breath in and out before quickly grabbing the test making sure not to see it , your hands covering the small rectangle screen that showed the results with you afraid to look at.

you could feel your tears starting to well up in your eyes once again but , you wiped them away with your forearm then let out a sigh.

you place both of your hands right back in front of your face with your hands visibly shaking from how nervous you are. you slowly moved your thumb to see one line causing your heart to pick up the pace once you started to move your other thumb.

you let out a gasp , your right hand immediately flew up to cover up your mouth from shock. the tears that were once gone are now coming out of your eyes with a little bit of snot running down.

the test showed two lines.

you were full on sobbing in the bathroom with the test still in your left hand. you sat the test on the ground , your left hand traveling towards your stomach to rub on it.

you felt happy knowing that you're having a child with your boyfriend. your eyes immediately went wide once the vision of your boyfriend's face came into your mind.

you were so caught up in eating and throwing up , that you didn't tell sanzu that you're pregnant. i mean you couldn't blame yourself , you didn't know that you were pregnant either , you just thought you were craving weird stuff or your period was coming up since it was late.

your mind drifted off towards sanzu thinking if he wanted the child. you guys haven't talked about children since you guys are only eighteen , you could tell that sanzu didn't really like kids from how he would glare at them whenever they bump into him.

you were really thinking that if sanzu knew that you're pregnant , would he tell you to abort it ? even if he did tell you that , you weren't gonna kill an innocent life that's developing inside of you.

and it's yours and sanzu's child.

your lips subconsciously curled up into a smile thinking of a mini you or a mini sanzu running around the house. you were caught up in your mind that you didn't hear a knock on the door and the door opening.

you slightly flinched at the sudden hand that touched your shoulder. you slowly lift your head up to see lavender worried irises staring into your eyes. you realized that your mom was probably waiting for your results.

you sent your mom a smile with small tears running down. your mom's eyes widened at the smile that sat on your face so beautifully.

"really ?" you nodded at your mom's words , picking up the test to show her the two lines that were bright pink. your mom let out an excited squeal , coming to bring you into a hug with you immediately hugging her back.

"but wait , does sanzu know ?" your mom asked , looking at you in the eyes. you bit your lip while shaking your head , making her release a tired sigh.

"make sure you tell him tomorrow ( y/n ) but now , we have to tell your brother and sisters and book you an appointment at the doctors." your mother exclaimed , sending you a smile then grabbing your hand while you're grabbing the test to show your siblings.

૮₍ '𖦹 ˕ ×' ₎ა
/づᡕᠵ᠊ᡃ࡚ࠢ࠘ ⸝່ࠡࠣ᠊߯᠆ࠣ࠘ᡁࠣ࠘᠊᠊ࠢ࠘𐡏 𓂃 𝓛ETTING OUT A TIRED YAWN WITH SMALL TEARS PERKING FROM YOUR EYES , it's the next day from you finding out that your pregnant with sanzu child. after going to the doctor yesterday , they only said that you're five weeks pregnant with you looking healthy.

when you found out that you were pregnant , you and your mom immediately went to tell your brother and sisters , they began to get excited along with being shock from finding out.

well , your sisters was shock but not takashi since he already knew. but either way , he's glad that you're pregnant with his niece or nephew.

now all you need to do is tell sanzu. you started to think what his reaction was gonna be. was it going be a good one or a bad one ?

only way to find out is if you tell him the truth.

you dusted your ripped jeans off , dusting nothing in particular. your right hand clutching onto the small rectangular box that has a red ribbon tied around it.

you let out a sigh then brought your right hand that's clutching onto the box then knocked on the dark brown door that had a silver knob on it.

you shoved your hands inside the black large jacket that belongs to sanzu. you heard footsteps on the other side of the door causing your heart to beat fast.

the door suddenly flew open catching you off guard but your heart decreased once you only saw that it was sanzu's sister , senju.

senju let out a loud gasp then brought you into a hug with you letting out a nervous laugh. "( y/n ) ! i haven't seen you in a while !" senju exclaimed , rocking both of you side to side.

you hugged senju back , the box stuffed inside the jacket. "i have been busy lately , sorry senju." senju quickly let go of the hug before waving her hands in front of her face to dismiss your apology.

"it's fine girl ! you're looking for haruchiyo right ?" senju tilted her head , a string of her pink hair falling in front of her face with her blowing it out of her face.

you nodded your head at her statement then placed your hands right back inside the jacket pockets. senju hummed at you then turn around walking inside the house with you following behind.

you shut the door behind you and was greeted with the smell of cinnamon that immediately calmed your nerves down.

"haruchiyo is in the living room watching tv. i'll be in my room if you need me." senju pointed ahead then left you all alone in the hallway.

you nodded at what she said before walking ahead to the living room. the hallway was quiet , the only thing that could be heard was the walking of your footsteps and the floorboards creaking from your weight.

you made it to the end of the hallway then looked to your right to see your boyfriend laying on his side while watching tv along with eating some chips with his long bleached blond hair tied in a ponytail , a few strings of his hair laid on his forehead.

you felt your lips curling up into a smile then finding yourself walking forward in the living room alerting sanzu who turned his attention away from the tv to you who stopped at the end of the couch.

"( n/n ) ? when did you get here ?" he asked , settling the chips aside then got up from his laying position to sit straight up. you sent him a small smile , your hand holding tightly onto the box before you gently released it.

"i just got here a few seconds ago." you told him , walking closer to him to sat down right beside him. sanzu hummed at what you said , he wiped his face with the long sleeve shirt he's wearing , then returned his full attention towards you , who was staring ahead looking at nothing in particular.

you felt a cold hand cupping your chin then he slowly turned your face to face him. "what's with you ? you look nervous ?" he asked but he said it in a soft calming tone.

"that's because i am." you mumbled out but sanzu heard what you said causing him to arch a brow. "what're so nervous about ?" he let go of your chin then placed his arm behind you to rest on the couch.

"haruchiyo , how do you feel about kids ?" you bluntly asked out , you stared into his eyes which was catching him off guard. sanzu was slowly getting uncomfortable by how your lavender and ( e/c ) were just staring into his baby blue ones.

sanzu cleared his throat , removing his arm that was behind you to set up straight. "w-why are you asking ?" sanzu strutted out but he tried to cover it.

"just answer the question." you turned your whole body to face him with your eyes still staring into his soul. you and sanzu stared at each other for a moment before he rolled his eyes then released a sigh.

"i dislike them." he stated bluntly , causing you to visibly flinch which sanzu caught but he brushed it off. "they take up too much of my time. not only that , those whiny brats are spoiled. they need everything that you could think of." while sanzu was ranting off on why he doesn't like kids , you continued to stare at him , your hand still clutching onto the rectangular box.

your right leg started to bounce and you could feel some tears starting to come out but you hurried up and wiped them before sanzu could see them falling.

"and then— are you ok ?" sanzu stopped mid sentence once he saw how your leg was bouncing. his eyes trailed down your body to see your right hand inside of the jacket pocket and it looked like you were clutching onto something.

"ruru." you called out his nickname. sanzu hummed at what you said , waiting for you to complete your sentence.

"how would you feel if i had your kid ?"

sanzu eyes widened at your statement then snapped his eyes up at you to see if you were kidding. you were not , you were looking at sanzu waiting for his answer.

but you didn't receive anything , you felt tears dropping from your eyes with the tears falling onto your jeans leaving a tear stain. "what are you saying , ( y/n ) ?" sanzu scratched the nape of his neck , sweat rolling down his face.

you sniffed and remove your hand from the jacket pocket then threw the box to sanzu who immediately caught it. sanzu spared you a glance then looked right back at the box.

his fingers slowly untied the ribbon with you impatiently waiting for him to open it already. sanzu removed the ribbon from the grey box then open the top to it.

sanzu stared blankly at the sight that was in front of him. he looked back at you again , seeing if you were joking , you only shook your head.

"you're kidding , right ?" his voice held nothing but emptiness. he picked up the small pink pregnancy test that's now resting in his cold fingers.

"why would i joke about something like this , ruru ?" you sniffed then wiped your nose from the remaining snot that was coming down. sanzu pursed his lips up then let out a tsk while dropping the test back inside the box catching you off guard.

"are you cheating on me ( y/n ) ?" your lips parted in bewilderment at sanzu statement. "w-what ?" you looked at sanzu to see him looking at you with a straight face.

"what makes you think that i fucking cheated on you sanzu ?!" the tears that were falling out of your eyes were now long gone , your eyes held something else and it's anger towards sanzu.

"last time we had sex ( y/n ) , i put on the damn condom and pulled out ! there's no way that living thing inside of you is mine !" he closed the box and threw back at you but you didn't catch it , the box laid on your lap with the top slightly opened.

"are you crazy or what ?! the condom could've broken when you were still thrusting in me stupid !" you glared at sanzu who only rolled his eyes at your response.

"no way , i wasn't even going hard at that time." sanzu told you with you staring at sanzu like he had two heads. sanzu let out an irritated sigh before getting up from the couch with you following suit.

"get out." he pointed towards the hallway that leads to the front door. you and sanzu stared at each other for a while until you rolled your eyes while letting out a scoff.

you could feel the tears starting to come out again , all of the emotions that you were holding were now released.

"damn these mood swings." you sniffed while wiping away your tears with sanzu looking at you with a blank expression with his arms now crossed.

"you know haruchiyo , if i cheated on your ass , i would have done that shit years ago ! but no , i decided to stay with your sorry ass because i loved you for goodness sake. we have been together since we was fucking 14 and for you to accuse me for cheating on you and lying about me having your child , is fucked up !" you shout at sanzu , big fat tears running down your face with some of the mascara that you worn today mixed in with the tears.

sanzu was too stunned to speak. he was flabbergasted at all the words that were coming out of your mouth and the tears that suddenly came down your face. you continued to stare at him thinking he had something to say but all you received was nothing but silent.

you took a deep breath before turning on your heels walking away leaving sanzu alone in the living room. you stopped mid way with your back still turned to him but you turned your head to side to get a clear look at him.

"you're mean nothing to me now sanzu. if we ever encounter each other in the future , i will personally beat you myself." you didn't mean the words that you actually said , you was just to angry at what sanzu said to you.

and with that , you walked away with your hands stuffed inside the jacket leaving sanzu once again in the living room.

sanzu watched as you walked away then he heard the door slam shut making him flinch at the sudden slam. sanzu took a glance at the box that laid there.

he let out a groan before slumping himself onto the couch then laid on his side while staring at the box that was displayed in front of him. sanzu saw that his vision started to get blurry before y'know it , he was also crying.

he lost his other half , and you also lost your other half.

૮₍ '𖦹 ˕ ×' ₎ა
/づᡕᠵ᠊ᡃ࡚ࠢ࠘ ⸝່ࠡࠣ᠊߯᠆ࠣ࠘ᡁࠣ࠘᠊᠊ࠢ࠘𐡏 𓂃 𝓜ONTHS HAS PASSED SINCE YOURS AND SANZU "BREAK UP" , when you came home crying your eyes out , your family immediately came to your aid with you spilling your heart out , telling them about your argument with sanzu.

when they heard that , your family was furious most definitely takashi , he knows how much you love sanzu to the point where you would die for him. so
for him to think that you cheated on him , sicken takashi's stomach to the max.

you quickly got over the whole argument since you didn't want to stress yourself out which will hurt the baby inside of you. but , your family can tell that you're fully not healed ever since that "break up".

they can tell how much you've been crying but not in front since you said it'll be embarrassing to cry in front of them. they saw how the light in your eyes was once there but now , it's gone due to you losing your half.

but with sanzu , he was a mess , he didn't know what to do since he lost the love of his life. when senju and takeomi heard the "break up" he was immediately hit upside the head by his siblings.

they gave him a full lecture about what he did. they were so disappointed in their brother but mostly , his big brother , takeomi. he was extremely upset at his younger brother's actions towards his girlfriend.

after all the lecture he got from them , senju suggested for him to apologize but he said that you probably didn't want to see him which was right.

all sanzu knows is that he needs you back.

back with you , you were now laying down in the hospital bed , being tired from pushing your baby out. takashi's beside you , occasionally rubbing your hand to comfort you while wiping away your sweat with a cloth.

the both of you heard cries of a baby with you shooting your head up fast , trying to see your baby. the doctor gave you a cheeky smile then grabbed the scissors that were right beside her and then carefully cut the umbilical cord off from the baby's stomach then wrapped the baby with a baby blanket and gave you your baby.

"he's a healthy baby boy ma'am ! congratulations !" the doctor carefully sat the baby into your arms with you staring wide-eyed at the baby. your sisters was beside you looking at the baby with sparkling eyes.

your mother couldn't make it due to being stuck at work but you brushed it off since you understood.

"he's handsome ( y/n )." takashi gave you a smile while you nodded in agreement. "h-he looks just like his father , takashi." you hiccuped , carefully bringing the baby close to your chest who immediately nuzzled his face towards your chest.

your son was a split image of sanzu. he had his lashes along with the eyebrow shape. you can tell he's gonna have sanzu hair color by how you could see small pink hair already growing out.

the only thing that your son had from you was your eyes and nose shape. you couldn't see his eyes since they were close.

"what's his name gonna be big sis !" luna immediately asked , her fingers creasing his soft chubby cheeks. you stared at your baby son for a minute before letting out a small smile.

"haruma." you could feel tears welling up in your eyes again. you place a soft kiss to haruma forehead and couldn't swear you saw a small smile on his chubby face.

you smiled then laid your head down on the soft pillow to get some rest.

"welcome to the world , haruma."

kia's note ‼️
( 4,640 words )
geez , this a long ass
prologue 😭 anyways ,
ion rlly know nun bout
pregnant ppl so this all
according to google 🤼‍♂️

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