Ishita Hassan

He said it. He said that longing three words I had been waiting for. My heart do it's own dance hearing those words and I felt the happiest to know that our feelings were mutual.

He said he loves me from the very start but why didn't he just let me know earlier?

He rested his forehead over mine and I closed my eyes to enjoy whatever feelings that overcoming me right now. I couldn't stop sobbing either but still, I found a will to tell him this, "But I don't want to be married under an agreement anymore, Nathan. "

He pulled away while still holding my face in between his palms and I opened my eyes to let it see what comes next.

"Then, we can terminate the agreement without getting divorce. I don't want to let you go out of my life, Ishita. I couldn't bare to lose you by divorcing our bond forever. I-I couldn't do that. " he stammered as his voice breaks and I really wanted to hug him tightly, but I restrained.

"No, Nathan. We got married because of this agreement and so to end this, we should get out of this marriage. I have told you since the day we got married that we are under an agreement and I don't want any of us to walk away with heavy hearts, but that is where we are right now. We should make this divorce and take some break from each other. " I told him the thing that I had been thinking since yesterday night and his eyes sullen with tears.

"No, love. I don't want a break between us. I love you, Ishita and I couldn't even imagine my life without you in it. Don't separate us, please. " He pleaded nearly going down on his knees.

Oh, God. If he kept on doing this, I would definitely lose my resistancy from hugging or even kissing him. I just couldn't see him breaking down.

"Nathan, we can still see each other after that. We can explore whatever we have in between us even after we get out of this marriage, right? I don't want the burden of still being married under an agreement, Nathan. " I made it clear to him as I held onto his arms.

"Fine, then. We can terminate the agreement without even getting a divorce and why do we need to separate, a break from each other? I want to love you as my wife and we can explore our feelings while still being married, right? Please, love. Just a chance. One chance and I would prove you that we are meant to be together. Please. " he begged again, holding onto both my hands onto his as he looked at me expectingly.

I have nothing else to convince and I nodded, giving us a final chance.

"Did you just nod? " he asked in disbelief and a wide smile spread along that soft lips of his.

"Yes, but I still need time to think about not getting a divorce. " I said and his lip came into a thin line.

"Hope it would be a good decision at the end and I promise that I would terminate the agreement right away. We will not be bounded by an agreement but, love hereafter. " he pronounced and I gazed down at him, stroking away those unbearable tears from his cheeks.

He clasped my palms on the process and began caressing my own as he kissed both the palms gently.

"What a romantic ending. Go get some room. " We heard someone huffing and I saw my brother rushing away to the kitchen.

I tittered at his reaction and Nathan looked at me with a longing gaze.

"You look so beautiful when you smile or giggle. Scratch that, you look so beautiful in everything you do. " he said softly and I blushed before moving away from him.

I notice this bouquet laid on the sofa and I peered back at him.

"So today, you brought this bouquet for my mother or me? " I asked pointing the bouquet, remembering the last time when he came to my house for the first with a bouquet of roses and he gave it to my mother instead of me.

"Of course, now it's for you. And, Mrs Hassan, I'm sorry I didn't get you anything while I came in. I know I needed to apologize for so many things and I also want you all to give me a chance with your daughter. I will treasure her till my last her breath. " he interprets his apology to my mother and she only smiled.

"That's okay. I really wish a happy ending in between you two and please terminate the agreement as soon as possible. I was really mad at her and myself to push her to do this, but I'm glad that she got to meet with a nice man even through this agreement stuff. Importantly, please don't let any of this to leak out to her father, otherwise my boy, he would hunt you down. " My mother says while looking at him and she's right, I should be saying anything to my father for now.

"So, do you need anything to drink? " she asked Nathan and he asked for a cup of water as she excused herself to the kitchen to bring him the drink.

I smelled the red roses and it only crept up my cheeks in pinkness.

"Ishita, I want to see you blushing like this all day. I want us to be back together. " he softly uttered while stepping closer to me, his eyes speakers the love he have for me.

I took a step back right away and he went frozen.

"Nathan, as I said...I need time to think about the divorcing part and also...us. So for now, it's better if we stay away from each other. I need some time alone to process all this. " I informed honestly because I really do need time to consider us to be back together.

Of course, I do love him but before I could let him know that, I should get a break from each other. Yesterday's disaster had already explains my clear doomness so I need to overcome it.

He frowned for a second and never protest, but just nodded.

Why aren't you protesting? Why did you just agree like that? Why aren't you arguing for what I said? Can you live without me that easily? One part of my heart aimlessly started asking this damn questions again and again as he just stood rooted with a weak smile.

After drinking the water my mother gave him, he said his farewell to us and left the house not before taking a glance at me.

I felt as if my heart is walking away from me and I know that it's just the effect of seeing your love leaving you behind. He waved me a good bye before disappearing away behind those gates but I never responded yet I quickly bolted off to my room.

I couldn't see him leaving me just like that and I was afraid that if I stayed there for the next minute, I would have stopped him so that he could take me back home with him.

I really do love him. He is my first real love. No one had ever effect me this way and now I'm kneeling all in my room while my eyes gave up on holding onto the tears anymore.

My vision went blur with all the tears and once before all the time I hate crying because it makes me feel weak, but now, I'm crying like a baby for a whole day.

My eyes were even swollen red and I literally looked like zombie.

A knock on my door bothered me and I went to open it up. It was my mother and I rapidly hugged her.

"I know that you loves him too. " she said while comforting me.

"I'm the one who said yesterday that you should be divorcing rather than staying married under an agreement, but after I saw you two today...I felt like it's okay if you give a chance to this marriage. He also said that he would terminate the agreement anyway and no one knows it besides us, right? So it's okay to be stayed married, Ishita. I don't want to sa anything more, this is your life and you have all the rights to decide what you want. I believe in you two and I even believe, this marriage happened wasn't just because of an agreement but something stronger than that too. " she continued while patting my back slowly and I hummed in acceptance for what she said.

She's right in every way and I'm totally agreeing on her. I'm going to give us a chance but I still need time to think over the divorce that comes along the agreement.

*****

"You idiot. How could you? " Sally shouted in anger and my eyes directed to my fidgeting fingers.

I couldn't meet her face to face and of course, I felt so bad for keeping it up as a secret from her.

"Don't stay silent, woman. I asked you the very first day whether it's for real or not, but...you lied saying that you love him. Now, your here telling me that you just got married because of that stupid agreement. " she continue shouting and I couldn't reply because it's all my fault. I should have tell her earlier but I never did.

"Ishita, I warned you about this and he...he was like so into you. But he just acted, didn't he? " her anger was rising time to time and I don't know what was she going to do.

Normally, I will be the one facing this anger issues but now she is in her extreme, I guess.

"Sally, calm down. I know that I lied before but now...." I paused and closed my eyes before admiting it to my best friend that was glaring me deathly.

"But now? Come on, what are you waiting for? " she insisted while still glaring me with her arms crossing over her chest.

"I love him. " I said finally letting out a relief breath as I open up to my best friend.

"And you want me to believe this? Dude, this is what you'd aid earlier and that was a lie, which you just admitted. " she said all sarcastically.

"Sal, but I'm telling the truth now. I-I really love him. Maybe I realised it after I got married to him and somehow this agreement brought us closer...which make me to fall in love with him for real. " I stuttered out as tears started to well up my eyes.

Nowdays, I'm crying a lot. Thinking about him was already enough to make me cry. I controlled my tears to not make a scene in front everyone around me and Sally on the other side was looking me all dumbfounded with doubled sized eyes.

As realisation strike her, she slowly stood up from her chair and walked to my side. She engulfed me in a hug and I sobbed, quietly soaking her blouse.

"Ishita, you do really love him. " she hushed while gently patting my head.

"You won't cry that easily but you are...now. I'm sorry, best friend. " she apologized and I shook my head in refusal as I pulled away.

"No, you aren't sorry but I'm. I should be honest with you but instead, I lied. " I said while wiping away my tears.

"Aww, that's okay. I'm still happy because if you have ever told me the truth at first...I guess, my name would have flashed all over the newspapers for crashing her own best friend's wedding. Plus, you wouldn't have found your true love if you didn't sign those agreement, isn't it? " she cooked sweetly and joked at the same time as I laughed out on her reply, yet this is my first laughing after the last day I saw him.

"I love you, best friend. " I said to her and she replied me the same, " I love you too, best friend. "