The guard didn't wait for the little soul this time and instead decided to petition for change in duties. He wanted to join God of war's army and go fight the demon clan. Time passed and he had to give many tests. The results were due soon. 

Meanwhile, the soul after spending eighty years of human life, came back. It wasn't crying this time. It saw the guard and went to meet the guard itself.

It properly greeted the guard and then told him,' I spent my life alone. I didn't love anyone.'

The guard thought about it and said,' then, you had a good life?'

The soul shook his head,' no. This was the worst life. I felt as if I was dead.'

The guard was frustrated by the soul's words,' I understand now that why you didn't find love in any of your life times.'

The soul wanted to know the reason,' why?'

The guard replied,' it's because you don't value yourself. I gave you three life times with memories. You could have done a lot for yourself.  According to Lord Siming, you were king in your life before you met me, then, a brain surgeon in first life time with your memories, and a religious head in second lifetime. In third life, you were a billionaire. All these were lives of comfort and power. Most souls didn't had it. Yet, you only focused on love and forgot all other blessings.  Love , can only be found within the soul itself. Life is full of happiness and pain. But you only focus on pain. Look around you. All these souls had bad life experiences and those even before them had horrible experiences but I've never seen a soul more miserable than you.'

The soul had a shocked expression. True, it never had any worries in his life other than its search for a soul mate, someone who could understand it and accept it wholeheartedly. But did it understood itself? did it cherished itself? It glanced around. There were thousands of souls crossing over. Some were sad, some were happy, some were resigned but they all looked peaceful in comparison.

The soul looked back at the guard and bowed in front of him,' Thank you guard brother. This soul can never repay your kindness.' His heart now peaceful, it turned and went to join the line to drink the soup of forgetfulness. This time, he won't have any memories but the soul hoped that the understanding it had gained will live through it forever and finally, it'll love itself instead of searching it in others. 

The guard got called over by another and went over to receive the letter. His eyes showed his happiness, he had been selected into the army.

-----The end-----