R19 - Read at your own risk

"This cabin was built by my grandpa as a gift for my grandma because she loved staring at the stars and the northern lights. But since they both died, my family only comes here once in a while," Cassian explained as he opened the lights of the cabin.

I almost hit him by the head as he called the place a cabin. It was a two-floor house and from where I was standing, I could see a stair leading downstairs to a basement.

I am even shocked at how modern the place looked but Cassian quickly explained that they just renovated it since it took some damage from last year's rainstorms.

Back in my hometown, having a home like this would have branded you as having big money, but in this pack and with Cassian, I just learn to accept that what they consider normal are things I never would have dreamed about.

I started with taking my boots off which are now muddy from our lengthy walk at the forest.

"It's beautiful," I compliment the house as I take in the mostly white interior. Cassian unties the knot of the cape and took it off of me.

I head inside, letting my eyes roam everywhere and notice the fireplace. The place was already warm, but the atmosphere of this place just told me it was probably fitting to have the fireplace burn some wood.

"Is it okay to start the fireplace?" I ask Cassian as I approach the fireplace.

"Anything for you, let me just get the firewood. They should be just right outside," Cassian says as he removed his jacket and hanged it. I glanced at the wall clock to find that the time was well after midnight.

As he went outside, I went by the fireplace and started to prepare it. With perfect teamwork, Cassian and I was able to get the fire going in no less than five minutes.

While Cassian announced that he was going to make some coffee, I sat on the floor, in front of the fireplace watching it get stronger and the heat hit me harder, but I didn't move.

The flame hypnotized me and the embers flew above and sparked about while the visions played in front of me again like a movie.

The events that would soon be happening, inevitable and unavoidable. It froze me, it makes my heart drop and the fear creeps in and I don't know how to deal with it. I don't know how to tell everyone about them.

After all, how do you paint a war with mere words? How should I warn them about how terrible it would be?

"A penny for your thought?" Cassian says and hands me a cup.

Startled, I almost threw the cup of hot coffee. "Gee, a little warning next time please."

Cassian chuckles and settles beside me. Instinctively, I laid my head and the weight of my body against him, finding comfort and coziness in him.

I savour the moment, remembering every detail in head. Who knows when we will have a moment like this again?

"Cassian?" I start.

"Hm?"

"What you said earlier, you meant it right? When you said that you would love me forever?"

"And devote myself and give you all of me. I meant every word."

I smile and look up to him. I had the urge to kiss him, to drive him senseless and breathless but just the very thought of it embarrassed me.

However, Cassian caught me looking and although I looked away as fast as I could, I was like a fly caught in a spider's web. There is no escape.

And just like that, Cassian claimed my lips once more.

This time, Cassian took it slow. But it turned deeper and deeper, fanning a fire that was hard to extinguish. Expertly, Cassian managed to slip his tongue inside of mine and even managed to tease me with biting the bottom of my lip.

I could taste the bitter coffee, but it wasn't bitter anymore, it was purely sweet. And I don't know what possessed me, but my body found its way in front of Cassian's in a position where I was on my knees, standing taller than him.

My arms were wrapped around his neck once more and I didn't ignore the fact that Cassian's hands were now moving from my waist and were finding themselves under the skirt of my dress. I pull away immediately when his hands pinched my behind and involuntarily let out a low moan.

Having heard this, Cassian playfully chuckles before his lips also started making its way down to my neck, planting kisses on the way. The waves of shock were intensifying by the moment making me feel even hotter than I already am and leaving me wanting for more.

When he got to the top of my chest, Cassian seemed to get a little bit impatient so he hurriedly helps me remove the cardigan I was wearing. He smiles when he discovers that my dress was of a lighter fabric, an off-shoulder dress that was easy to slip off and as he was going to take it off, he suddenly stopped.

"What is it?" I ask, breathless and confused.

"Are you sure about this? Are you ready?"

I smile and place a kiss on his lips. "I am because of you."

Instead of getting an answer, Cassian got up, carrying me along with him like I'm feather weight and kissed me.

"Not here, not for your first time," he whispers before continuing to kiss me.

He kept me occupied as he made his way to who knows where. All I know is, in the midst of all my haziness, he ascended up the stairs to the second floor, opened a door to and gently placed me on top of the bed.

And without warning, Cassian hurriedly removed the dress ripping it apart cause me to look at him reprimandingly.

"I'll get you more," he says as an apology as he slipped me off the dress completely. Cassian breathed heavily as he saw me out of my dress, my undergarments and long socks the only thing left covering me from vulnerability. He curses under his breath and I immediately feel extremely conscious so I shield my eyes with my arms so I wouldn't have to see his expression. I'm afraid he wouldn't find me appealing, desirable.

But Cassian takes my arm away from my face. "You're unreal, you know that?" he says and presses me for another kiss as he let his hands free. Finally, his right hand unhooks the strap of my bra, letting it loose.

And as it came off, Cassian took both of my mounds, gently playing with them. I tried to suppress them, but the moans escaped my mouth uncontrollably. The feeling was so inexplainable, I hate to admit but it was weird yet oddly good. Gently, Cassian laid me down the bed completely as he started to suck on one of them.

My eyes widened at the act as my whole body felt chills.

"Cassian..." I whisper his name but he was caught up in the act. He moved to the other one, showering it with equal love.

When he seemed to have enough, he claimed my lips again, his hands still playing with my breasts. "Hm? Do you want me to do more?" he asks, his tone low and seductive.

I kissed him back and helped him with his shirt and pants off, leaving him only with his boxers. My heart was jumping out of my chest, my head is blank and all I know if my body is on fire and needs more.

Cassian stops at the nape of my neck and starts to kiss it.

"Here. Do you know, if I mark you here, it'll let everyone know that you're mine and only mine?" he says. I remember about the marks, Ruth told me about them. But I remember her telling me how painful they are.

I meet Cassian's eyes, asking him if he was going to mark me, fear suddenly creeping in because I'm not sure I can handle the pain. But Cassian only smiles and shakes his head.

"No, I don't want to hurt you," is all he says going down once more.

The heat of moment continues, and I don't know how long, but he decided to tease me by playing with my breasts until I told him off, "stop teasing me."

Cassian chuckled and my eyes could only widen when his hand started massaging my thigh going upward and upward.

The shock of him drawing closer to me surprised me, making me hold around his shoulders while closing both my legs together.

"It tickles," I say as an excuse when Cassian laughed as if finding my reaction funny.

"Here, let me help you," he says as he opens legs with his other hand. He leans in for a kiss while his hand stops just below my womanhood and luckily I'm still wearing my underwear. When he decides to press it, I gasp at the sensation and heat it made me feel, bringing him closer to me.

"Ah, C-Cassian, what is..." I whisper beside his ear as he continued to play his game.

"Damn it, I can feel how w--"

"Cassian, I can't-- it's so--"

With his other hand, he slipped the garment away and now I was truly expose for him to see. I stared at him as his eyes roamed to take in all of me. My face must have been flushed red as a tomato, but I was glad to see him flustered and heaving for air too.

"You're perfect, you're perfect," he kept saying as he kissed me again and his hands finding its way south.

As he touched my center, I couldn't help but arch my back as I squirmed, but I could not expect Cassian to suck my breast as I raised up. The motion went on for while as his touch went rougher. However, I almost screamed when put two fingers inside.

"Cassian!" I scream out his name.

"How does it feel?" he asks, huskily and with lust, seeking my approval.

I didn't answer him due to how disoriented I was all feeling now, but when I catch my breath, the only words I could tell him was, "don't stop."

With those words, Cassian kept on, giving me a night I would never forget.