Sabrina Luthferd

Morning was never favourable in my everyday life.

This particular morning is the worst one that I have ever encountered. My head is experiencing tremendous pain, a pain in which I feel like my head is being smashed to a wall.

I sat up my bed, clutching my head to ease the throbbing pain.

"How are you feeling, Young Mistress?" Sebastian asked with his usual smile.

He knew that I was not in favor with the sunlight that is why he kept the curtains shut. I am grateful for his consideration.

"My head is in pain." I answered with a smile. "...Good morning, Sebastian."

"Good afternoon, Young Mistress." He answered, chuckling a bit.

My face turned crimson in realization. I have slept for a long while, I digress.

"If it won't hinder you, Young Master would like you to join him for lunch."

I blinked as a response.

"I am not quite sure with that." I answered, frowning.

I can still remember the fact that he and Elizabeth are to be wedded. It leaves a bitter impression in my part.

"He said that he has something really urgent to inform you."

I hesitated for a second. "Can he not tell you instead and relay it to me?"

"I am afraid not. It seems like it is about your problem as siblings."

Right. Siblings. Brother and I are only siblings. I shall not conflict my romantic affection with that of family affection.

"I shall attend it then." I answered with a nod.

I do hope that it will go well.

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This has been the quietest moment in my entire life. The only sound that can heard was the sound of our utensils hitting our plates.

I must start a conversation to release the unnerving atmosphere around us.

"G-good afternoon." I managed to choke out.

Sabrina Luthferd. I demand you to bury yourself twenty feet under the ground.

Good afternoon?

I frowned at my futile attempt.

Brother stared in my direction and released a chuckle.

"Good afternoon, Julia." He answered.

"H-how.. was your day yesterday?" I blurted out, looking back at his beautiful face.

"It was fine.. Actually, it drained most of my energy. Elizabeth had took me to different shops." He lightly complained. "I cannot fathom what's the difference from one coat to another."

I let out a small laugh. "Meticulous as always."

"But.. I deeply apologize for not being able to proceed to our outing as planned."

My laughter died down as I looked down at my almost empty plate.

"I know that you are busy with your preparations. I understand." I paused. "The sad part is that we won't be able to have a chance to do it. Ever."

"What do you mean?"

"You are to be wedded, Brother. Soon, you are to have children." I reasoned, scratching my cheek softly and I smile sheepishly. "I need to leech off by then and get married too, I guess?"

I dryly laughed. That is some humour I got there.

"No." He firmly said.

Confused, I faced him once again. "What?"

His face was hard as a brick wall. "I do not want you to be married."

"And why? Do you want me to become an old lady that takes care of ten cats?" I retorted.

"Cats?" Sebastian suddenly asked. "That is not a bad idea, Young Mistress. I can support you with it."

I playfully rolled my eyes at Sebastian's outburst.

"Sebastian. Could you please leave the room?" Brother asked, irritation present on his face.

"I understand, Young Master." He quickly complied and walked out the room.

"Juliana. Do you have anyone in mind that you want to be married to?"

I thought for a while. If my memory serves me right, I do have a fiancé.

"Elizabeth's brother, Edward Midford." I answered. "Mother and Father have arranged it anyway, right?

Nothing is set on a stone. Soon, I might fall for him."

This is really out of character in my part. I am talking like a defenseless woman right now and I hate it.

"What if you don't?"

"Then.. I do not have a choice in that matter."

I am definitely speaking the truth right now.

"You are not the Julia I know." Brother said, laughing humorlessly. "Don't you want your freedom? To marry the person you love?"

He.. Is the most stupendous person I have ever met!

Can't he see how much I am struggling?

With much rage, I slammed my hands against the table.

"Yes! I do want my freedom! I want to marry the person I love!" I shouted. "But how? How can I do so? He does not love me back, He has a fiancée, He is dense, He is out of my league! There are too many to mention!"

"Lastly! Society would not allow it!" Without thinking straight, I shoved all the utensils off the table, producing a loud shattering sound.

I gasped for breath, completely distressed. I clutched on to my throbbing head and closed my eyes in attempt to calm myself.

"Julia." I heard footsteps approaching my position and a warm hand enveloping my hand that was against my head.

"Do. Not. Touch. Me!" I cried out, glaring at his demeanor.

He flinched but did not back down. He was hard headed as I was.

He made me face him as he stared down at me with his oceanic orbs.

"Sabrina."

He called me by that name. It sounds familiar yet not in my ears.

"Who is this person you love?" He asked.

I looked away, flustered. "T-that is none of your concern!"

"It is my concern."

"Why? A brother does not need to concern his self with his sister's romantic affairs whatsoever!"

"What if I tell you that the person standing in front of you right now is not your Brother? What if I tell you that.." He inched his face closer. "That I am a man that has fallen in love with you?"

My heart took a quick beat and I was rendered speechless by what he had said.

"...I.. Do not understand." I said, truthfully, looking down. "..What you are hinting at."

"Did you forget about yesterday night?"

"...Yesterday night?"

I dug deeper in my memories of last night.

However, it was futile. I can't remember anything except for the fact that I was drunk.

"Your face says the answer." He sighed exasperatedly. "Sabrina Luthferd. Listen to me."

He held my chin up to meet his cold gaze.

"I am in lo-"

"CIELLY!" a voice shrieked that made me automatically push Brother away.

The doors opened to reveal Elizabeth with her usual grin. She stopped once she saw the sight of broken utensils on the ground. "Oh my! Someone needs to clean that!"

I muttered an excuse and decided to leave the scene as fast as possible. I went to my room, locked the door, and melted on the ground.

My heart... Can't take all of these.

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