It had been weird staying with the Gordon's, Jim was trying way too hard to try and talk to me and Barbara always looked as if she was hiding something I mean we all have secrets at least do a better job at hiding it.

The sneaking around, quiet phone calls, random emergencies and not to mention the sneaking out at night when she thought I was asleep. I'd been tempted to follow her but I actually really like the few hours of sleep I get.

I wouldn't say she hadn't tried to get to know me, she'd been asking to take me out for a couple of days now and once I realized she didn't mean fight to the death I was too embarrassed to deny.

That's how I made it to my first carnival. I hate it. Barbara had brought along her friend, a tall dark haired stranger with electric blue eyes. He was good looking I'll admit but he seemed too energetic for someone who'd spend their time on rides made for children.

"Amara this is Dick Grayson" Barbara introduced "that's a rude name to call someone" I shook my head at her until she burst out laughing I turned to her friend looking confused "that's my name, well it's Richard Grayson but I prefer Dick" I nodded my head "why would anyone prefer to be insulted?" I mumbled to myself but it seems Barbara heard and burst into another fit of giggles.

We spent the day going on amusement rides and playing some games, I had managed to win a huge stuffed dragon which I called 'Goliath' after our baby dragon we left back home.

I wish I could've shared this with Damian or at least have him suffer through this quickly. I've been trying to find him for weeks but I've had no luck especially with Barbara sticking her head over my shoulder every 5 minutes. It's not like I can just tell her who he is to me because it wouldn't make sense without me telling her my whole past.

How am I supposed to tell her that he is my best friend, we were raised together within a cult who murder people for the supposed greater good and we were also supposed to get married and lead this cult until I had babies who'd take over us once they become of age. They'd actually try to get me to go to therapy and I went once it was part of a mission and boy did I scar him.

"Hey Amara try some" I turned to see Richard, honestly what kind of a name is Dick? He held out a pink fluffy puff on a stick.

"Looks like sugar" I assessed it a bit longer before breaking a small piece and trying it "Tastes like sugar" I scrunched my face at the sweet taste.

Up in the mountains we didn't really get to have sugar, I'll be honest we never had sugar except for the small treats my mother would occasionally get for us.

"She reminds me of someone, doesn't she remind you of someone?" Dick blurted out turning to Barbara who shrugged enjoying her own cloud of sugar.

My mind went back to Damian once again, his mother wasn't the most caring person and if Damian hadn't been born then the league would've gone to her, I mean for all I know she could've killed him.

"Hey what's wrong?" Barbara asked putting a hand on my shoulder I flinched at the touch slightly "nothing just thought about an old friend" I sent her a smile both of us knowing it was forced.

She finally let us go home and Dick had dropped us off saying that he had a family matter to attend to. A couple minutes later Barbara said she had an emergency and that she had to go which led me to be standing in front of a house in central city.

I somehow fell asleep on the car ride here and I swear I was only a sleep for a couple of minutes.

"I'll pick you up tomorrow night I'm so sorry, they're very nice people and very close friends of mine. Be nice and don't make them cry please" she rushed a hug on me and left me to the strangers.

The blonde man surrounded by the red heads came up to me first "hi I'm Barry Allen, this is my wife Iris" he pointed to the beautiful redhead stood beside him "and these are our nephews Wally and Bart" he said pointing to the red head and the auburnish boy beside him.

Eyes are the easiest lie detector they twitched when he talked about Bart so either Barts not Bart or he's not his nephew.

"I'm Amara" Barts eyes seemed to widen for a fraction of a second but I saw it and I knew that he knew something.

"Amara...?" Bart trailed off wanting to know my full name and I shook my head at him "just Amara" I sent him a look and he nodded turning away.

"Come on in, I'll show you your room and we can put your bag in there" Barry led me up the stairs and into a room on the left. It was fairly nice and moderately decorated room. There was a bed, a window and a closet.

"Sorry Wally's staying over for the weekend and he has his things all over the other guest room" I smiled at the kind man "it's perfect actually"

Not long after I was sat beside Bart who was showing me how to play video games.

Every couple of minutes I'd see him look at me, look confused and then look away.

The fourth time he did it I turned to him "what?" I rolled my eyes at his confused look "what?"

"Why do you keep looking at me what is going on in that tiny head of yours?" He began to stutter now "n-nothing you just remind me of someone" I rolled my eyes once again. "I remind everyone of someone" I muttered eyeing the boy beside me.

In the last hour I had spent with him, he'd been acting strange as if he knew something and he'd use words like 'mode' and 'crash' and from my research they aren't typical slang.

My suspicions were getting the better of me before I made eye contact with Bart and quietly began singing " hush now quiet now it's time to lay your sleepy head hush now quiet now it's time to go to bed " the lullaby my mother used to sing me when I was little.

Barts eyes flashed a faded purple colour and I smiled knowing it had worked. "Who are you and what do you know" and suddenly he started sprouting out random facts.

"MynameisBartholomewHenryAllenImbarrysgrandsonandIfromthefuturebutitwashorriblesoItravelledbacheretomakeitlessonhorriblebutI'vebeenstuckhereeversinceandyou'reAmaraGordonBarbarassisterandimaspeedstersoisbarryandsoiswallyandbarbarasbatgirland-" I was taken back that my mind control stopped and he snapped out of it.

"What just happened? Did I just? Did you just?" His eyes were wide and his words muffled with the hand he held over his mouth.

"It is you" he pointed at me but I couldn't comprehend anything. "She's my sister?" Bart shook his head "she's your half sister same dad different moms" I was instantly horrified "Jim's my father?!" I whispered to myself.

"I might've said to much but you were bound to find out I mean you were, well are my god mother in the future" he shrugged "I'm what?! You know what? Just stop talking" and he just smiled at me.

"In the future whenever I'd annoy you you'd try to hypnotize me to stay quiet but it would never work because you can't use it on people you love and I'm basically future you's child" I put my hand over his mouth "stop telling me stuff, you're ruining the future, I could literally not talk to your parents or Barry and Iris again and I'll make myself not your godmother" he shook his head promising to be quiet.

Wait, if he's from the future "is um... Did I ever find someone called Damian in the future?" I asked him hopeful, "you said I couldn't spoil anything" I rolled my eyes at him "just tell me if he's alive or not" he nodded his head "alive very much alive he died for a bit but he's alive" my eyes widened at the 'died' part, did he use the pit?

Barbara picked me up the next day, she was batgirl? She was incredibly smart and that would explain the sneaking out at night situation maybe she'd know how I could find Damian.

"Barbara?" She turned to look at me in acknowledgement "yeah?" She looked ahead driving "I know" she looked confused "about the night routine and dressing up as a bat" suddenly I was lurched forward my seatbelt barely pulling me back as Barbara pushed the brakes staring at me wide eyed.

"What?!" I shrugged "not that hard to figure out, that's beside the point do you know how I can track someone down, it's important" Barbara shook her head at me.

"First you tell me how much you know" she pointed at me "you're batgirl your friend Richard is nightwing and then theres Batman, red hood, Red Robin, Robin I know it all" I didn't actually I guessed the Richard thing and I honestly had no clue about the others.

"Fine I'll take you to the cave who's your friend?" She asked starting the car again "that's my business" I hope I can find him.