Christian's Pov
How was she getting married? That should be me. That ring was supposed to be from me. Her fingers were supposed to be wearing my ring not his. How? How did I let that happen? Why did it happen? Did she not feel for me anymore? How did I mess this up?
My hands were starting to hurt from punching the walls and blood was starting to seep out through the cuts but I didn't care. All I cared about was getting her back. Life without her was bleak and I don't think I can go on without her anymore.
She had always been my strength- the one thing that kept me going.
When the pain was excruciating, I stopped punching and slid down the floor thinking of how the whole situation would have been avoided if I didn't sleep with Emily, thinking of how her lips felt on mine when I kissed her, thinking about the what ifs.
She sounded so happy when she said she loved him. I frowned as I realized that she was never going to be mine again. I lost her.
The ache in my chest started as the sense of loss for someone important seeped in. I couldn't hold it in anymore and I cried bitterly.

I had the feeling that someone was watching us and I looked up. I couldn't believe who I saw standing in my room with tears in her eyes. Before I could say anything Emily had started talking.
"Charlotte you should have known better than to come back. The first time it happened wasn't a mistake and you can see that it will keep happening again. You starved your man and he went looking elsewhere for something you couldn't possibly give him. We are together as you can see and really happy. So if you would excuse us, we have something to get back too".
I hated myself in that instance when her tears finally fell from her eyes. I was supposed to protect her and keep her safe but here I was doing the opposite.
I jumped out of the bed calling her name but she didn't stop.
I had lost her again. My baby. I can't believe I went back to Emily again after begging for her forgiveness. I went back to the room angrily to see Emily smiling like she had won the lottery.
"Baby forget about her, let's finish what we started"
At that point I was at the brink of murdering her. If only looks could kill, she would be dead by the way I was shooting daggers from my eyes.
"Leave" that was the only thing I could muster up
She moved closer to me to hold me when I grabbed her hands with her clothes and threw her out of my room
"I never want to see you ever again. Don't make the mistake of coming back only if you want your corpse to be carried out of this room understand?"
Even after giving her that warning, she didn't seem to get it as she latched on to me till after our graduation ceremony. I watched as my baby looked at us that day from time to time holding tears in. I was broken and so consumed in my misery that I didn't notice Emily pulling my face in till she kissed me. As soon as I felt our lips connect, I disentangled myself and looked over to Charlie. Her eyes were really teary and I assumed that she saw us already. Her dad shot me a mean stare before walking away with her. If only I had known that that would be the last time I would be seeing her in years, I would have grovelled for her forgiveness.

"Chris"
"Christian"
"My love" the lovely voice called out again
The voice sounded so familiar and I struggled to place the voice
I opened my eyes to see her; my princess in a white gown. Her face was all made up and her hair was like an halo around her face. She looked angelic.
She was calling out to me. I stood up ready to hold her when I saw tears running down her face.
"I loved you Chris, I gave you everything. Why did you have to cheat?"
I was speechless. I bowed my head down in shame totally silent.
When I looked up she was walking away from me and I started to panic.
"Baby please don't leave me. I promise I'm a changed person now. I'm so sorry. Forgive me"
All my words fell on deaf ears as she continued walking away. I was rooted to the spot. I couldn't move as I continued to shout for me to forgive me with fat tears rolling down my face.
The dull ache started again and I fell down in anguish wishing for the circumstance to be different and she was here with me. As she left, the light left with her and I was left in darkness- total darkness.
I gave one last cry of pain as the darkness consumed me.

I woke up with a start realising that it was all a dream. My body ached as I realized the position I slept off in wasn't palatable at all, my knuckles were also with pain with dried blood all around them but above all, my heart was in terrible pain- the kind of pain that you would want to claw out but you can't because it's buried deep into your heart. I felt broken and dejected; I felt like a loser. I couldn't hold myself again as another wave of tears rolled down my face with one thought prevalent amongst other things I had lost her to him.
I'm going to get you baby no matter the cost. You are going to be mine and no one else I swear it. You just wait for me.

Who else is feeling so sad for Chris? I kinda feel bad for him though- you know, that kind of realization that comes after losing something or in this case someone of importance.
The pain can't be comparable to anything.
Anyways expect juicy chapters.
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Would also like to discuss with whosoever that is ready to share if they've ever felt this kind of pain.
I'll go first... I've felt it only once in my life up to this point and lemme tell you, it was hell. That's that about that so I'll be expecting your stories.
And who can guess what Chris is going to do next. Anybody with the right idea will get a special package from me😋
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