The rest of the day I kept to herself, and the tension from the others, while my anxiety levels rose as the day passed and my lust wouldn't let up. It just kept building. At the moment I could push the feeling away, well as long as I kept to myself. It was Lawrence that seemed to make it worse. Someone came up to my room every two hours or so to make sure I ate, saying it would help with the pull of the moon to be more manageable: the first was always the worst. I was surprised that every time they brought food I ate it all and was still hungry.

By the time the sun was setting I was ready to jump out of my skin. Pacing the room, body constantly shaking, I thought I was about to explode if I didn't get outside soon. A knock at the door had me jump and squeak with surprise. Whipping the door open, breathing heavy I was greeted by the Alpha and Pride leader.

"How are you holding up?" Lawrence asked.

Standing in the same spot for too long I started to pace again, "How do you people do this? It feels like I am going out of my mind. I can't stop shaking and my body feels funny and all I can think about is to be out there," I pointed out the french doors with a shaky hand. "There is so much going on in my head, but at the same time nothing. I can't do this, I am going to go mad!" I ranted.

"Come on Sam it's time to go." I was out the door and down the stairs before he could finish, but I heard them chuckle and I think I heard Jack add, "We will talk more tomorrow."

I refused to use one of the ATV's for the trip to the clearing, no matter how much they tried to convince me, I was not hearing any of it. Starting at a brisk walk came to a full out run by the time I hit the trees. The run was quiet, my only focus was to get there and lose some of the intensifying energy on the way, which only seemed to grow at every step. The concern I felt from the others was growing, not able to block it all out drove my legs faster and farther away from them and my own thoughts. Breathing heavy, pace slowing, body not feeling like my own, as the dark grew and the moons calling became stronger. The emotions of the others weighed on me no matter what I tried to do to block them out.

"You have to block it out Sam," Lawrence whispered from right behind.

Stopping on a dime and spinning around, Lawrence came with inches of smacking into me. Glaring at him, I hissed, "I can't. My skins crawling, my head hurts and spinning a mile-a-minute, hell everything hurts. It is taking everything I can just not to scream at the top of my lungs and curl up in a ball. I cannot do everything so why don't the rest of you FUCKS block it out." I turned and ran.

Breaking through the tree line, members from the Pack and Pride were already there waiting, standing in groups, with what seemed with all the patients and calm in the world. All heads turned and once they caught sight of me and that is where they stayed. I concentrated on my breathing, ignoring the questioning and some hostile stares. A part of me wanted to cower and slip back to the safety of the trees, but the little voice in the back of my head was telling me not to.

The voices in the background were no longer heard, due to the pounding in my head. Falling to my knees grabbing my head I let out an involuntary moan. Body trembling, muscles knotting or stretching, I could no longer tell as the pain increased with every breath.

Arms' gently going around lifting me up, Jack's soft voice made it through the pain as it subsides with his touch. "I apologize for not seeing this before and explain to you what was about to happen in more detail to prepare you. The cliff notes are we are going to place you in the circle with all of us surrounding you. We will share our energy to help with the first shift. It is going to hurt no matter what, but the more you fight it the worse it is. We are here for you so do not worry about anything."

Giving him a nod, Jack, placed me gently on the ground. As soon as his touch left, the full force of the pain hit and a scream ripped out from my throat.