Ch:19-The Love I can't deny.(Isabella POV)

Isabella POV :

Me Isabella Hunt! I don't know why, I still , like Travis so much.

It has been so many years. We went into the same high school. He was in the group of popular rich guy. He has looks, riches and popularity, not to mention the charm to make any girl fell in his feet. And I am also one of his fan girl . In back high school, I was nerd. I was extremely shy in nature but I always admire him from distance. Maybe he did not remember me. I was poor and nerd and never participated in any extra cireculam activities. On the other hand Travis was so popular for his being leader of the football team.

The girl who cheers for him and  beautiful rich girls, I can never come to his target. Every one know his playboy, badboy type nature. I don't it is a rumor or truth still i was into him. I can't take off my eyes from him. He was extremely handsome. I do not know, if I am ugly TAHt he never noticed me. Maybe because, there so many girls run behind him. When I was at high school so many guy ask me for date. But I never even think about it. It was always travis and travis. I used to dream about him, me being a good girl and he being a bad boy, he will fall for me and we will love each other and  getting married etc. Yeah, I was sucker of romantic books and the badboy type high school romance was all above of the list. But the daydream, never come into reality. He was  2 year senior. He left the high school. Before he left, I give myself courage to tell him but that day I find him with girl. They were kissing each other. I thought they were into relationships and I step back. My heart break into million pieces TAHt day. I was hurt. It was not like he was my boyfriend or something. We maybe barely talk, but still I was so much. I cry that day. But the girl later told me, TAHt the Travis never make girlfriends. He only do sex with them . He maybe have so many bad habits, but still I like him a lot. Reading so much  fiction and me being a daydreamer. I  was all standing in one leg to accept all his bad habit. To have him as mine. I can tolerate anything and do anything .

I was also thinking to change him by my love. As like me, i can do anything for him and he will also do  anything for me. Back TAHt time, I was obsessed with him.

I used to wake up at 5 at the morning! Why?? Not to do study. I padel up my bycycle at 5am  and like a super woman, I went to the school, to see him doing practice. Don't think, I was the only mad girl. So many girl used to do TAHt, at that time there was like a mela over Stadium.

Admiration, and watching from distance was the only thing I did back at school. The days of feeling for him ended. He completed his high school. It was so sorrowful for me. When he went to college, my father changed the town and also the school for me. I was at the same time happy and upset. Because, I will at last able to stop having feeling for him. But the feelings never changed. I did went far away but never stop loving him. I thought myself maybe it is because he was my first crush, love! That is why I can't forget him. People used to remember there first love, for whole life, I read it in a newspaper,who research about the matter. And I can't agree more.

Whenever, I look at any guy, I used to search travis in them. I went into some dates also but it never went more then 2 months. I says them no!

But when I noticed the same travis! I can't stop myself. Peeking at him is always my hobby. I am good at it. But while peeking, I start staring at him.

And this time, I thought he is worth of taking risk. I can do anything for him. The little high school girl in me,again woke up. This time I will not lose the battle without trying. I will try, at least to make him fall for me.

Author Pov :

Isabella was dreaming a lot about her future with travis. She think it is easy but it is not. When the playboy who never  belive in love. Who always rule his own life at his own terms! She think there love story will be like a Fictional romantic stories.

Isabella was trying hard to be in the eye of Travis. She tries everything even, she was went into the level, she did not hesitate to give him her virginity. That day at hotel, the deed would have happened but thank God it did not. She will went to any extent to make him happy.

When Travis says that he like experience girl more then inexperience one. Isabella went into a deep thought. She thought, what if Travis rejected her being virgin! She read in so many fiction when a bad boy leave a girl, she being a virgin. And Isabella can't take risk this time. It is like, do or die situations for her. So she think something very different. The native Isabella this time can't lose travis. Her long lost love and her first love travis.

Isabelle's POV :

I know what travis mean by, going to his place. I can't go with him now. And  if I get laid with him!  He will  find out that I am still a virgin. He would have hate me for keeping him in darkness. I can't afford TAHt. I dark shadow of insecurity cover my  thoughts.

My mind give me a idea. I look at travis and then take a deep breath. For you, I can do anything even if it mean giving the most precious thing away then I will do it.

I have to find someone for that. Whom I will not  be attached! It will be only for breaking my virgin wall, he will do the favor for me and I will became a experience women. He will teach me to please Travis properly. Then he will never went to other women. He will be only mine and I will be his.

And the perfect men like this caught my attention. TIM!!

My eyes were searching for one like him. I find him while Travis was standing in front of me.

My mind horse start running! A very dark and shitty game come.

He is perfect for the deed! Tim Smith!!

I try to avoid eye contact and said "Travis! I am not feeling well. I am trying too tried now. We will talk later."

The more I will talk, I become nervous.

Tim Smith, the greatest idiot. He is a white guy with blonde hair. His eye color is brown. His teeth were not perfectly straight. He were teeth shapers, to make his teeth finally straight. He is tall 6feet 2 inch. He is not so muscular, avarage body shape. I think he never went into gym ever. Not like my travis, he is so muscler, even he is only 21, Travis look so menly. But Tim, I think he is 26 years old and working in the company for few years. His hair is long but he always comb it properly. He is good at work but not good at chatting. He is like a tool of house. It is needable, but people doesn't bother with him. He has no way of talking, no firthy way or his smile is so yuck. When he smiled, he make strange noises. It will make a women interest less. He always be professional, but other then office work. He does not know anything. I never saw him with any girl either. He is like a air, he is there but not visible to anybody. Nobody is bother about him. He wear glasses, and it make him look more old and old. If you went to start a conversation, he does not what to say next. Who like that kind of guy! Girls like perfect guy but a fool was not considered as perfect guy. He is maybe a perfect material of husband or for play thing,for taking fun. but for fell in love he has no qualities. I don't understand from where he find 7 girl for sleeping around. Huh! Even I am also going to him. I will his 8th. Maybe girls like me, stuck in this kind of situation! To take there v card, to move on....

And I love Travis. He is mostly opposite to travis and TAHt is why he is perfectly fit for my v card taker. I will not get emotional attachment with him. And no emotion attached no hard feelings. I will not feel bad either and he said, he sleeps with women before. So no worries, he will gladly help me in this. And he will understand my situation. It will went on both consent, so I don't need to worry at all. But inside, I was scared as hell... This will only for knowing sexual life better. And maybe he will be a good teacher for me, but if it would be travis that would be better. But never mind, Travis will be with me all life. It is also for Travis. My travis.

I start walking to him with slow steps and I look behind where Travis was getting into a cab. God,help me!My heart was beating so fast. I think I am not doing it wrong!!

I ..i. what will say to him!? Tim, have sex with me?

No! It sounds like, I am slut!

Tim! Will you fuck me?

Oh! It looks like I am desperate and forcing him. It is not like, I sleep around. How will I know how to make a men, do TAHt with me

Tim,will you sleep with me!

Oh God, how will I tell him?

Should I do this? I am now doubting myself. I should not do this. Isabella, are you a TAHt kind of girl? Don't do this? Where is your parents moral teachs gone! How will they feel if they know about? But for travis, I have to do it. I know myself, if I back out now, I will never able to convince myself for this again. I have to do it.

In here, I am taking step forward but my mind is taking steps backwards. I have to do it today, or eles I will not able to do it. My mind will not give me consent for it.

Why am I like this! For travis, I am taking such steps. I don't want to do this but I have to. For my life with Travis!

My mind try to make me understand, Travis is a playboy Isabella. You are not like him. He is with you. After he is done, he will go to another. It is not like, in are miss world. He sees more beautiful girls then you. After he is done, he left them. You are no different. What is special in you, that you are thinking, he will be with you. Don't be stupid, stay back. Don't do it, Isabella. You will repent it after it. Please Isabella, come back. My mind was screaming aat me but only travis pictures was coming in my view.

I was standing in front of Tim. Who was busy with his phone!swiping down.

I stand in front of him and said "I want to spend a night with you, in your place." I try to say it sexily but it only went like I am reading a poem. How to come into a mood after seeing his face!

Tim casually says"Why! You don't have a place to stay?"

" I want to show you something! Our head tell me to show you. It is really important"

" offical matter! Then I don't want to see, I am hell tried. Please"

"yeah. I am also. But it is really important. It will not take much time!"

"Okay. Show me!"

Is he nuts! I can't show him in the middle of road!

"we should went to your place!"

"Okay. I have to ask my mom. If I am allowto take guset!" I was shocked, I thought he live alone in his place.

"You stay with your mom till now ?you didn't move out "

"Yeah. I live with my parents. They don't want me move out. I am there only son. They will not mind. You can sleep in our guest room after you show me what sir told you to!"

"you are 26."

"yeah. So what!"

"It is rare, to live with parents till this long. You have your own job also"

He nodded.

I changed my mind. We are doing it in my place. My roommate went out for some day!

"we are going to my place."

"what no! My parents will not mind doing official work at home."

I laugh at mind, who will do office work! We are going to personal work. And I don't want to disturb them.

I grab his tie and went into the cab with him.

It is time to break the line.

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