Today was the day, Today was the day I was going to meet Mike. No one in our house knows anything. Dad thinks it's just a normal trip. Mom was curious, but let's just says everything is going good. They still don't know everything. They know about Clara and Mike but not about Kevin killing my grandpa. That's something I'll never be able to tell them to be honest. Only Victoria and Chris know the whole truth, everyone else just think that they know everything. Well, I was very nervous. I was going to meet Mike. I don't know how he will react. I am just so scared of me just breaking down right there. Not that I am not willing to be expressive but because I really don't want to make the situation worse by keeping my personal issues first.
I hope Mike doesn't hate me. I just think he would be very mad at me. Ugh, I AM SO GOD DAMN NERVOUS. I was shaking and walking around everywhere like a stupid person. Chris helped me calm the hell down. But I was still so anxious. I am meeting him after fucking 10 years.

I was in the car which Chris and Victoria and I was literally shaking. Chris was trying to calm me down. But, Victoria was so much more nervous. She was so scared I could see it in her face. We are travelling down the same roads in which I spent my childhood. I smiled how happy I was here, how many things I have experienced here. I can't deny the fact that I have lived here and loved it. No matter what has gone down I still miss a part of me that I left here.

I entered Mike's gate. This is the same house which actually started my journey with him. The same house in which I shouted at him for not doing anything during our trigonometry project. Where are we now...who would have thought...

I rang the bell; my heart was beating so fast that I was able to hear it. Someone opened the door; she had blond hair and black eyes.

"Hey, Victoria right? I am Mike's counsellor, Jane Kapoor." she hugged her and we went inside.

"See Victoria, let me be honest with you. Situation has worsened since you went to London. He has been drinking non- stop. He cries all night. One day, due to sleeplessness his pulses went down. We had to call the ambulance immediately. We are here 24/7 but if the patient himself doesn't want to heal and recover trust me we can't do anything in it. He just needs motivation and the will to live, or else I am afraid...

"No mam, we'll try our best. I bet he is going to be just fine." I said. She looked at me and took Victoria to a side.

"She is Veronica right?"

"ye....

"Are you out of your mind, Victoria? This is not the time when we get his past involved."

"Ma'am trust me it will help him get over things."

"Listen, I don't think it's a wonderful idea. But, since you are here..."

Now I had to enter his room and see his face after 10 years. I still remember my first encounter with him when I entered his room. My face relaxed due to the chills and I thought how much I really missed him. With every step my heart beat was raising. I don't know if he will remember me or not and if he did I guess he will hate me so much for leaving him.

I opened the door and his eyes met mine same brown pools but covered with dark circles and redness. For a second he seemed to be shocked, then his face clenched and I thought he will just punch me in the face. I had tears... he was fucking miserable. His face seemed tried and so unhappy, his eyes were swelled and covered with dark circles he became so slim and just unhealthy looking. His hands were fractured due to the accident. He came near me I looked at me and then for a moment I was lost somewhere else.

He suddenly looked right in my eyes and hugged me. I smiled and hugged him back.

"I hate you so much, you left me, she...she left me. Why did you do this? Why don't I deserve happiness?"

At this point I started crying, I had broken down. I missed him so much. He was my best friend. This shouldn't have happened. I still had my arms around him. He was crying so loud. I can't believe my eyes. The happiest and jolliest person was now in this state.

"Listen, Mike... I know it's hard for you. It's very hard for you in fact. But, don't lose hope. If Clara would see you like this she would be so sad."

"Then, she should be, she made me sad. She should be sad,"

"Mike, but think how sad she would have been when she had to leave everyone. She was already so much sadder."

"I don't know! Stop talking about her. Leave me alone." he says and get up and goes into the bathroom and shuts the door.

I get up and leave the room. Chris and Victoria didn't enter because they wanted to give us some privacy but they probably heard his shout and go inside the bathroom.

Well, I left the property and entered my car. There is no way I'll leave him now. I can't just see him suffer so much.

I wanted to help him.