Relief flushed through me at the sight of her,

but as I caught on to the movement around her,

my legs seemed to stop moving.

Strong arms were wrapped around her waist

with a guy standing behind her.

Virginia's eyes were closed shut as she grinded into the man's front.

My heart squeezed painfully

as tears burned my eyes.

I watched as his lips trailed down her chin

and to her neck.

A drunken smile lingered on Virginia's lips

as he pulled away from her and dragged her away

from the swarm of teenagers.

My eyes followed them,

stomach tightening

as he pulled a giggling Virginia up the stairs.

It didn't take a genius to know what they were about to do.

And just the thought had hot liquid pouring down my cheeks.

My lungs weren't getting enough air,

my chest was constricted

and the back of my throat was covered in a vicious fire.

It felt as if the world was closing in on me.

All these bodies made me lightheaded.

And before I could pass out,

I turned around

and exited from the back door.

My mind was in disarray

and my body was on autopilot.

The bikini clad girls

and the splashing of water

all blurred into one

as I found myself cracking open can after can.

Sobs racked my body

as I forced the bitter liquid down my throat.

I should've known though.

I shouldn't be so upset.

Because no one here could ever think that this was right.

No one here could ever like someone of their same sex.

No one here

could ever understand.

Because no one here

would ever accept the disgrace I am.

~Sarah