Christian's POV

I watched her sleep and i knew no matter how comfortable i was i didn't have the heart to wake up. I looked around the room and couldn't believe about how much i had missed. By what i could see i shared this room with the special girl in my arms. There were bits and pieces of her everywhere and it warmed my hearts and broke it at the same time. She was with me every step of the way but it also means she had put her life on hold for an Invalid like me.

I wasn't lying when i said that i was aware of everything happening around me. I knew all that had happened in the past six months but some things were a little blurry. All i knew is that i was an invalid and could never walk for the rest of my life. How could i subject this beautiful being to life with a man who would never be everything she needed? I was very confused right now and all this thinking was making me dizzy.

I decided to just revel in the moment and let everything flow on its own. I looked around some more and saw a wall filled with pictures. It was everything i had missed in the past year adorning the wall. There were pictures of birthdays and all our families together. They had even celebrated my birthday and am pretty sure that was my mom's idea. Trace wasn't so much of a sentimental person and she hated being the centre of attention so pictures of her birthday too shocked me. I had missed my baby's nineteenth birthday. She was looking forward to that because we were to go to Brazil for a week to celebrate. Something else i had missed. There were pictures of us from graduation and then i remembered prom. I had asked her and i knew she had gotten the dress. Another minus for my team. This girl was strong and i admired her resilience. If it were any other person they would have already left but she was still here.

There is a slight knock on the door before it slowly opens revealing a middle aged nurse. She was short and stout with dark curly hair complementing her olive skin tone.

"Good morning. My name is Maggie and I'm the day nurse for is floor. When i heard you were awake i just had to come see it for myself. It truly is a miracle." she said smiling as she read my chart.

"Hae Maggie. It is good to be back." i say smiling down at the precious gem lying on my chest.

"You do know there is two beds in this for a reason. You two should not be sharing a bed least especially her lying on you. This is all so wrong." she says.

"I know I know and I'm sorry. I just couldn't help it and she didn't want to but i talked her into it. I don't have the heart to wake her. She hasn't slept properly for a long time and i owe it to her to let her sleep. One more hour please and I'll wake her myself." I pleaded.

"Okay fine but only because i know what this girl has been through. Ill be back in an hour with your medication and breakfast for the both of you ." she says before leaving the room.

I smile gratefully at her retreating back before i move slightly to get more comfortable. You would think that after sleeping for a year i would have a lot of energy but i don't think I've ever felt weaker. At the back of my mind i knew it was okay but i also knew i was nothing more than a burden. Tracy didn't deserve this and even if it hurt every part of my being i knew what i had to do. I look down at Trace and see that she was starting to wake up.

She stirs in my arms before opening her eyes and rewarding me with a beautiful megawatt smile shining through her grey eyes.

"I thought i dreamt last night." she says her voice still full with sleep.

"You still need to sleep more." i said.

"I can't even if i tried to. I have overdone it." she says staring at the clock.

"You haven't taken much care if yourself in the past year."

"Is that your way of telling me I've become ugly." she asks slyly with a hint of a smile on her lips.

"I don't think there is a way for you to become any less beautiful. If anything you are more gorgeous than ever." I say tucking a stray tendril behind her ear.

She sits up in bed blushing and squats besides me giving me a chance to stretch my sore muscles.

"Are you okay? Why didn't you wake me?" she asks when I wince in pain.

I smile at her apologetically and she frowns before getting out of bed and pulls the covers off my body. She stretches her hands out for me and i take them and she helps me sit up. I watch her as she takes charge of everything and helps me work my muscles with a few short exercises and soon enough I'm feeling all better.

"Thank you, that feels heavenly. Where did you learn that?"I ask her.

She blushes more"Your welcome and I have been taking classes."

This girl never seems to surprise me. She excuses herself to go brush her teeth and it gives me a few more moments to finally get the courage to get this over with. I know it will hurt her both but in time she will heal and move on. I just can't subject her to any of this for life.

"I want to spend the whole day with you but I do have a test I really can't miss. Will you be okay without me for a few hours?"She asks coming from the bathroom and when I don't reply she looks up at me.

Noticing the pained look on my face she immediately becomes concerned. The pain is in my heart not my body.

"Are you okay? Do I need to call the nurse in?"She asks worriedly.

"I'm okay but we need to talk." i tell her and motion to the seat next to my bed.

She looks at me wearily before seating down and looking at me expectantly. When she gave me that innocent look it was proving harder to do what i wanted to.

I turned to face her"First of all I appreciate all that you have dine for me. It proves how strong you are and how much you love me. I couldn't be any more grateful but it all had to stop. You can't put your life on hold any more for me and I can't subject you to this anymore so I want us to break up."I finish with a heavy heart.

She looks at me as if I've said the craziest thing before she erupts in laughter but sobers up when she sees am not laughing.

"Are you serious right now?"She asks her voice breaking and I nod because I knew if I talked I would crack and take back my words.

"I want to hear you say it Christian that we are done and you never want anything to do with me ever again." she demands angrily.

"This is for the best."I say.

"For you or for me huh?" she shouts.

"For the both of us."I say back firmly trying to hold my ground.

"You know what Christian fuck you. I spent one year putting my needs aside for you and I can't believe you are actually being such a dick about this. I love you and I don't care if you cant walk, I'm dating you not your legs so when you man up enough to be the man I need, come find me just make sure its not too late. I know I deserve the best Christian and I am worth it." She says before grabbing her phone taking off the hoody she was wearing and leaves the room.

I know she took it off because it was one of mine. I'm left there alone wallowing in my own self pity. I'm not even sure what I did was for the best anymore. I can feel my heart breaking knowing i can't even chase her because of how useless i am.

A few minutes later the nurse comes in with my food and gives me a disapproving look. She places my food on the table besides the bed and brings it close enough for me to access it.

"You men are all fools. You just lost a good one there but she still cares even with a broken heart. Demanding I bring your food and medicine. Boy if it were me I'd whoop your ass back into your senses. That girl has suffered and almost bled for you and that's how you repay her, so ungrateful."She rambles on and even though her words hurt I. know that all she's saying is the best.

She makes sure I eat before leaving the meds and a glass of water on the bedside table and tells me to make sure i take them and says she'll be back to make sure i took them. I feel the dizziness get worse and i take the meds before lying back on the bed and soon enough i slip back to sleep.

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When I come to again I feel as if am in a totally different room because everything that was there when I fell asleep was gone. The walls were bare and there were no books on the table at the far end. The extra bed was gone so were the picture frames that were scattered all over. In short the only thing that made me see this was the same room was the lingering scent of Tracy in the air. What had I done?

Before I can feel any more sadness the door slams open and my whole family pours in followed by Tracy's parents.

"What happened in here?"

"Where is the extra bed?"

"Where is Tracy?"

"Stian you awake?"

All this were said by my dad, Tracy's mom, her dad and Leticia respectively. Before I could explain Cia climbed onto the bed and went ahead to bombard me with a million questions. Soon the tension gets too much my mom asks Cia to keep silent so the adults can talk. She pouts but nods her head in acceptance.

"Tracy and I broke up so she left." I drop the bomb and its met with utter silence.

Tracy's mom is the first one to break it"My baby where is she?" she asks eyes filled with tears.

"I don't know, she left when I was knocked out and I don't think she would have told me either way." I explain my voice heavy with emotion.

"Christian what did you do?"My dad asks sounding angry.

Everyone looks at me before her parents leave the room but not before her dad gives me a glare and a threat that sends chills down my spine.

"She better be alright young man or you'll wish you hadn't woken up from that coma."

My mom and dad look at me with disappointed faces before they follow the Steele's out of the room. I am left with Cia who is busy toying with the buttons of my hospital gown.

"So munchkin what did you do for your birthday?" I ask her knowing her stories will take my mind off all this.

Her face brightens up immediately at the memories " Acey took me to Disney world together with Sea and Scola and we also went and swam with the dolphins. I was sad you couldn't come so Acey made t-shirts with your face on it and we wore them everywhere. It was so much fun. I saw Olaf and Elsa and......."

I soon zone out to what Cia was saying and think to myself. What have i done? In everything Tracy always thought ahead and always made sure to think of others. She had made everything epic for everyone and I had rewarded her by breaking up with her. What was wrong with me? I had been selfish and hadn't even thought of how it would affect everyone else. Everyone who was close to me loved and i knew they would hate me for breaking up with her.

"Stian are you even listening to me?" Cia asks folding her arms on her chest with one eyebrow raised. Oh i know who taught her that look.

"I'm sorry munchkin i just realized that I made a very huge mistake. I'm so stupid."I say beating myself up on the inside.

"Tracy says that all the time. Boys are stupid but we still love them because most of the time they don't know what they are doing?" Cia explains.

"Wise words from a wise young lady." i reply and kiss her forehead.

I know i can't go after her right now. She needs a break and ill give it to her but not too long because it might be too late like she warned me.

I'm sorry I was stupid baby but I will get you back.

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