Tracy's POV

I knew I was running late for class and for the first time it wasn't my fault. I had spent all night studying for a test and i had fallen asleep a few hours before dawn and now here i am running around trying to find my other shoe.

"Christian baby have you seen my shoe. Of course you haven't. I have to do everything around here." i whined.

In case your wondering why i am talking to myself its because Christian is still under coma. The stupid dweeb won't wake up. Just don't let him know i said that. The doctor says that even though we may not realize it he hears everything that's going on around him. Well am pissed because it's been a year and a lot has happened during that time. He's missed a lot of birthdays, prom, my first day of college, Cia's first day of school, my parents actually getting back together. I know its a lot but you'll catch up.

After the worst day of my life when i learnt that Christian's life was dependant on a machine everything changed for me. I couldn't just leave him so his parents arranged to move him to a private VIP suite at the hospital and i practically moved in with him. I got my own bed because his room was large enough and i didn't wanna risk sharing his hospital bed. During summer i took online classes for physiotherapy and as soon as the school year began i enrolled for the same course. My dreams of being an engineer were over and i got new ones of helping my man walk when he woke up.

I had researched a lot about his condition and with the influence of both families Christian got the best doctors out there and had a spinal reconstruction surgery as soon as his body was off the cast. It didn't mean Christian was now okay but he was healing well and he would regain all his movement from waist up as soon as he got up and moved around but his legs needed more work and that's why i was studying this so that i would continue helping him get better. I mean i was practically his live in nurse by now and did everything from sponge baths to changing his catheter. This all had happened after i caught a nurse feeling up my man as she gave him a sponge bath. Let's just say one broken nose later she was jobless and i demanded to be shown how to do everything needed for him besides the doctor responsibilities.

Six months ago we got Christian off the life support machine. Actually they were pulling the plug on him after the doctors and his family gave up trying to fake keeping him alive when he started breathing on his own. That was another terrible day for me because they actually tried to do that while i was in class so i wouldn't stop them. So when i got in that evening and found Christian unplugged from the machine i went ballistic. After i calmed down i was told the whole plan and what happened after and lets say the Sloane's and I were on rocky ground for a few months after that ordeal.

There is still so much to catch up on but if i don't leave now ill most definitely miss my exam.

"Bye baby i love you. Don't do anything crazy when am gone like die or actually wake up. I wanna be here to see those gorgeous blue eyes stare back at me when you wake up." i said to him peppering kisses all over his face.

I grabbed my backpack and wore my missing shoe that was under his bed as i left the room. I had to pass by the nurses station to let them know i had left.

"Hey Maggie am gone. Take care of him and...."

"Call you if anything happens." she completed for me dismissing me with a wave of her hand.

I was on first name terms with most doctors and nurses in this level of the hospital and a few others i liked to visit like the paediatric ward. I mean who didn't love babies and all the little kids. I took the elevator straight to the garage and i didn't waste a minute getting into my car and driving out of the garage. I drove fast but safe enough to not cause any accidents. No need to cause any more worry in the family.

This was not how i imagined my life but i had grown to adjust to it. Everyone else had moved on with their lives not forgetting me and Christian but let's just say they learnt to accept that he may not be a part of their lives anymore but i refused to think that way. The world was less brighter without Christian in it and i wasn't going to accept that this is the life i was doomed to live in.

Jesse and Scola were living together as they both attended Columbia. Jesse was on a sports scholarship and studying Mechanical engineering while Scola was on a full academic scholarship studying Law. We kept contact and even though the distance took its toll on our friendship we were still close. My parents got back together after they both realized their careers weren't worth loosing each other and i was very happy for them. We meet occasionally to catch up and bond since i don't live at home anymore. Christian's parents are still going strong and i see them every weekend when they come to visit and Cia was finally allowed to visit but all she knows is that her brother is in a very deep sleep but will wake up one day. All in all the only person whose life drastically changed was mine and i was okay with that. Christian was my life and i wouldn't change that for anything at all.

Now to the juiciest details of all. Flarrie and Tristan were both serving life imprisonment for attempted murders on both our lives. Flarrie had sabotaged my bike because she wanted Christian and we all know how that ended. Tristan on the other hand had sabotaged Christian's bike on race day and we also know the end to that. Digital evidence was found on both scenes and after both of them turned on each other they were imprisoned for life. I couldn't even bring myself to be mad and had just let the lawyers handle everything because i didn't want to end up in jail for two murders. What they did was stupid and childish and it ruined their lives. Everyone else was moving in but they were stuck in a never ending cycle of bars and tiny rooms.

That's pretty much my whole life over the past one year. I know it has been a roller coaster but its how my destiny was written and i accept it. I just hope it changes soon. I maybe strong but i know I'm burning the candle at both ends and it may blow up in my face anytime. I haven't had a break since the accident always studying or taking care of him and at times all i wanted was to rest but i always felt guilty so i picked up a book and said its all for him.

I love you Christian. Please come back to me.

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I was literally dragging my bag behind me as i got into the room. Today had been both emotionally and physically draining and it was not over yet. I still had to give Christian a sponge bath and change his catheter. But first i needed a shower myself so after locking the door behind me something i learned the hard way i walked into the bathroom. I missed soaking in the tub and even though we had one in the bathroom I've never used it.

I took a hot showers to massage all my muscles before i got out put on a pair of sweatpants and a sweatshirts and started doing my duties. By the time i was done i took sinner delivered to the room by the hospital cafeteria downstairs. My mom had asked them to be bringing it to the room because she knew i was too lazy to go get it myself. I took dinner before i sent the dirty dishes back to the cafeteria brushed, my teeth, grabbed a book and sat down to study.

I was nose deep into my book when my laptop dinged indicating an incoming call. I put my book aside and grabbed my laptop accepting the call.

"Hey bitch. Damn you look like shit." Scola exclaimed.

"Thanks am trying something new. Do you like it?"I joked.

"I'm serious Trace when was the last time you slept for more than two hours?" she asks concerned.

"Don't make me lie to you. How are you and Jesse?"I ask changing the subject and it worked because for the next hour my best friend helped me escape my reality.

"Anyway long story short we are not getting a puppy."She concludes.

"Good because neither of you is responsible enough."I finish with a yawn.

"Girlfriend do me a favor and sleep or as soon as the man behind you gets up I'm telling on you." she threatens and I laugh.

"Okay fine only because you asked so nicely."I reply sarcastically.

We say goodnight and I shut my laptop. I get up and draw all the curtains before i unlock the door in case of an emergency and check on Christian's vitals. All seems good so I go to dim the lights when i remember i haven't peed. I hated ruining my sleep because I had to go to the bathroom so I always try to empty my bladder before I sleep.

"All good now I can finally sleep." I exhale as i get out of the bathroom.

"What no goodnight kiss for me?" a raspy voice whispers and when I see Christian sitting up on the bed I scream bloody murder.

This is not the way I imagined it happening but he scared the hell out of me. Everything happens so fast because next thing I know is the nurse rushing in with a doctor in tow and as soon as they notice he's awake they are fussing all over him checking vitals and stuff. All y do is stand frozen in the corner unable to move as we stare at each other. How I'd missed those baby blues and how they made me feel when he looked at me like that. The doctor excused himself to go call his parents and the nurse left after filling his chart.

"Why are you standing all the way over there?"He asks his voice still scratchy from not being used for a long time.

I go to the bedside table and fill him a glass of water before I hand it to him with a straw.

"Take small sips. Your body needs to readjust to a lot of thing." I say in autopilot mode.

After he is done I put the glass back and we continue staring at each other. This seems to frustrate Christian because he blows out air before grabbing my arm and pulling me into his arms. I squeal as I fall into arms. I've missed this and that's when the dam bursts and I cry. The day of the surgery was the last time I cried so I had a lot buried in and I let it all go. Christian held me in his arms and let me cry. For someone who had been asleep for a year he was pretty relaxed.

"I was pretty aware of what was going on around me."He says as if answering my thoughts.

"You said it out loud. That too."He says and we both laugh.

"I've really missed you. You have no idea just how much."I whispered staring at him as I ran my fingers through his hair.

"You know what I really want to do right now?" he asks and I shake my head. "This." he says before smashing our lips together.

It wasn't fast or slow, it was the perfect kiss and we both expressed how much we had missed each other. His lips tasted like heaven and even though i had kissed them over a thousand times over the past one year nothing could measure up to feel his lips move against mine. It sent tingles all over my body and i knew that everything i had gone through was all worth it if this was my reward.
Our kiss was interrupted when the door opened and the family poured in and started fussing over him. I stood in the corner and let everyone get their time with him because i knew i had an eternity with him.

The doctor came in an hour later and said that Christian needed to rest so they could all come back in the morning. Reluctantly everyone left leaving us two.

"You need to get some rest." we both said at the same time before we laughed and i moved towards my bed.

I wanted to talk more but he needed to rest and i was beat too.

"Come here." he said I saw him struggle to scoot over for me.

I could tell he was frustrated from the fact that he couldn't feel his legs but he was awake and that was more important to me.

"Christian no I don't want to risk hurting you."I said though I was really tempted.

"Please." he begged and my resolve wore down when he pulled the puppy face on me.

I gave in and helped him move to make space for me before I got in bed with him. I lay on my stomach, my head his chest, one hand just in front of my face and the other under the pillow. He lay on his back both his hands holding me close and though he couldn't feel it our legs we're intertwined.

We talked for a while before we stayed silent listening to each others heart beat and eventually fell asleep. The world was finally bright once again with Christian finally back in it.

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