cognizant (adjective): aware of something

»Your POV«

I was drowning in so much misery and sadness that I completely forgot to lock my door to ensure my privacy. Just as I recalled it, Kanato suddenly barged into my room, seeing me in my weak state.

"Oh fuck no, I'm not in the fucking mood to fight with you-" I tried wiping my tears quickly as well as pushing him out of the door in the process but he wasn't budging.

"You'd probably want to hear this." He tried to say.

"No, no, n-o." I shook my head. "Not right now-"

"I can remember somethings clearly now. Like how some of my brothers look like, and whose ashes were those that I found." He stated, immediately making me stop pushing him away.

"Seriously? You aren't lying?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said firmly. "Those ashes belong to my mom, whom I... never mind."

Then he took a look on my bedraggled self, oh shit. "Wait are you crying?"

"No, I'm sweating, it's hot as fuck in this fucking room." I shot, pretending to wipe sweat from my forehead.

"It's not hot in this room."

"Well...I exercised alright!"

"Didn't know that exercising included wailing." He smirked. Ugh, how I want to slap that fucking smirk off his mouth.

"Look, if you're crying because of those people you call friends-"

"Called friends." I said, emphasizing the 'ed' part.

"Whatever, same thing. But you weren't aware about it alright? You were just how I am right now, incognizant."

"Alright, enough wise words and wisdom because it sucks." I rolled my eyes. "You don't seem to be one who comforts a person anyway."

"Ouch, that hurts very much." He dramatically feigned heart break, ending up in a fail.

"Oh god are you okay?" I asked in sarcasm, putting my hand on his chest as well. "I don't feel...anything."

In where the heart was supposed to thud, I didn't feel anything. Nothing really, just a little bit of electric feeling on the tip of my fingers, weird.

"Harassment!"

I immediately took my hand back. "You wish!" I shouted, grabbing a pillow and throwing it at him.

I decided that I should just help Kanato for now, this should take my mind of the friendship issue anyway.

By the time he's gets back to his real home, I hope the drama gets less. I'll start to be cognizant, I swear it.

I'll be aware of anything, my real friends, the backstabbers, everything.

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I suck at writing rn huhu

But i'll be better promise, i just feel lost right now u know, like i dunno what i really want

Aaanyways enough of that, part 2 starts right now and it might be the longest among all parts 😁😁😁😁

-KT