dear journal,

luke came out today, when i went to talk to him he walked away mumbling something about ''not being real, this is all a lie'' and it hurt me, because i thought he liked me

i came back to my room, took off my blue flowercrown and now i'm just laying here in my bed with messy hair

i'm feeling so bad now, luke hates me, michael was training his gestual language and i didn't want to interrupt him, calum has some appointments and i'm all alone

i can't make friends, all i say is useless crap, i am useless

i want luke, he makes me feel special

love,

ash

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i have this awkward relationship with flower crowns because i think they're cute but they don't fit me well so fuck off flower crowns i hate you jk you're pretty