It has been a week since meemaw passed and I haven't shed a single tear from my eyes. Why? I don't know. I wish I knew. It just feels so unreal. Like it was all a dream. I don't know what to feel.

That night mom disappeared again, she must've sensed meemaw's death and may have come to say goodbye but before I could even comprehend the situation she was gone. I was so rattled that I didn't know what to do. I just stood there by meemaw's bed panicking. I don't know for how long. Thankfully Abel was on patrol and heard mom's scream. He rushed in and quickly pulled me in, turning my head away.

"Help is on its way." He said softly as he took me out of the room. I asked him to check on meemaw and he said he had already done that. He must've sensed her heart. He helped me into the living room and stayed there with me even after they took meemaw. After that he brought me to the Hale Mansion. 

If he hadn't come that night I don't know what would've happened. I'm grateful to him for handling that situation for me. 

I haven't been able to reach out to Dad since that night. His phone is off and every time I ask Derek, he tells me that he's in contact with him and everything is fine. There's an important thing he's doing. I don't know what was more important than meemaw's funeral. Uncle Scott was supposed to come to town but he had to stay back too. I don't know what's going on but no one is telling me anything. It's frustrating. 

The worst part of everything is that the whole town showed up at meemaw's house but the people that were actually close to her were nowhere to be found. 

The loud thud from the door opening startled me as I looked up to see Abel standing in the doorway.

"Naveed wants you in the training hall." He said and I nodded as I stood up and picked up my phone and keys from the side table. 

I turned to the door and saw Abel still standing there observing me. 

"What? You're going to escort me there?" I asked and he shook his head and stepped back as I went out and locked the door. 

"Are you feeling okay?" He asked. 

I was a little surprised as I turned my head towards him. "Are 'you' feeling okay?" I asked and he observed the taunt in my voice. 

"You may think I'm an asshole but I know how it feels to lose someone this close to you." He said. 

"And what am I supposed to do with that knowledge?" I asked and he really seemed fed up with my attitude. 

"Just…  you can come to me if you want to talk or anything." His eyes reverted away from me into an empty space. 

I let out a sigh. "I'm sorry. I just don't want to talk about anything right now. I'm not in a mood." I said and he nodded. "Thanks anyways." I said and he smiled. 

"It's okay." He lightly patted on my shoulder.

"How's Ryker doing?" I asked.

"Well, he's still in quarantine." He replied and I nodded.

I also haven't seen Ryker since the funeral. I don't know what happened to him but he had a sort of seizure  during the funeral. All Derek and others have told me is that he has a viral infection of some sort that's why they're keeping him in quarantine.

Maybe I did broke him?

"Anyways, I'll see you around?" He said and I smiled lightly and nodded.

'See you around'. Man.. I hate 'around'. I recently moved to the Hale Mansion. Because I don't have anywhere else to go. 

I made my way through the halls as everyone passed by me. I don't know anyone here. There's a total of fifteen kids other than me in this mansion. The strays that Derek takes in. I guess I am a stray too now. 

I went into the training hall and found it completely empty. There was a new training course set up which expanded throughout the hall. I sighed as I looked at the course. It looked like a sort of maze with actual weapons and deadly obstacles. 

Well, if they were deadly I would've been dead but they're still very painful. 

Coach- Chief Naveed has been training me alone since I have no background in fighting, he thought it's better that he train me one on one first and when I know the basics he'll let me join the others in training but I have to prove to him that I'm capable of doing that. 

I made my way downstairs into the main hall and saw the chief sitting in his chair playing some game on his phone. He was too focused on his phone. I think he didn't notice me. 

"Umm… chief?" I said and he didn't even look up. I walked up to him and he seemed so focused and into it that I didn't want to bother him. 

"Think fast, Stilinski!" I heard a female voice from behind and turned before I could do something. I saw a sharp edge near my right eye. My heart stopped right there. 

The sharp edge went down and I realized it was an arrow and someone was holding it from behind me. 

"That's the second time, Stilinski." Abel said and I turned my head to look at him. 

Then I quickly turned my head to look in front of myself. Lisa was standing there with a bow in her hand. 

"You want to hurt her?" Abel asked as he walked towards Lisa. 

She shrugged her shoulders a bit and smiled. "I knew you would jump in, you big softie." Lisa teased him and he shook his head in disappointment. 

"What's happening?" I asked and turned back to the chief. 

"I'm going on a date" He said finally looking up. "You'll be training with them." He stood up. 

"They'll be teaching me?" I asked. 

"No.. They'll be chasing you. Today's lesson is survival." He said and I turned to look up at Abel and Lisa. 

Lisa sent a flying kiss towards me. 

"But they're the best." I whined and he ignored me. 

"We won't be that hard on you." Lisa said. 

"You just blew one of my eyes out." I complained and she simply smiled. 

"I'm not ready." I whined to the chief again and he looked me dead in the eyes. 

"Kid, if you weren't ready I wouldn't have called them here." He said and Abel coughed behind me in a taunting manner. Chief gave him a look and then turned his attention to me. "Remember the basics. This whole training course is designed for survival. You don't have to fight them. You just have to reach that end of the room without getting caught."

I sighed as I looked at the course. "I don't think I can do it." I said and I can see how upset he was with the expression on his face. "Just give me another week." I pleaded and he shook his head. 

"If you can't complete it then you're not going to join the force."He said and my eyes widened in shock. 

" But-"

"And you two!" He ignored me and looked at Abel and Lisa. "If you're lenient with her. I'll make sure you both also don't go out in the field ever again." saying that he walked away from us and went upstairs. 

I turned to look in their direction. "You heard him." Abel said as he walked towards me. "We'll give you a head start of 30 seconds." He said and Lisa agreed with him. 

Well. I don't have a choice here now do I?  I turned and rushed into the course.

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Twenty five. 

That's how many times I have lost to them and they're very not lenient with me. It's like they're actually hunting a fugitive and I have actual injuries on me. There are cuts on my hands, blisters on my feets and a small burn on my right arm. 

I rushed inside a small compartment in the maze and before I could look for a place to hide Abel held my arm.

"Seriously, Allison. You're not even trying." He taunted me and I pulled my hand away from him. 

"I am trying!" I bit back. 

"You're distracted." He said and I glared at him. 

"No. I'm not."I said and turned away from him. 

"Let it out." He said and I stopped in my tracks. 

"What?" I asked as I turned. He seemed a bit intimidated. I think he doesn't want to be insensitive. 

"You.. You haven't cried once." He said. 

"What do you want me to do? Cry? You want me in tears?" I asked as I stepped towards him. 

"I just want you to let it out. It's clearly holding you back." He argued. 

"What's holding me back? What do you think is so hard that I have to take it out in front of you? Why are you being like this?" 

I felt all the control leaving my body. I've been holding myself up right for a whole week. My whole life is a mess. 

"Just leave me alone! I just want to be left alone! I don't want your pity. I just… I'm.." 

I'm tired.

I'm exhausted.

I'm scared. 

I'm alone.

He stepped towards me and I stepped away from him and touched my face. It was wet. I was crying. Tears were flooding out. 

No. Don't. I can't let anyone see I'm weak. I can't be vulnerable not here. Not now. Please don't.

I was going to rush out of there but Abel held my hand softly. 

"I'm sorry." He said pulling me into his arms. "I didn't mean to push you."

I don't know why but I started sobbing out loud. My fists clenched onto his shirt. 

"I hate you." I mumbled and he chuckled. 

"I hate you too." He said caressing my hair softly. 

I heard footsteps behind me and Lisa wrapped her arms around the both of us. 

"You're not alone, Ali." She said resting her chin on my shoulder. 

Maybe I was being too obvious with my mood swings that they felt how I was feeling. But I'm glad someone noticed. I'm happy that I didn't have to let all the loneliness eat me. 

"It's true. You're a part of us now." Abel said. 

"You're part of the pack now." 

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Ummm... I don't have any excuses. If you're still reading this. Thank you😭