When we got home, I took off my jacket and went straight to the shower.
My mind is  blinghted by negative thoughts. I, mean Yugyeom always tells me ''I love you'' and all sort of sweet stuff, but now I am not sure that he actually means them. Should I just ask him then?...

I turn the water on, leting it warm up, while I'm undressing. I locked the door just in case...I don't feel like having round two now....I sight and get in the bathtub. I let the water sprinkle and fall on my head, washing away all the bad thoughts.

After an amount of time, I hear Yugyeom knocking at the door.

''Bambam-ah, can I come in?'' he says with a funny voice.
''Wait, let me finish washing up first and I will let you use the bathroom, I will be quick I promise!'' I answer.
''But I wanna take a hot bath with you baby boy~''
''Next time...'' I say on a slighy irritated tone.
''Are you alright Bambam?'' his voice sounds quite worried.
''Yeah, I guess we have to talk a bit when I'm done here.

As soon as I finish taking a bath, I go straight to our room. I notice Yugyeom sitting on the bed, looking thoughtful and rather worried.

''Kyum...I meant to ask, do you really feel love for me? or is only physical attraction?'' I get on the subject.

He looks with some big puppy eyes at me, he's so adorable and irresistible.

''OFCORSE I LOVE YOU!!'' he stands up, moving closer to me. I immediately look away. ''What kind of questions is that, I'd give my life for you Bambam!'' he takes both of my hands and holds them gently.
''I thought you-...'' he cuts me off.
''Sorry for being such a horny asshole!'' he hugs me tight.

He is crying. I can feel his tears dripping on my back. He really doesn't want to lose me, this proven me he really loves me, I'm such a dummy thinking he only stays with me for sex...

I pat his back ''I'm sorry for doubting you Kyum, I love you.''
''I love you a lot!'' he keeps hugging me, his voice is shaky.

The whole evening was all cuddles, kisses, hot chocolate, sweet talk and all sorts of cute stuff. ❤