I was on my way home from the pond. Angry.
I smashed a tree but got smashed myself.
I sigh. I wish someone could just understand.
I walked through the door to my house and climbed upstairs .
I fall on my bed and sigh.
The great Stoick the vast...and his toothpick sized excuse for a son.
A single tear fell. No. I'm a Viking!
Vikings don't cry.
I viped it away and listened.
Everything was quiet. the attack is over. Finally I can walk outside.
I was on my was out when I was lifted off the ground.
"Hiccup! Get inside!"
My dad shoved me inside with him and closed the door.
"You cannot just walk out!"
"But dad.."
"No! Listen! You bring trouble everywhere! If you not staying inside the whole village can die!!!"
He screamed.
I looked down on the floor. He has right. I am totally useless.
"Stay inside!!" He roared ans run out to fight off the last dragons.
I sniffed and vipes my nose. No I am not a viking. I can cry now. It's ok.
I broke down sobbing and climped up to get some private space.
I cry into my pillow, It is just not fair. I sat up and took a toy from under the bed. A toy my mom made me.
She never gave up on me...
I hugged the toy and lay down again.
I can still remeber her voice...her voice...

Sleep baby sleep
Don't  be afraid
No one can hurt you now
Sleep baby sleep
And don't be afraid
I will be right here with you
Sleep baby sleep
I will always love you
Sleep baby sleep
And be safe...

I sobbed and hugged the toy tighter.
Mom...
Why did you has to go? Why can't dad understand?
I open my eyes when I heard someone climp the stairs.
I closed them and dug down under the blanket. I don't exist anymore.
"Hiccup ?"
I open my eyes. It was Astrids voice.
"Go away." I could not hold back a sob and of course she heard it.
She sat down on the bed ans took the blanket off me.
She look at me with concern.
I was res eyed, still crying , hugging a toy tight, like it would dissepair i I don't.
"What is it? I would like to thank you for the ride . It was amazing. You were right about the dragons."
I changed so I was looking down in the pillow, don't want to face her.
"Well... Why are you not outside? The attack is over."
I sobbed louder and she laid a hand on my shoulder and look down so we were almost nose to nose if my nose was not in the pillow.
"Whats wrong?"
I tried to calm down but I has not cries in years and now it all come out. Emberessing?...yes.
"M..m..my dad... He..."
I managed to get out. She nodded and lifted my up, surprisingly easy and hugged me.
"...hey...it's ok ssshhh..."
I sobbed into her shoulder. She was the only one...
The only one.