(Art above not mine, credits to @callmehkittykatty)
In 29, August, 2019: ALL OUT OF LUCK:
Life ain't just about happiness
I know that well,
But why do I feel this sadness
It beats me up like hell.

I just wish to have luck again,
I wish to feel nice,
I always imagine all of you are my friend,
But why do I feel like I got stabbed by a knife?

The flowers bloom, stories lie,
I wish to be loved,
But why do I feel like I need to die?
I just see what fate brings above.

Young age, still feel sadness.
I just want happiness.

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September, 17, 2019: I give up:

Bad at school, no luck behind me,
They say in my head: WHAT A FOOL!
My classmates got away with it, why does fate see,
My classmates' lives will be really cool.

I feel like I should update, but why don't I feel joy?
Tired fingers, this poem is all I could write.
My brother still has so much luck, maybe because he's a boy.
This is all I see, in this night.

My lies, my suffers, all just bad,
I only see my drawings are awful as me,
Now my heart just feel sad,
The fate of death, is all I see.

I love the light of the sun,
But the consequenses will come, trust no one.

Heh, hey guys, you may be wondering, why did I post this on here? Well this book is what I could think of when I feel sad, I wanna update, but tiredness caught me. Stay positive now, everyone.