Some of the sentences in this chapter are from my journal in real life :D Just saying...

Five brightly, yet all different, colored birds chirped loudly on a pole just outside of the Matsuno's home at exactly seven o'clock.

Ichimatsu snapped his eyes open. He was still sitting at the table in the living room, and Jyushimatsu was nowhere to be seen.

"I hope he's up and hyper like his usual self," Ichimatsu thought, stretching and yawning loudly.

And just then, all five of his brothers ran in the room, carrying a big bowl filled with pears.

"PEARS! PEARS!" Jyushimatsu cheered, jumping up and down excitedly.

"Tch..." Ichimatsu mumbled, sitting a bit closer to the table as everyone else crowded around the bowl that was now on the table.

"Make sure everyone gets the same amount, Oso!" Choromatsu ordered as he passed around six smaller bowls.

"Yeah, yeah, I know!" Osomatsu laughed as he sorted out the cut up pear slices somewhat evenly.

"What am I even doing..." Ichimatsu thought as he watched all of his brothers eat the pears. "I should probably eat the ones they gave me...but I'll probably just puke them all up afterwards...."

Ichimatsu stuffed a slice into his mouth, enjoying each and every second of the pear as its sweet juices ran down his throat. He loved pairs just as much as his brothers did. That was the one thing the all still had in common. Pears.

"Hey, Ichimatsu," Choromatsu said, his mouth full of pear. "What are you planning on doing today?"

Ichimatsu stuck another pear in his mouth, trying to act like he hadn't heard. He already knew the all knew he was supposed to be looking for a job, but saying it out loud would make him sound like he was bragging.

"Ichimatsu?" Choromatsu asked again, poking him from under the table.

Ichimatsu flinched, then turned his attention towards Choromatsu.

"I can't..I cant..." Ichimatsu thought.

"Are you going to go look for a job?" Osomatsu asked, slightly laughing.

"Well thanks, Osomatsu. I really didn't FREAKING need you to bring that up..." Ichimatsu thought angrily, throwing another pear slice in his mouth.

"Are you really going to look for a job?" Todomatsu asked surprisingly. "You're the last person I would expect to want to do that, Ichi!"

"Tch..." Ichimatsu spat. "It's not like I want to..."

Everyone continued to literally swallow their pears whole until they were all gone.

Immediately, when Ichimatsu finished, he got up from the table and left the room. Since he hadn't changed his wet clothing from that night, Ichimatsu walked up the stairs of the house to sit on the roof.

The sun was shining as Ichimatsu walked down the slightly sloped roof. The streets were still wet from the rain, but they were quickly drying up under the heat of the sun.

Sighing, Ichimatsu sat down and looked at the sky. The five birds were still singing loudly, but there was something slightly depressing about their chirps today. It's like the were trying to sound happy, but deep down they wanted to cry out and mourn.

"Everyday is the same...nothing ever changes. I just stay at home getting weaker and weaker. It's like a prison here. It's worse than the hospital. I'm surrounded by people who act like they care...when really I'm just in their way. Even when I go places, I feel trapped. Just the thought of being alone makes me depressed. I want to be happy again...Yet deep down, I know I haven't been happy my entire life. It's all been one huge lie that I can't escape. Loner. Scum of the earth. Trash. Disappointment. Liar. Disgusting...." Ichimatsu felt his eyes fill with tears.

Immediately, he wiped his eyes with his hoodie sleeves.

"Crying won't fix anything...it only makes things worse. Heh...But how much worse could a person like me get?" Ichimatsu suddenly yearned to see all six of the birds flying together again. But the fourth bird had died...and he would never see them happy together again.

"Just like how, in the past, we all treated each other the same...we were all like friends in a way. Jyushimatsu especially. He was always there...but now we've all gone out separate ways...why can't we go back...?" Ichimatsu let out a slight laugh in spite of himself.

"Who do I think I am...? Some person who mourns over the past? No...I'm just lonely trash." he said out loud, standing up to go back inside.

"I've got to find a job now. I can't keep letting my thoughts play with me...I need to stay distracted like the doctor said..." Ichimatsu thought.