Have you guys seen that one Teen Titans episode when Starfire was "replaced" with her evil sister and planned on leaving?

Damn I can heavily relate rn.

Except I'm not being replaced, I'm being ignored or forgotten

I just think it sucks

I keep asking myself if I had done anything wrong? What is REALLY wrong with me? Am I not really good enough?

Am I just really a bad friend?

Yeah, probably. I mean, I can't keep a friendship for more than two years without trying to push them away so they don't have to.

And now that sentence is going in my depressing but insightful quotes

Also I keep telling myself to leave

But my brain keeps fighting back with itself

Its a painful yet endless cycle

Tbh the people I look up to the most when I feel bummed out are my friends

But its always during times when me feeling bummed out is not the good time for them I guess

I want to talk to people about my problems so badly but I'm only going to lose them much more

It sucks

Maybe that's why I'm always relying on Wattpad because I'm technically not talking to anyone and people only decide to read my books if they decide to

Im just really hoping I die soon because I already gathered enough evidence that the people that I revealed myself most to wouldn't care.

I just hope I have a death that people wouldn't remember so I don't have to rest in guilt

Because the only thing that is forcing me to keep living is guilt

And it sucks
It really really really sucks

Tbh I feel like the world is telling me "BRUH DON'T DIE DONT YOU SEE THAT SO MANY PEOPLE SUPPORT YOU WITH ALL THESE DRAWINGS AND SUPPORT"

But I'm always like "buT tHaTs thE tHinG iTs oVerWhELminG aNd i jUsT wAnnA rEsT aNd bE wiTh mY fRieNds wiThouT fEeLiNg aWkwArD aNd mAkinG tHinGs mOre AwKwArd-"

It just sucks

Why do I keep saying that, you ask?

Because it sucks.

Anyway imma commit die now owo