When I want to tell my friends at school to just leave me alone

Its only because idk, I want to be alone and be myself and dont get pressured by how they view me

Im so fricking different that I dont know any games they talk about besides Minecraft and etc

Every time I do something wrong they either laugh at me or probably try their best not to make it seem like they want me to leave

Tbh, I would've left anyway

It just sucks

I was talking to my friend, but then her best friend joined in and saw me and decided to make this face like Ive grown a third eye but they tried their best to stay calm so they just stepped away

Tbh, I cant help but feel hatred and annoyance towards those kind of people around me. Its just, it doesnt make me sad, it just disappoints and frustrates me

If they want me to leave, then say it to my fricking face

And if they cant because they think Im ugly, then please, be my guess and just stay away from me as much as possible and stop acting fake

Ive grown really tired of people not talking to me about how they feel towards me and themselves

I think its better to know than wonder

To be really honest, I think there's just some controversy around me at school

Teachers look me in the eyes too much, a girl is just reaaaally trying her best to be nice to me, even staff members are acting weird around me.

The whole school is literally about "being included especially for special kids" and I get that. Kids who struggle towards disabilities need as much care as they possibly can.

It just sucks that really none of the others kids see that

If I could spit at them about being reckless and ignorant, I would

I just really hate immature people

They really just cant move on

But its not even rare to find someone who is not included nowadays.

You think you earned the hearts of others but theres still this wall keeping you away.

I really do wanna be alone for a whole day

A whole week

A whole year

Hell, maybe all the time

Communication is key but finding a way to use it with someone is the lock

A key is useless without its lock

Okay enough of my dumb side