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It's not really a poem but is...sort of. I can say it's a small something. Hope you enjoy. Please share your thoughts about this and the other poems.

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Do you know what it's like?
When one day you are no longer someone's favourite.
When nobody cares about your opinion anymore.
And you are no longer invited in conversations.

You try your best to suit their needs.
Agree with anything they say even though you feel a bit unsure.
Slowly you no longer feel like yourself, 
And you start feeling insecure...

Your best friend says she loves you,
That she'll never leave you alone.
You believe her wholeheartedly, but you always feel yourself asking,
"Why doesn't she hang with me anymore? "

And it's always fine, because you don't want to lose her.
So you just wait, wait for her to come back to you
Or reply to your texts late at night,
Even though she has been online for twenty minutes.

Your family loves you, cares about you.
But you don't know if they love you as a person or just because you are 'family'.
You want someone to understand your situation.
Your situation? It's nothing.... It's everything..

Mentally you are drained..
Physically, your heart feels like it's been stabbed by millions of Needles at the same time.
You suddenly feel the air pressure increase and your windpipe starts choking.

Maybe you are going through depression.
Maybe not because on the outside you just smile.
The world becomes jumbled around you and you don't know what to do..
Except maybe freeing yourself from the misery called life.

But no... You won't do it because there are people who will be hurt.
Will they be?... You don't know but you still carry on because you wanna see them.
Maybe because you don't wanna die?
You don't know.... Anything..

Maybe your head is haywire but, your heart is strong.
You realize that life is too precious to give up, even if it's too difficult to live. Occasionally you feel things are changing.
But it always goes back to square one.

You will never give up, because deep down somewhere you know,
Know that you are a warrior, a fighter.
And you are all alone to fight your inner demons.
And only you can defeat them.

The world might not recognize your worth now.
But someday they will.
Somewhere there will be someone who understands you truly and completely.
And by slashing wrists and hanging by neck will always keep you deprived of those chances.

Little moments of happiness are still there.
Maybe they are not enough.
Because at the end of the day you are always alone....
Lonely...
But you live to feel the small moments of serenity in the chaotic world.

In future, you find yourself happy, content...
The war, that enrages right now, long gone at that time.
But right now you find yourself, alone, 
In this 'never ending' abyss called loneliness..

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It was a bit darker than the two but still...

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