tw // cheating, self-doubt, losing self-worth

Hakon Lestrade

11:24 PM
October 30

Hakon Lestrade:

Clesha

Are you just going to cry all day in your room? 

Did you even touch your food?

Cllena Arisha:

I have no appetite, Haki.

Hakon Lestrade:

You still need to eat, Clesha.

Are you not coming to the party tomorrow?

Cllena Arisha:

I don't know

Hakon Lestrade:

Tomorrow will be your last whole day here in London, are you going waste it?

Go to the party, unwind from your pain.

Cllena Arisha:

My eyes is swollen, I don't think I can come.

Haki, what made him cheated on me?

What do I lack for him to replace me?

I'm not ugly, right? I'm also creative and artistic.

But why is he not contended with me?

Am I not enough?

Hakon Lestrade:

Stop questioning yourself, Clesha.

Your EX boyfriend is full of bullshit and that is not your fault.

You picked the wrong trash today so you only need to let him rot in that shitty garbage.

He don't deserve you and unfortunately, he didn't even try being deserving. That is his loss.

I'm telling you, Clesh, get up from your bed. Dry your tears, chin up and keep going.
Stop wasting your time on a mere asshole. Let yourself move on then after a few months, find better trash.

Cllena Arisha:

I'm getting afraid, Haki :((

Don't be shock if I find myself not loving anyone anymore.

Hakon Lestrade:

This is what I fear the most.

Those victims of cheating unable to allow themselves to love again.

I saw how my sister cried and doubt herself and everyone every day. I don't want you to
be like her, Clesha.

Trust me, there must be someone out there who can love you without making you feel less of yourself.

Don't give up on love, Clesha.

Don't lock your heart because it's so painful living that way.

Cllena Arisha:

Thank you, Haki.

Your sister? If you don't mind me asking, what happened to her?

Hakon Lestrade:

I have an older sister, she got married when I was fifteen. His husband cheated on her and left her and their child alone. She got no one else but my grandfather and I. Our parents divorced after I was born and I don't know where in the world they are. They left me and my sister to our grandfather. Now, I'm helping her to raised her own child. That is reason as well why I
don't have time for love but I'll marry someday.

Cllena Arisha:

Oh..

You have been through a lot, Haki. You and your sister are really brave.

I feel much better now because I got to talk to someone who truly understand what I feel.

None of us deserve to be treated that way. I honestly hope that one day we'll be happy and simply enjoying our life or love life.

Hakon Lestrade:

That is why, you should come to the party. I'll find you someone nice and FAITHFULLY YOURS ONLY.

Cllena Arisha:

HAHAHAHA

I'll attend tomorrow's party.

Good night, Haki! My eyes and heart already want to call it a day.

Hakon Lestrade:

Sleep well

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