Loki woke up at 3 a.m. to show Thor the sunrise on the berth that he visited awhile ago during the first mission with agent Topaz. He saw more beautiful and mesmerizing places but this coast attracted him in an unusual way. It was so peaceful and made him feel free from problems...

"Dear bro, I called you a few times and you didn't answer, so I decided to leave a voice message. I know a beautiful place and I want to show it to you, before the sun rises. So, get your lazy ass off the bed, sit on your spaceship and fly to my house. Your mischievous bro, Loki.", he said making breakfast, which included tea and lasagna.

"No sleep mode with these travels around the Earth...", Loki complained taking the first bite.

***

"Land here.", Loki said looking out of the window of the spaceship.

"How did you find out about this place?", Thor asked walking out of the ship.

"Friend of mine recommended."

"Friend?"

"Friend."

"You and having friends. Impossible."

"I have you and it's quite real. So, why not.", Loki smiled softly at Thor.

"That's right too.", Thor rised his eyebrows. Loki led him to the berth.

The sun started to rise making the gold glares appear on the river. The sky was orange with pink overflow. A few trees that were planted near the coast had colorful leaves and the sun made them shine more. The true beauty of autumn was showing. Brothers were standing in silence admiring the view.

"I assure you, brother, the sun will shine on us again...", Thor murmured to himself.

"What?", Loki asked with a low calm voice.

"Do you remember your last words?"

Loki gulped nervously not knowing how to answer the question. He felt ashamed of hiding his true personality from his brother.

"I think I have holes in my memory...", Loki frowned.

"It's okay, you've been through a lot. You said the sun will shine on us again... And look, it's shining...", Thor looked at Loki with a sad smile and wet eyes.

"Wait... Are you crying?", Loki chuckled and rised his eyebrow leaning his head to the shoulder and examining Thor's face.

"Wh- What? No, not at all... Have you ever seen me crying?"

"Now."

"Okay, I'm crying... I'm crying... No nerves left after- After-", Thor said through sobs rubbing his eyes.

Loki saw how painful that period was for Thor. He felt so sorry and couldn't help it but give his brother a comforting hug."Shh, it's okay... It's over, brother..."

Thor rested his head on Loki's shoulder. Loki put his hand on brother's wavy hair and rubbed his back with the other one.

After a minute they backed away and Loki came to realization that he couldn't hide the truth from Thor anymore and was thinking about right time and place to tell him the big secret.

"Thank you, Loki."

"For what?"

Thor stared at him for awhile and stated, "For your existence."

"Don't. You're making me feel more guilty... For our past."

"Don't make yourself suffer. We both suffered enough, isn't it time to be happy, brother?"

Loki glanced down and then said almost whispering, "Maybe it is... But just for you..."

"Stop!", Thor shouted frowning. He understood that Loki's past was still haunting him and didn't want his brother to go through same problems with mental health as him.

"No, brother, you don't know everything...", Loki was looking at the ground not able to look in Thor's eyes.

"Then tell me.", Thor put his hand on brother's shoulder rubbing it a little.

"Do you trust me?", he finally looked at Thor with lost expression.

'How can I ask him to trust me? There's such a big mess that I created, how am I going to explain all of this? He's going to hate me after this... And it's gonna be the best for both of us...'

"Of course I do, Loki.", Thor said with low voice.

"Let's sit. But don't you dare fall in the river, thunderous watermelon.", Loki chuckled.

"Unless it's not something really bad.", Thor chuckled in reply.

Brothers sat on the edge of the berth. Loki left out a loud sigh and prepared himself.

"But just listen till the end okay? Don't interrupt me."

"Loki, you're scaring me."

"That's what I always do."

"Start already!"

"Okay, okay...", Loki's heart was about to jump out from his chest, he was sweating but there was no way back.

"I'm not the Loki you know. I'm not the one, who died for you that day."

"What do you mean?!"

"I said do not interrupt me! Remember New-York attack?"

Thor nodded.

"I am from another timeline, from alternative Universe and in that Universe I stole the Tesseract and escaped."

Thor was listening and his eyes were widening more and more from second to second. He couldn't believe what he was hearing and couldn't stop but yell, "What the hell are you talking about?!"

"I. Said. Do. Not. Interrupt me!"

"Are you mad?!"

"Possibly."

"How did you find us?!"

"Well, I was all chained and everything, so I firstly visited Jotunheim, persuaded them that if they unchain me, I'll be their king (of course I lied)", Loki rolled his eyes, "They desperatly needed a king and agreed but after having my freedom back I tried to teleport myself but I fell in a spacehole that was made by Thanos- "

Thor slapped his face, which was pale, and was shaking from shock, "Are you serious?! This is crazy!!!"

Loki ignored his reaction and continued tranquilly telling his story, "Bitch, please, my whole life is a big madness. So, I saw your battle with Thanos, Stark's sacrifice and so on and then I decided to build a new life in London."

Thor was speechless. His eyes are wide. Loki was waiting for a reaction but the expression on Thor's face was promising that something really bad was going to happen, "Would you say something?", he asked softly.

After getting no response he yelled, "Say something!"

Loki's voice was ringing in Thor's ears. He took a deep breath and finally said, "Why didn't you tell me before? What are you up to this time? What dark secrets do you hide from me? I remember 2012 Loki as a reckless, envious psycho, who wanted nothing else but become a king! No rules, no morals, just blind desire. Are you that Loki?"

Loki was overwhelmed by Thor's words. The problem was that all he's said was true... Clear truth...

"Do you truly think so little of me?"

Thor flinched a bit hearing this phrase. This was exactly what Loki, other Loki, said him on Sakaar years ago.

"Loki... I think a world of you... Whatever you'll say, whatever you'll do... You will always be my brother and my friend... Sometimes I can be rude, sometimes we're making mistakes... But never doubt that I love you... Now, tell me the truth, what's going on?"

Loki gave Thor a little smile hiding his tears and said, "It's a long story but believe me, I already regret that I agreed to do this work..."

"Go on..."

"Let's continue in the nearest cafe, I'm hungry."

***

Bucky was sitting in his room and taking notes about recent events in his life.

Today we trained with Ms. Demir (she assures me to call her Hazal but I can't make myself do it) and learned a few more moves to attack together in unison. She's not the best student, talks too much, gets distracted really fast but... Anyway, she's amazing. Everything she does looks amazing on her... So polite and tactful...

Sam's being a dickhead again, he left me alone going on his vErY iMpOrTanT mIsSiOn (Spider-kid taught me this). His ego grows faster than my hair.

Suddenly he heard a knock on his door. It was Hazal.

"Come in."

"Oh, sorry, seems like I distracted you again..."

"No, I just finished. Sit down."

Bucky patted his bed and Hazal sat near.

She inhaled nervously and said, "I didn't want to bother you with my... Problems? But I thought that you'll understand me the best. I don't know, if it's right to share this with Lina."

"You can trust me, don't worry, I keep so many secrets, thoughts to myself... It's time to make my collection more various.", Barnes chuckled.

"Warning, uncomfortable question is coming... You don't remember anything you did being, you know, brainwashed, do you?"

Barnes gulped and said calmly, "I don't, but I know every person I murdered. That's the problem... I remember it like a dream, maybe kind of vision, but I remember them..."

"I'm truly sorry for pushing you, it's just- Ah... Do you see them in your dreams? Do you see how you was doing it?"

"Yes, I do... Not the best feeling...", Bucky looked at the floor.

"Buck... I think I might be in trouble...", Hazal frowned and looked at him with fear in her eyes.

"What happened?", James turned to face her.

"A few months ago I started to have dreams... Or nightmares... Like I'm killing someone, violently, without hesitation... At first I thought it was just my brain messing around with my fight scenes during missions but then I started to have visions... Sometimes I feel like memories hit my mind and I get distracted (but try to hide it). I'm really, really confused..."

"Oh God...", Bucky started to panic, "You did a great job telling me this, bold of you. Maybe it's not too late and we can do something. Wait here, I'll be back."

Bucky left the room in rush leaving Hazal with a bunch of notebooks on his bed. She couldn't stop her curiosity and stressed her hand to get one of the notepads with a picture of sky on it's cover. Demir randomly opened one of the pages and started to read the note.

December, 13th. Year: 2015

Tonight I saw a dream. Creepy one (again). I was running towards a car and set a bomb under it. Then I quickly ran away to make sure I wasn't going to get hurt. The bomb exploded. I closed my eyes and when I opened them I saw a little girl standing on the burning ground. «You took everything from me! You killed my family! You'll pay for this!»

Hazal hasn't ended reading the note, when Bucky entered the room. He saw that she was holding his book and automatically took off it from Hazal with a rough move.

"Hey, what are you doing?", Bucky asked coldly frowning.

"I'm- I'm sorry, I should've ask for your permission, it's your personal space, I'm sorry.", the girl started to panic.

"It's alright, I have nothing to hide from you. I just don't think that you'd like to know what's written there... 'Cause it's horrifying... Even for me...", Bucky sat near Hazal.

"I thought that maybe it'll help me to remember something... I wanted to compare your visions to my ones. And trust me, my ones are not less horrifying...", she let out a loud sigh.

Bucky wanted to put his hand on Hazal's shoulder but stopped himself because he didn't want to make her uncomfortable with his metal arm. Hazal noticed it and gave him a comforting smile. She gently reached for his palm with left hand and put it on her shoulder resting her own palm on his hand.

"Don't be ashamed of your arm. Believe me, this is not the only noticeable thing in you.", Hazal softly said almost whispering.

"And what did you noticed first?", Bucky asked with a half-smile.

"Your eyes... Your hair... Your smile... And that amazing gun you was holding.", she chuckled.

They were staring at each other for a few seconds, before the silence didn't turn awkward.

Bucky flinched slightly and said nervously, "Oh... I forgot why I was gone... I brought you this notebook. I guess you don't mind the flowers on the cover... Anyway, I want you to write here all your dreams, visions and everything you can recall. It helped me and still helps to keep my mind sane. I remembered so many things doing this."

Hazal took the notebook and ran her hand through the cover, "If it's not a secret... Why do you keep a pink notebook with doodles shaped like flowers", she smiled a little.

"I once asked Sam to buy me a notebook, while he was out, and of course he decided to buy me something like this to tease me.", Bucky chuckled slightly.

"Did he pay for this deed?", Demir giggled.

"I draw flowers on his shield."

'That's ma boy!', Hazal thought.

"Great job! Okay, I'm going to write everything I have in my mind."

"Don't worry, we'll figure this out. I'm not letting you be a victim of a bunch of dirty criminals."

Demir sighed, "I hope so..."

A/N: I won't update for a really really long period because I'm graduating and this year is really important for me. I'm going to continue working on this on summer. Lots of love, Doctor