Do you know the feeling of getting raped. I was by my dads best friend. The world is a shitty place, now I know. Life is different for me now, I can't give my virginity away from someone I love. Its gone and it was taken from me. I can't go to sleep anymore knowing he tied my hands to my bed. I can't stop getting flashbacks to when he was touching me, after all that time I told him to stop. My dad was in the room for a while. I told him to help me all he did was laugh then left. I can still feel his hands going all over my body. Torturing me, putting things in my mouth, hitting me, blindfolding me, using things. I didn't want to enjoy it. It was my first so how could I not moan? Everytime I would moan that made him keep going. I tried so hard not to, if I didn't he would hit me. My body hurts from all the hitting, him putting a knife on my back then cut me, the slapping, the slash marks on my back. I tried so hard to make him stop I'm just not strong enough. I tried to get out by pulling on the rope seeing if that would set my hands free. It just made things even more worse my wrist were bleeding from trying to set them free. I can't eat anything because it hurts so much on my stomach. He made sure I was his, he made marks on my stomach to show my dad that i was his. If I tried to get out of the house when his friend was there my dad would hit me. The man who did this to me did nothing just kiss me and tease me. I'm moving out of my house to...god knows where. He would call me his slut and bitch. He made me say I was his. I couldn't take anymore of the torture so I called myself his. I can't take the image out of my head of him doing that.

My name is Logan and this is my story. How fucked up my life is. How I'm not able to be good enough. I love my daddy Carlos but seems like all we do is fight. Its my fault we do I always get mad at him. I never mean to hurt daddy I just want to make him happy. *starts tearing up but wipes my eyes* I'm moving in with winter and Chris. I know that Chris will protect me when my dad comes around. Winter will be the one who takes care of me. I see how she takes care of the others and i want that. She can help me forget about this and live my life the way it was. She helps Chris with his sleep paralysis maybe she can help me with mine. My dreams are starting to be of what the bad man did to me. I know my daddy won't ever hurt me. I know daddy love me. I'm sorry daddy I couldn't fight back. Now that I love daddy

I love my daddy and I never meant to hurt you
-Logan