Austin has literally been in a coma for two days now, and the hospital won't let me visit him! He's my best friend and I'm freaking out! What if I lose my best friend? I can't lose him. I've known him for nearly half my life. I have no one to ask how he is either! Jonas isn't allowed in either, and his mom hasn't left since Austin got admitted.

I went over to their apartment, while Hannah would be at school, and Jonas and I just stuck around one another. He's the only one that understands, and Lottie understood that. She's been giving me space when I need it. She's such a great girlfriend.

I can't stay on one thought right now. I'm just so worried and trying to find something to calm myself.