Winter's P.O.V

"Because I'm in love with you Sam...that's why." My eyes raised as those words left my mouth. It had felt like so much weight had been lifted off my shoulders though. I wanted to tell him and I just did. I felt like he was going to tell me he loved me too like in the movies but it never came. He just stood there with his mouth slightly open. I wanted to just hug him or just hold his hand or just to even know what he was thinking but my heart was racing and I couldn't bring myself to it. I was about to say something but I heard a voice that made want to cry and squeal at the same time.

"Good job Winnie..." I turned my body around smiled at Alec who was smiling back at me. I walked up and hugged him, not even bothering that Amanda, Cole and Hayden ran in, also hugging him also.

"What made you do it?" Alec whispered and Amanda's head shot up in confusion and curiosity. "Made you do what exactly?" I looked up and just as I was about to tell Amanda, Sam was walking out the door and towards the elevator.

I wanted to run, so badly but I couldn't. I had just confessed that I had loved him and he obviously needed to take in what I said...or that's what I think?

I sighed and turned to Amanda who was waiting patiently. I took in a deep breath before saying, "I told Sam I loved him." Amanda's eyes went wide as she looked as me like she just saw a ghost. "What!" I said the same thing before Amanda groaned. I furrowed my eyebrows as she started to pace around the hospital room.

"Something wrong?" I asked my best friend and she just shrugged and looked at me with a frown. "Oh nothings wrong... it's just that I thought you weren't up to it. I might seem angry but I am trying to hold in the-" Amanda cut herself off as she squealed making me chuckle. Amanda hugged me tightly before we were all interrupted by the door opening.

We saw a man who looked to be in his late 30's as he walked in with a clipboard. "Alec Anderson?" I looked at Alec who nodded and the doctor also nodded before writing a few things on the sheet of paper before smiling at all of us. " You can head out in 20 minutes since you just woke up. We need to do a few more tests-"

"I'm fine." Alec says and the doctor shook his head about to speak again but Alec was now glaring at him. "Are you deaf? I said I am fine." Alec sat up before grabbing his phone that laid beside him. He stood up and started to walk towards the door.

Okay, that wasn't wierd at all...

I walked out of the room, following Alec but I couldn't get what happened out of my mind. What was Sam thinking? Where was he going? Is everything going to be okay?

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Sam's P.O.V

I sighed and got into my car. I started the engine as quickly as I could and started to drive. I didnt know where I was going to go but I just needed to get out of there.

Winter loves me. Ugh why couldn't I see it sooner? Am I really that stupid? God, I am attracted to her but I didn't know she loves me. Winter is an amazing girl and I wanted to spend everyday with her, to know her and listen to her life but now what am I going to do? It's going to be so awkward.

"Because I'm in love with you Sam...that's why."

"Because I'm in love with you Sam...that's why."

"Because I'm in love with you Sam...that's why."

Those 9 words kept running through my head like a broken record. I couldn't think because that's what was running in my mind and even though how hard I tried to find a way for those words to go away, they wouldn't.

Winter was that type of girl that was funny and always smiling, we'll that's when I first met her. She was so giddy all the time and I realised that things were going to start to change. I smiled slightly as I pictured Winter in my head. She smiled lightly and I saw her blue eyes lit up with happiness and joy which made me smile at my imagination. Her golden hair was curled to her shoulders making me want to run my hand through it. Then the image of Winter turned into an angry, upset Winter. she had dry tears that stopped running down her cheeks. Her smile was gone as she frowned. I sighed and shook my head, getting the image of Winter out of my head.

God she definitely drove me crazy I can tell you that but I had never thought about someone like this. It was as if I had lost her my mind was showing me all the times we had together. I frowned at the thought. Her gone? That would tear me completely and honestly, I wouldn't know how I would turn out. I might start doing all the drugs and fights again, getting myself into trouble like old times.

Winter was the good girl and she definitely showed it. Me on the other hand was completely opposite to her. I was bad and dangerous. I would admit that...I punched her for fucks sake! I would never punch a girl unless they needed a good beating but Winter didn't deserve that and I knew it. She was probably wishing she never met me, I had changed her life! I had involved her in some dangerous shit. I never wanted to hurt her. She was just to...amazing?

I pulled over and found myself in front of bar, making me frown my my mind was smirking like it needed the alcohol in me. Oh I missed nights like this...

I needed to calm down, these thoughts were getting crazier and crazier. I wanted them to just stop but I couldn't do that.

I took out my phone and scrolled through the contacts clicking on the name and pressing the phone to my ear. "Hello?" I heard the voice say in confusion. I sighed but smiled slightly. I missed her voice.

"Hey Kaitlin, your still in London right?" I ask her and she replied, "Yeah, whats up?" I ran a hand through my hair and sighed again.

"I was sorta hoping we could meet up somewhere and talk. I need to get a few things of my mind." I say. I frowned knowing that I was pushing away the thoughts that wanted me to hold onto them and think about them more but I couldn't. I couldn't do this...to her.

"Yeah sure." I told her where I was and she said that she would meet me soon. I hung up the phone and just looked at my reflection. I have to get some drinks into my system.

I stood up and got out of my car, walking into the bar. Some girls came up to me and try to sleep with them but I refused and just continued to drink my beer down.

I had to convince myself I wasn't going to fall for Winter. Her life was already a mess right now, I couldnt make it worse.

I didn't love Winter Monroe.

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Winter's P.O.V

"He hates me." I mumble as I lean against the wall, burying my fave in my hands while shaking my head in regret.

This is all I have been doing since I got home. I kept telling myself he hates me even though he probably does. Alec tried talking to me but i had ignored him. After everything, it has turned out to this. I am going to be gone tomorrow to work for the monster and I am not even going to see Sam. I am not even going to see my mom and I am going to be away from my friends who don't even know what is happening tomorrow! I wanted to run after Sam back in the hospital room but my legs stayed put making me want to cry right there. Watching someone you love walk away from you really breaks everything doesn't it?

"He doesn't hate you Winter. Please, just stop doing this to yourself." I looked up to see Amanda frowning at me. Her frown showed worry and concern but I kept my face emotionless.

"Doing what to myself? I have done nothing to myself, Amanda! Everyone has caused me to be like this, not me!" I shouted making Amanda step back as I started to get up and walk towards her. I started to glare at her, my jaw clenched as I took steps towards Amanda. she didnt say anything which made me continue.

"People like you cause me to do this. Yes, Amanda. You. You left me when everything was crashing down around me and you knew that. My best friend left me to help myself but I couldn't do that. I needed someone who I knew was going to stick by my side, someone who I could trust. Someone I loved but no, you left me to cry and sob in my room for the past 5 months. I couldn't even go to school anymore. I was alone and all I remembered was you saying sorry. Sorry doesn't bring people back to life Amanda! You were close to Kyle too remember! We always used to play in the tree house together! He would always sneak up behind you and start to tickle you! He would always give you the biggest hugs when he saw your face! You knew you two loved each other and you did nothing to take it forward! Everyday he was breaking when he saw you hanging out with boys. You knew all along and he thought you were rubbing it in his face! He didn't even know you felt the same because you were too caught into your own life!" I yelled at Amanda, all the memories falling into my head as I said my brothers name.

"You didn't even say goodbye when he said he was going to do one last job for Phillip and come back to you. He promised you that he would come back and all you did was nod! Just nod! That's the last thing you did to Kyle! He loved you for christs sake and you acted like a dumb puppy even though you knew all along!" I continued, wiping the tear that was running down my cheek.

"I'm sorry Winter. I knew he loved me and I was going to tell him when he came back to suprise him cause I knew he loved suprises but he never came back because of Phillip! He took Kyle for you...from me. You don't think I care? Do you not think I wish to take everything back and start again? Do you honestly think it was just a game to me?" Amanda asked as she frowned, tears falling from her face also. I glared at her one last time before saying my next words.

"Now you wish you could take everything back...this isnt a fairytale Amanda. The past is now done for and we can't change that. You had your chance and you ruined it, not even saying bye." I turned away from Amanda and started to walk to the kitchen. I heard footsteps go up the stairs making me know that Amanda was now going to be crying in her room for the past 2 hours.

I sighed and got a bottle of water out of the fridge. The day I wanted to be all happy and smiling is now arguing, crying, yelling, sadness and regret. Wow, so much for that plan huh.

I heard a quiet bark as I look down to see Snowflake rolling on the floor making me smile. She was such a cute little puppy...but the sad thing is that she reminded me of Sam and the events earlier today. Ugh, now I am back to square one.

I picked up Snowflake and my head looked at the door once I heard a knock at the door. My heart suddenly raced. It could only be 2 people. Sam or Phillip and I am pretty sure if Sam was knocking he would knock more louder and harder than the soft knock that suprised me. I held Snowflake close to me as I went to the door, my hand gripping on the handle.

I slowly opened the door and my mouth dropped to see what was waiting on the other side of the door. I wanted to smile and but shock and confusion also got to me, eventually taking over.

"Mom?"

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Sam's P.O.V

"Then she told me she fucking loved me and I started to just freak." I explained to Kaitlin as she drank her beer, nodding at what I was just explaining to her.

"I understand what your going through but honestly, do you think holding back your feelings about this girl is a good thing? We both know keeping things in isn't a good thing for you." Kaitlin sighs and I run a hand through my hair, looking at my empty drink.

I pushed the bottle away, not attempting to drink anymore. I was on the verge of puking right now and I was not ready for that. I was explaining everything that me and Winter went through from day 1 till a couple of hours ago and surprisingly she knew why I was feeling like this and it was because my connection with Harper and my flings with women. She didnt want me to hurt Winter and she knew I didnt want that to happen either.

"I know but I am not sure about the feelings yet. I know they are there, yes but I don't know if this is right." I say while Kaitlin placed her hands on the table, looking me straight in the eye.

"Do you care for her?"

"Yeah."

"Do you like spending time with her?"

"Every second."

"Then why in earth are you hiding the feelings that are obviously wanted to come out? C'mon Sam, you have to tell her. You might think that she would always be there waiting for you to admit the feelings if she hasn't noticed them yet and then she could be gone out of your life." Kaitlin sighed and I furrowed my brows in confusion.

"Kat, what the hell is that suppose to mean?" I asked her. When Kaitlin said that she could be gone out of my life, I instantly took this to thought. I didnt want her to be out of my life and even though we fight a lot I still wouldn't push her away just because I was angry. The thought of Winter not being in my life anymore worried me. It made me want to spend every second with her now!

"Just listen Sam. You like this girl and you may have hurt her a lot but just think about the good times and if there are more good times than the bad and have you got past them? Think about the future and ask yourself if you really want to do this. It may feel wierd at first but you have to let it grow. Winter seems like a nice girl and I am pretty sure you haven't been a total dick to her for the whole 10 months now. I know you and when you really want something, you don't give up until you get it. I am pretty sure you know what I am about to say next?" Kaitlin looked at me, a slight smirk playing at her lips. I thought for a second before a smirk of my own started to form.

"Time to go and get my girl!" I say and stand up but instead my legs give up on me as I sit back down on the chair. Thanks legs, you have helped me through so much and you give up on me now. Thanks.

"Sam, I think you should take a cab home. Oh and do something that isn't so cliché, yeah?"

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Winter's P.O.V

"Winter, baby, please! Where is Emmaree?" My mom asked as I held onto her tightly before looking up at her. I have been holding onto her for 30 minutes now and I don't think I could ever bring myself to let her go. I wanted to see her and now she was right in front of me! If I could stop the smile which was glued onto my face I would have said where Emmaree was but obviously I couldn't.

"Who even is- Kelly?!" Unfortunately now I had to let go of my mom when Emmaree had engulfed her into a tight hug. I just stood there with my arms over my chest waiting for this to stop so I could have my mom back.

"Its been too long!" Emmaree smiled and I rolled my eyes playfully as I realised I was being a little selfish. "I know!" My mom smiled as they broke the hug. I noticed Emmaree and my mother were looking at me like I was interrupting something.

"Okay, I will go to my room while you two go talk and catch up." I say and my mom smiles before hugging me and whispering, "Its so good to know your now safe." I let go of my mom and smiled at her but I knew it was fake. It wasnt good at all! I am going to be gone in the morning and I wouldn't be able to fix anything.

I walked up the stairs and looked at the time on my phone. "Ten thirty." I mumbled as I walked into my room. I sighed and sunk to my knees. I didnt cry or frowned. I just sat there, staring at the window that showed the moon shinning perfectly like it was from a children's movie.

I took in a deep breath before taking out my phone. I noticed there was an unread message from- "Oh my god!" I mumbled to myself in excitement and hope. It was Sam. I couldn't believe it was him!

I opened the message and my smile immediately died down as confusion rushed through my whole body.

If you chose to swim at night,
Even if it was dark or light,
Would you let me swim by your side,
Even if I lied and lied?

If you let me buy you icecream,
Would you squeal and let your smile beam,
Even if it was not your favourite,
Would you still smile and eat it?

If you ran away because of me,
Could I still remember your beautiful face even if I can't see,
I may have hurt you,
But it was never my intention to...

If you loved me,
And I loved you,
Would you meet me by the lake,
Just for old time sake?

I furrowed my eyebrows and read it again and again. What drugs has he been taking? Was he drunk? I read it slowly and suddenly it's like he was telling me something...

If you chose to swim at night,
Even if it was dark or light,
Would you let me swim by your side,
Even if I lied and lied?

That sort of reminds me of when me and San where in the pool at 4 am in the morning...

If you let me buy you icecream,
Would you squeal and let your smile beam,
Could you see,
That you were driving me crazy?

That makes me think back to the icecream when he had bought me my mint choc icecream and I squealed when I got it, also noticing that Sam was looking at me really wierd...

If you ran away because of me,
Could I still remember your beautiful face even if I can't see,
I may have hurt you,
But it was never my intention to...

Was that about when I ran away because of him?

If you loved me,
And I loved you,
Would you meet me by the lake,
Just for old time sake?

I kept reading that one on and on again until it clicked. He wanted to meet me at a lake...but that wasn't what made me get up on my feet and slip on my shoes...

Sam loved me?

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Another update! Ooo, what do you think is going to happen?

I am pretty proud of myself since I made that little poem up by myself out of the blue. For a 14 year old, I think I should get an award (jokes jokes) I wanted to change the last bit of the poem but I wanted a cliffhanger...sorry people! What do you guys think?

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