Bleh lol the title dosent say I'm not normal, its like you know I still wont fudging spoil. I'm a BISH no I'm stupid...And like I promised..
WARNING: signs of Depression, and Suicidal thoughts..
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** Pallete's P.O.V **

I went out, got to the park,but that's not the only thing..I wanna do, I wanna DIE.......I wanna walk til I'm tired,  wanna get lost til there's no end, I don't care if it's too hot or cold, I don't care if I get killed, I don't care if I'm hungry, I don't care if I'm hurt or wounded, I Just Dont CARE ANYMORE!.....

I don't know how I got these thoughts in my mind...but my other side of me, wants to stop, its going to be okay, love will go on, be happy, forget about the past, be joyful, be cheerful like I always am, be friendly, caring and loving, have a good personality, be helpful and anything good...
But the other side of me is me now, its how I feel....now..

It's too big for me to heal it, my heart, is shattering, breaking, wounded softly, in every word he says, breaks my heart like ice, remember every memory yesterday...

"To the friend zone to where you belong"
*sits down on a bench*
I never meant to call you out
"And good luck ever getting out Pallete"
*tears comes out on the corner of his eye(socket)*
I've always seen behind your smokes And mirrors
"And no one is going to help you out ever!"
"Goth I'm sorry" *wipes the tears away, goes to seaside*
Oh sweet heart please don't yell at me
"No one cares, just give up Pallete"
"I'm really sorry, I mean it" *fiddles with his fingers*
It really isn't hard to see the truth that's rotting underneath
"Who would love a Yandere"
"I deserve worst than being loved, being friend zoned all over again"
*tears streams down his face*
Why weren't you honest from the start
"Who would even care for you"
"No one will, not even my family" *wipes his tears*
You know I've always thought she must have liked you
"Who would be friends with you"
"No one will, not even you or anybody"*tears streamed back again*
She's just a temptress don't you know, she say she loves you even though
"Who would be friends with a psychopath who tried killing someone
who tried getting me away from you"
"I am a psychopath, I'm an idiot, I deserved to get locked up
"I don't deserve to have friends, I'm a psychopath"
She only wants to steal your soul, i'll save you♡

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"Face it Pallete"
"I will face death today"
You said you'll always be my friend
"I wouldn't like you back"
"My heart is in pain, but it's okay anyways, its not
Like you like me anyways"
That we'd get married when we both got older
I never heard those words before
"And the times you tried saving me from"
"Its fine.. somehow"
You made me long for something more
And she tried to steal your love
(Tried to steal your love)
"I just looked like I was using you"
"She was right anyways, she could've had you
Not me"
What with that look? Do you really think I'm out of
Line tonight
"But not true anyways"
"Fake love matters to me"
Stop calling her name, if you play my
Game, she may just make it out alive

I love you.♡

I'm not asking much, just give me your heart♡
And put no one else above me
Go on .say you love me
Take my hand in yours and tell me that i'll always be the one
Without you my life means nothing
So just say you love me tonight..

"I'll just leave ya here"
"Go ahead and leave me, I don't care"
And if you lie..
"To think about it"
"I wanna die"
This poor girl will have to die🔪🔪🔪

Song: smokes and mirrors
By: littlejaynecakes

I'm sorry that i lost my cool ○//////○
As you can see here I've been very busy

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This song would be a spoiler tho....

Tears streamed down his face.....he wiped them away for a few minutes..he just wanted to die..
Something vibrated in his pocket, he got a message from PJ, and someone, I think PJ gave that someone my number..

4 unread messages from PJ
11 unread from <unknown>

I clicked PJ's unread message ...

<bro>: Pallete its getting late

<bro>: pick up your phone

<bro>: HELLO?????

<bro>: if the time passed 7:50 I will kick your butt and go home starting right now!

I didtn reply cause, he is gonna kill me, well technically kicking my butt, then go and eat dinner, then sleep, then wake up in a another day of Depression..

I clicked <unknown>

<unknown>: hi, its me fresh, Pj gave me your number

<unknown>: and uh come back home before 5:50

<unknown>: its 6:36 already, you haven't come back

<unknown>: where are you??

<unknown>: are you lost??

<unknown>: where are you?? pick up your phone!

<unknown>: dont tell me this is the wrong number..

<unknown>: okay PJ is going to kill you now

<unknown>: please come home, he's trying to get in the garage

<unknown>: please come home, HE'S FREAKING OUT

<unknown>: COME HOME QUICK!!!

▪Pally: how are you texting me?

<unknown>: I tied his hands and waist except for his feet tho..

▪Pally: okay, and why did PJ give you my number?

<unknown>: he got out of load or something, or was it just like me and him
Protecting you... or something like, connecting to his family, just to know them more..
Idk cause i wasnt paying attention tho...

▪Pally: seriously?, which one do you think was the one?!

<unknown>: I'm sorry can't text anymore, he's trying to cut the ropes brb!

▪Pally: okay bai

After the chat, it was getting late, I didtn know I cried that long, I starts going home, like just walking there, even tho the seaside is far from my house, so I decided to take a scenery route...
It was beautiful when you take a scenery walk route, cause its better than driving a car, enjoying the relaxation of just sitting there, or just enjoying the scenery outside a window...

And I don't like it, I love it....after the scenery route, the moon was shining, a few shops at open, clear driveways, the road is oud as it is at day, but in the night, its peaceful and quiet, I passed a few people, and some clear hallways, but somehow I passed someone with familiar clothing, his clothes almost looked like Goth...
But that can't be Goth, he shouldn't be here, cause I'm in so much depression, and I think I made it worst..
He hates me anyways..

He can't be here with me...

To be continued.......
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Hai,I updated late
Cause i had to go to my dad's thingy thingy...

Then I can't update cause i have headaches when the car is moving, plus I updated two chaps....
I'm sorry..

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