I got to work early the next morning so I could talk to the chief before getting ready. I was going to ask to be assigned to ambo for the foreseeable as I didn't want to put myself or baby in any danger from running into burning buildings. Tomorrow the baby grow is meant to arrive which means tomorrow night I will be telling Hailey I'm pregnant and am going to be asking her to be baby's mommy fingers crossed she'll say yes.

"Stay safe out their" I said to Hailey before giving her a small kiss

"And you stay safe too, I love you" Hailey said kissing me back before the two of us went one separate ways to our own cars. I put the radio on as I pulled out of the parking lot which belonged to the apartment block and began my journey to the firehouse.on my journey to the firehouse I tried to mentally plan what I was going to say. Chief Boden has always been supportive and understanding so it shouldn't be a problem but I was still nervous.

"What do I say" I exclaimed to myself as I drove down the street, Star Girl by Mcfly playing on the car stereo and a smile formed on my face

"Hi chief" I smiled as I found him in the hall when I was on the way to his office.

"Good morning Paige. Everything okay?" Chief Boden asked and I gently bit my lip.

"Could we possibly talk for a moment?" I asked

"Come into my office" he smiled and I followed him into the office.

"So what's seems to be the problem?" Chief Boden asked

"Yesterday I took a test. A pregnancy test and turns out I'm 12 weeks pregnant. I guess I should have expected it sooner but Elle made me take a test after I told her everything. So I was kinda hoping I'd it's possible could you maybe get me assigned to ambo for the foreseeable future?" I decided to come straight out and say it.

"How do you feel about it?" Was the first thing Chief Boden said

"Good and bad. Part of me is excited because I would love to be a mom but the other part of me is freaking out, I don't want Hailey to leave me and im worried that the baby will remind me of what happened" I said

"Your always welcome to talk to me
If you ever get overwhelmed with it all" smiled Chief Boden said happily.

"Thanks Chief. Also can we keep it on the down low until the next shift. I've not told Hailey yet, and kind of want her to know before I tell anyone else just so she does think I was hiding it from her, which I kind of am but only because I've planned it all out and I'm telling her tomorrow evening" I sort of rambled on

"We don't have to tell anyone until your ready to" Boden reassured me.

"Thanks Chief" I said

"I'll tell Sylvie your with her" Boden said and I nodded. I said goodbye and made my way to the locker room to get changed.

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I got home after my shift just before Hailey left for work.  I was anxious for this evening but hopeful that she'd be happy about the baby but I won't hold my breath.

"How was your shift?" Hailey asked after giving her a hug. I always missed her hugs when I was on shift but it was part of the job, I would never give up being a firefighter or paramedic, they both are the jobs I would never giver up and I would never make Hailey give up being a detective, we both know our jobs are hard but we know we can work through them together

"Fine. Busy though. I think I'm just going to crash, how was your night" I said yawning. I wasn't even faking, I was a extremely tired but I knew I just needed a couple of hours sleep.

"The beds cold without you" Hailey said gently kissing my cheek. I always found it was colder without Hailey beside me.

"It's cold without you in too" I said kissing her in return. I then wrapped my arms around her again and closed my eyes as I rested my head on her shoulder

"You go sleep and I'll see you later" hailey said and I pulled away from her.

"Okay my love. See you later" I said pecking her lips gently with small kisses. Hailey said goodbye and I headed to bed after changing into a oversized shirt and threw my hair into a messy bun. I checked when tbe delivery should be arriving and saw it was due to come at 11am so after my nap and the delivery comes I can pop to the store to get things to make lasagna, I was surprising Hailey and after dinner I think would be the best time to tell Hailey about the baby or I should say I hope it would be the best time to tell her.

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I woke up at half ten and made my way into the bathroom to brush my teeth. After that I will have a drink and wait for my delivery so I can head to the store to but lasagna pasta strips and cheese. I was also going to buy a little box to put the baby grow in and maybe some dummy's. Not to forget the scan photo. As I made myself some orange juice I looked at the scan and a small smile formed on my lips.

"Maybe this baby won't be as bad as im expecting it to be" I mumbled to myself before taking a sip of my juice. I put the stereo on and continued to drink my drink. It was like a blink of an eye when their was a knock at the door. I hadn't even buzzed the delivery person up so it couldn't be then.

"I'm coming" I said heading to the door after pausing the stereo I unlocked the door and opened it to see someone stood their with a package so I guessed it was my delivery.

"Delivery for Paige Voight" the delivery person said

"Thank you" I answered before I went back inside and shut the door. I opened the package and checked the baby grow and smiled.

"Perfect" I whispered before folding it up and placing it on the side beside the photo of the scan. Once I had placed it on the side I grabbed some shoes and slipped my feet into them before tying my laces and grabbed my purse and car keys before heading out.

"Hi David, How is everything? how's Jamie?" I asked one of my neighbours as I headed to my car.

"Good. Jamie is actually really good, he still gets some pain when walking but he's getting stronger every day. I think Luna helps with taking his mind off it. They have such a close bond" David smiled happily.

"That's good. And how are you with it all?" I asked wanting to make sure David was coping, I didn't want him to be suffering in silence.

"I'm really fine. I'm glad Jamie is fine and he's recovering well. And Luna is makings everything worthwhile. And having you and Hailey next door is amazing too. You are our family" David said smiling happily.

"Your our family too David." I responded.

"Now I best get off. I'm cooking Hailey a meal tonight but tomorrow how about I come round and spend some time with you, Jamie and Luna" I said to David who smiled too.

"I like the sound of that" David said giving me a hug.

"So I'll come round for 11" I said to David who nodded. We both headed in our own directions, me heading to my car and David heading into the apartment building. I climbed into my car and headed off to the stores

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I got home from the store after a hour and half and then changed into a pair of leggings and tank top so I was more comfortable. After I changed I grabbed the little yellow box I brought at the store and put the baby grow a pack of dummys and the photo of the scan I popped the lid back onto the box.

"I'm so excited but so nervous" I mumbled to myself as i put the box in the spare bedroom so Hailey won't find it and I can keep it a surprise. I sat myself on the sofa and watched some trashy reality tv or should I say listeni to trashy reality tv while aimlessly scrolling on my phone. I got bored of scrolling and then threw my phone onto the sofa and looked down. I placed a hand on my stomach and let out a small sigh.

"I know you probably cannot hear me right now but baby I do love you, I don't hate you because of who your father is me i promise you will never have to meet him. You have a older brother who I hope you get to meet one day, one day you can meet your older brother but until then you'll have auntie Elle, Auntie Olivia. Uncle David, uncle Jamie and all my family and friends at firehouse 51. Hopefully you will also have your second mommy Hailey. Hopefully she won't run a mile when I tell her about you this evening. I may not make the best decision at times but I promice I'll always do my best to protect you. I will protect you and love you" i said to the baby, I didn't care if it couldn't hear me right now but I had to get everything off my chest. I had to say I didn't blame the baby for my of this. It wasn't their fault for me being pregnant but here I am; 12 weeks pregnant with a baby that was not planned but one I promice to love endlessly.

"I really do love you baby" I said with tears in my eyes.

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"I'm home" Hailey said at 5pm as I was putting the lasagna in the oven to cook, it was perfect timing.

"Hi my love, dinner will be ready in half an hour" I smiled happily while standing in the kitchen as I had just put the food in the oven.

"What's all this for?" Hailey asked taking her shoes off and hanging her keys on the hook beside the door.

"I just thought that we have hardly ever have a home cooked meal and I love lasagna's and it's probably one of the only meals I am actually able to cook without having any problems. So I made us lasagna" I smiled happily putting the oven gloves on the side.

"You didn't have to do this" Hailey said smiling coming into the kitchen and wrapping her arms around my neck and leaning forward

"I know didn't have to but I wanted to cook for you because I love you, because your my forever and I love you" I said kissing Hailey's soft lips. My arms were around Hailey's waist as I savoured the time I had with Hailey, I didn't know if this was going to be the last time I could really be with her because for all I know is she'll leave me when she finds out I'm pregnant so I had to prepare myself for that.

"I love you too Paige. You are my forever, I don't care what anyone says or does you are my forever" Hailey said and rested her head into my shoulder. As Hailey had her head on my shoulder a smile formed on my face, maybe she wouldn't leave me when she finds out and deep down I knew she wouldn't but I couldn't help but worry. After half an hour the lasagna was cooked and I dished it up.

"Wine" I asked Hailey, I had brought some nonalcoholic wine so I could have a glass and then when I've told Hailey she'll probably ask why I'm drinking wine when in fact it hasn't actually got any alcohol in. I poured two glasses of the nonalcoholic wine and sat down with her.

"So how was work today?" I asked Hailey finally asking about work.

"It was okay, we had to assist fire with an active shooter at a fire, their was luckily no casualties" Hailey smiled happily eating some of the lasagna.

"Wow Paige. You really are a amazing cook" Hailey exclaimed. I had to admit the lasagna was the best I had ever made.

"I wouldn't say I'm an amazing cook. But I have to admit this is the best lasagna I've made... EVER" I pointed out before having another mouthful of lasagna. The two of us ate and chatted all dinner and it was perfect.

"I have one more surprise for you. So stay right here, I'll put the plates in the sink to soak and I'll get the surprise for you" I said to Hailey who looked confused, I mean so would I be but this was important and I was going to make it work even if she doesn't run for the hills. I made my way into the spare bedroom and took the yellow box into the kitchen.

"Before you open this I would just like you to know that I wasn't hiding this from you and I'll understand if you want to run for the hills" I said handing the box to Hailey before sitting down opposite her. Hailey opened the box and I took a deep breath as Hailey looked at everything, the scan, the dummy's and the baby grow.

Hailey was quite for a short time. I tried to read her expressions, a smile appeared on her face as she looked across the table.

"Your pregnant" Hailey smiled happily

"I am and I understand if you want to run for the hills" I said taking a deep breath as Hailey read the baby grow.

"I'm not leaving you Paige. This baby may not be mine but I want to be it's mom just as much you will be. I'm not leaving you next to it my forever Paige." Hailey said before then she looked worried.

"You had a glass of wine" she exclaimed.

"It's nonalcoholic, I brought it when I got cheese for the lasagna" I said smiling.

"And is everything healthy with the baby?" Asked Hailey and I nodded.

"Everything is fine, baby is healthy and I'm assigned to ambo for the foreseeable and I think I can do this. I think I can be a god mom to this baby" I said while nodding.

"You will be a good mom and I'm going to be with you through it all. That's a promice" Hailey smiled. I was relieved that she wasn't leaving me. This was going to work out, I was happy and Hailey wasn't running for the hills, this was perfect and now Hailey knew I could finally think about telling everyone else about the baby. Obviously not all at once but I'll start tomorrow, tomorrow my friends and family will know I am pregnant and that was going to be both the hardest thing to do but also the best news I can give them now I know I am not going to loose hailey.