Third Person's

It had officially been 3 months since the whole thing with Thomas, Paige had been trying so hard not to think about it all; she's continued with her therapy sessions with Dr Charles and they had been helping her with it all but what it's not helping her with is her Periods or lack of. It had been 3 months since her last period and Paige had finally decided to go and talk to her sister Elle because she wasn't at work for the day and she didn't want to scare Hailey away not when they had only just moved in with her less than a week ago.

Paige wasn't due back to work until the next day so what we Elle suggested had to be done during the day today, she didn't want to take a shift off but she did want to talk to Chief Boden first thing if she did end up to be pregnant. Mentally Paige was preparing herself for both situations, if she was pregnant she had to tell hailey as soon as possible and if she wasn't pregnant then that's fine too, she would have to tell Hailey she thought she was pregnant so either way Hailey would know Paige was worried that she was pregnant but also she would know if she is pregnant..

Paige was the first one to wake up and the first thing she did was head to the bathroom and throw up, seeing as she didn't eat anything the previous evening it was just bile which just made her feel even sicker yet she just couldn't be sick. Quickly Paige brushed her teeth so whatever she ate or drink didn't taste of sick which is not appertaining at all. Paige headed into the kitchen and got herself a glass of water after she had brushed her teeth and took a sip out of the water before placing it down on the side while she put a slice of bread in the toaster to make herself some toast to see if that helps her, she did think she might be feeling sick because she's hungry but she highly doubted that seeing as mostly every morning and most days she had been feeling sick so she kind of thought she was pregnant.

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Paige's POV

"What do you have planned for today?" Hailey asked me as I sat on the sofa eating a slice of buttered toast, I wasn't feeling too hungry infact I was feeling really sick so I hoped the toast would settle my stomach.

"Just going to see Elle and spend the day with her, I don't think I have any other plans" I shrugged taking another bite of my toast it was kind of helping me feel less sick so that was a good thing.

"Do you want me to pick up dinner on the way home tonight?" Hailey asked making herself a coffee in her travel cup.

"Sure, what do you have in mind?" I asked Hailey, I wasn't bothered what we have, anything seemed fine with me.

"Well I could get McDonald's, KFC, Pizza or Chinese food. Do you have a preference on what we have?" Hailey asked as I watched her stir her coffee

"Maybe KFC but honestly it's all good whatever we have" I smiled from the sofa.

"If you want that then that's what we'll get" Hailey nodded.

"Okay" I answered before I finished my toast and got up from the sofa.

"I love you Hailey" I said sliding my arms around my girlfriend and rested my head on her shoulder. She had to leave for work so I was just saying goodbye

"I love you too Paige" Hailey said as she gently ran her hand through my hair as I continued to hug Hailey. Eventually I pulled away from Hailey and gently kissed her. The two of us finally said our goodbyes before Hailey left for work and I decided to go have a shower before I head to Jay and Elle's. Elle wasn't expecting me until 10:30am so I still had 2 and abit hours until Elle would be expecting me. I stripped off out of my pyjamas and threw them into the laundry basket before I was double over in the toilet where I was sick. I washed my mouth out with my mint mouthwash before finally turning the shower on and climbing into the shower and began getting ready for the day.

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I knocked on Elle's front door at 10:30 while biting the inside of my cheek anxiously, I knew Elle would practically force me to take a pregnancy test and I knew I needed to take one so who's better to take it with than my older sister.

"Your early" Elle pointed out. I checked my watch when I saw it was only 20 past 10, I was certain my phone said half past as I pulled up unless I was hallucinating the time which I highly doubt it.

"Sorry Elle. I swore it was half past when I got out of the car" I exclaimed. Elle stepped aside and let me in before we headed to the kitchen.

"How have you been" exclaimed Elle as I sat at the breakfast bar and Elle made a drink for the both of us, I had a tea while Elle had coffee.

"Up and down. But theirs one thing I really want to talk about today and I would rather do that now before I decided to chicken out of it" I admitted which was true, I would most likely chicken out.

"Okay, now your worrying me" Elle said sounding worried as she spoke.

"You don't need to be worried. It's not anything that bad" I said

"Then what is it?" Elle asked now sounding confused.

"I've not had my period for three months. At first I thought it was because I was stressed from everything that happened but then I've started to feel sick and it was exactly like how I felt when I was pregnant with Harry but the thing is I'm scared to even think about taking a test because Hailey and I are doing really well, she's been my rock and I don't want to loose her, the thought about loosing her makes me want to cry." I exclaimed as I worried about everything. Elle turned to me and looked me dead in the eye.

"Right Peanut, this is the plan. You will take a test and we will take it one step at a time. Whatever the outcome I'll be by your side through it all, so will Olivia, dad and everyone. You won't be doing this alone if you are pregnant" Elle said placing a hand on my arm comforting me.

"Okay." I said nodding.

"Right let's get the test" Elle said climbing off the stool she was sat on and I drank some of my tea before heading into the hall where Elle was heading to the upstairs bathroom. The pair of us headed upstairs and headed into the bathroom. Elle got the pregnancy test from the medication cabinet and handed me one of the tests she had in her.

"Go pee on this and set a timer for 3 minutes and we can look at the test today" Elle said.

"See you on the other side" I said taking a deep breath as Elle left the bathroom and I did what I had to do, washed my hands and set a timer for 3 minutes on my phone. As the timer was set and counting down I paced the room which wasn't even that big.

"I can't look at it Elle. Will you tell me? I asked Elle as the timer went off three minutes later and I stood in the doorway of the bath.

"I will Peanut" smiled Elle as she entered the bathroom and headed to where the test was sat on the bathroom sink. I grabbed Elle's hand and she squeezed it gently, she looked and their was a moments silence.

"Peanut. Your pregnant" Elle said. That was when everything seemed to go quite. It was like I had gone deaf for a short while.

"I'm pregnant. I've been running into burning buildings, pulling people from car accidents. None of that can be good for the baby" I thought to myself feeling myself worried.

"Elle Do I deserve this baby?" I asked Elle as I thought back to Harry and giving him up. Would he think I never wanted him? I mean of course he wasn't planned but I still loved him and that's why I did what I did, that's why I gave him up, why I gave him to the lovely couple and they still contact me but do I really deserve the baby, I was scared but I want to be a mom now, I want to have a baby but this was just the wrong way. Thomas is the father, it was the second baby of his I've had but he will never know.

"You do deserve the baby Paige. You will be a great mom. You did what you had to do to give Harry a good life and it was the right choice for you. I also know you will do what you think is right this time" Elle said giving my hand a squeeze

"What do I tell Hailey? I don't expect her to stick around when I'm pregnant with another man's bath. What do I do?" I asked Elle turning to my older sister.

"Tell her the whole truth. She loves you and she always will. She will understand and she most definitely won't blame you" Elle reminds me so I nod slowly.

"But before any of that... I need to go and make sure the baby is healthy. I've been running into burning buildings. I've been pulling people from accidents. None of that has to be healthy for a baby. I need to make sure the baby is healthy" I repeated and Elle nodded.

"After lunch we can head to med and make sure everything is going be okay, then we can plan what you are going to say to Hailey. I won't push you into telling anyone else about the baby until you are ready.

"Hailey and Chief Boden are the only two other people who will know until I am really ready for anyone else to know." I said. I didn't know how any of this was going to go but I did know this was going to be a long journey and I couldn't face this alone.

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Elle and I headed to Med to make sure the baby is healthy, I had been running into burning buildings and anything could have happened to the baby so I wanted to make sure everything is fine before I talk to Hailey about the pregnancy. We had lunch at a little cafe which sells baguette's which are to die for, ham, lettuce and mozzarella cheese, Elle and I decided to go their for lunch, it had been on Elle's list to try since it opened. The reviews are really good and the food was also really good.

"We weren't disappointed by then baguettes" exclaimed Elle as she drove us to Med.

"You are so right. I could eat that baguette again" I grinned happily as Elle pulled up to a red light.

"Well I'll have to bring one to the firehouse when your working one day" Elle smiled glancing across to me before her eyes went back to the road.

"I would love you forever if you did" I smirked to Elle.

"I would think you already did love me forever. I'm your older sister after all" laughed Elle

"Well i do but that's not the point" I smirked.

"Your a idiot sometimes Peanut" laughed Elle

"Pull over!!" I demanded after Elle turned the corner after the traffic light. I had to throw up for the first time since before I showered. Elle quickly pulled over to the sidewalk and I practically jumped out of the car and threw up down the drain. I felt someone hold my hair back and saw Elle wasn't in the car any more so it was her who was holding my hair back.

"I hope this is just morning sickness" I groaned before being sick once more.

"Well maybe the OBGYN assigned to your case will be able to prescribe you some anti-sickness medication" Elle suggested as I finally stood up and pulled a tissue from my pocket and wiped my mouth.

"Hopefully. I don't think I can cope with the constant sickness, I'm surprised Hailey hasn't asked if I'm okay yet. I'm sure she's noticed the amount of times I've been sick especially in the mornings." I said forcing a laugh as another wave of sickness hit me

"Here we go again" I groaned seconds before I threw up once more

"Let it all out Peanut, it'll make you feel better" Elle said while holding my hair back and also rubbing my back gently. I wiped my mouth once again before tossing the tissue into the garbage bin and then getting back into the car.

"Sorry about that" I apologised to Elle

"You couldn't help it Peanut. It's fine" Elle responded putting a hand on my knee and smiled. We then made the rest of the way to the hospital. Elle and I headed into the waiting room and the receptionist booked me in.

"Paige Voight!?" A young woman called. I stood up and Elle followed me to the woman.

"Hi I'm Lisa and I'll be your OB. So this scan will be to make sure everything is right and you are healthy seeing as you told the receptionist you had been running into burning buildings" Lisa said giving me such a weird look.

"Yeah, I'm a firefighter. It was before I knew I was pregnant" I explained myself.

"Right hop up here and roll your shirt up please" Lisa said and I nodded. I climbed onto the bed and rolled my top up. Lisa explained the jel would be cold but I already knew it would be. I remembered from the time I was pregnant with Harry, the scan looked all good and I was already in love, my baby was healthy but I still couldn't help but think this wasn't the right thing for me to do, would I come to hate the baby when I give birth, would it remind me of Thomas..

"Snap out of this Paige!!" I thought to myself to try and stop myself over thinking.

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Elle dropped me home at around 4:50. I've been prescribed some anti-sickness medication  which is suitable for pregnant woman. I decided that I wanted to order a a personalised baby grow to tell Hailey I'm pregnant which was what I began looking at when I got home. It was kind of a weird one when I didn't even know if Hailey would still want to be with me after I tell her, I just hoped it would all go well.

"I'm home!!" Hailey called as I heard the apartment door as I climbed out of the bed. I had just been lounging around and ordering the baby grow which was due to arrive in two days.

"How was work" I asked Hailey heading into the lounge where Hailey was unpacking the food.

"Boring, finishing off some paperwork we had no new cases so it was boring" Hailey said and I grinned.

"Well your home now and we can watch films so you won't be bored" I laughed a little. Hailey and I cuddled up on the sofa after eating our food and watched Peter rabbit. I was enjoying the time I have with Hailey without her knowing about the baby, enjoying my time with the love of my life while I still have her and can still call her mine but for now I was trying not to worry about the fact I could loose her and focus on the here and now because I'm the next few days all this could change and I am not ready for that, not at all.