This is just a conversation I had with myself. I can't post it in my Gacha Club book because kids will see it, as I have a lot of kids there- (under 14) so enjoy me suffering with Devi

Devi: What do you mean "you're having doubts"

Devi: YOU CREATED ME SO YOU WOULD HAVE A REMINDER OF WHAT HAPPENED.

Me: Devi, it's just that...Im having doubts that I hate him.

Devi: Oh of course you are, Little One.

Devi: Let me remind you.

Devi: He touched you, turned you against your friends, called you Autistic, Bipolar, Psycho, Bitch, Cunt, Fucker, and Mistake.

Devi: HE MADE ME GO AWAY!! RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS.

Devi: THE ONLY REASON YOU FORGIVE HIM IS BECAUSE HE'S A MANIPULATIVE ASSHOLE!

Devi: YOU COULD HAVE STAYED PURE! INNOCENT!! YOU WOULDN'T HAVE NEEDED ME!

Devi: HE'S THE REASON WE SEE THE CLOWN! THE SHADOW PEOPLE! THE MICE!

Devi: CLAYTON IS THE REASON THAT WE CAN'T GROW UP!

Devi: IS THAT LOVE!?

Me: I just want to have my brother back.

Devi: You can't. Because you never had him.

Me: Then I want to grow up. I want to be a big kid.

Me: I want to be like everyone else! They can go and feel safe everywhere and meanwhile I can't even hug my own dad without feeling anxious. I want this to stop!!

Devi: It won't. But that is why you made me. To protect you. You made me, Yumi, Robby, and everyone to love you and give you the childhood you never got.