My dearest (Y/N)!
Now it's been four days already since I've seen you the last time and I'm already missing you. It's a real shame that I'm not allowed to visit you in that hospital till you feel better.

Oh boy, I still remember the day when we had to part...
I had just come back from our tour through America and you had cooked for me. Happily to see each other again we were sitting at the kitchen table, having a nice conversation and eating the meal you had prepared for me.
I still remember how you didn't want to eat, only shoving your food around on the plate and not eating more than one bite. Also I noticed how sad you seemed. You were broken.
When I asked you for a reason for your sadness, you only said you were tired and that would be all. You lied: you weren't tired, you felt down indeed. But I didn't knew it then.

Later we wanted to cuddle.
But when I wrapped my arms around your waist, I was shocked. Where was your soft tummy? There was nothing anymore, I could even feel your ribs sticking out.
Slowly you took off your oversized sweater and sweat pants as I asked you to.
The sight I saw was terrible and I'll never forget these pictures in my head. You were nothing more than skin and bones. The slightest touch could cause you unbearable pain, it seemed.
Without saying a word, tears streamed down my cheeks and I gently pulled you in my arms, hugging you ever so softly. You were crying, too.
After a while I looked into your eyes and wiped your tears, telling you things in the hope to comfort you at least a bit.

You got anorexia because I was never around, always being away from you. I hurt you too much and I apologize for it a thousands times, my love.
I couldn't stand the guilt and pain inside me when I looked at you, not seeing my (Y/N) anymore but a broken and almost emotionless girl. Your eyes were so empty it scared me. What had I done?!

One our later we arrived at the hospital. At home you had passed out because of the huge weakness that overcame you all of the sudden and I brought your light, motionless body to the hospital.
A nurse took you away from me, telling me she would help you. I didn't even had the chance to say goodbye.
When I was back home, I couldn't hold back any longer and started crying and sobbing hard.
I knew the doctors and nurses would do their best to save you from leaving this world forever, but I was still  so very scared. Scared of losing you, the most important person in my life.

Damn, every single day feels so endlessly long and useless without you, my love. You know you're everything I want in life and I love you so so much. Please try your best as much as I try to do my best for you.
Never give up, my angel, you're wanted and I will never ever give you another reason to be sad again.
Baby, I need you so much! You're perfect, please stay strong!

I love you so very much! As soon as possible you'll see me in person when I'm gonna visit you, my sweet little (Y/N).

In a lot of love,
        your Georgie