I don't get this, I really don't

This obviously isn't meant to be, but still I can't get you out of my head

I mean if your supposed to be that one person for me,

You shouldn't be watching me crumble and fall and still take no step closer

Take a deep breath girl, I command

Okay today I'll forget and look towards the future,

The day I find the right person

But I can't

I know the saying love hurts, but why is it killing me so much when we are not destined to walk into the sunset together?

If you are just some person from the past,

Why is it so deadly having you watch from a distance?

Okay today I'll move on, today is the day, the day I forget.

But I can't cause every step I take brings back memories

You take the same steps on the same ground as I, oh how it haunts me

Okay, when I leave this place I'll start new,

No you to haunt me

But how am I going to last til then?

Cry myself to sleep like every other night?

I can't drop it; as much as I try I can't stop these tears,

These memories,

These feelings of loss and pain,

Nor the anger at myself

As much as I bash my head against the wall and order myself around,

I'm still angry and pumped with frustration;

I can't seem to make that day the day where I forget

Cause I'm sick of waiting,

I'm sick of putting down a book and going

'See that's whats suppose to happen, so it will happen, as soon as you forget'

I'm sick of the past reminding me of you,

I'm sick of my disobedient eyes glancing at you,

I'm sick of my ears reaching out to you,

I'm sick of my brain thinking of every step you take

Why do I do this?

Even when the most deadly sentence rings through my ears,

I still wait and cling, just release and move on,

But I can't

Even when I hear;

'You know he isn't coming back'

I still aint moving on

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