I'm in a ball,

In the pouring rain

It seems to never want to leave

The rain joins the tears leaking over my eyelids,

Sliding down my face

My skin is cold,

But that's the least of my worries

It's amazing I can even feel my body,

I thought the death of my heart would be enough to cut off all feelings

But I can feel my stone cold skin,

It sounds familiar doesn't it?

Except whats cold of you is your heart

My skin has goose bumps; I'm drenched to the core,

My hair is mixed into the mud

I'm holding onto the ground as if it's holding me here,

But not holding me together,

Far from it actually

Clenching my fists tight the thought of the past makes me recoil

I was on my hands and knees, tears streaming down my face,

As I tried to find composure, so softly, but enough for you to hear,

I asked you to stay.

On my knees I begged,

'Don't let me go'

But you let go

All that was left were the memories,

And the feelings of loss and change

I'm gasping on the edge, on the edge of everything

I can't hold it together

I have lost it all

I can still remember how it felt when you removed your hand from mine,

For once there was no trace of kindness or tenderness

It was quick and sharp,

But it doesn't heal

This rain drains out all meaning

For life, for love, for smiling, for happily ever after,

Instead the official confirmation of alone and darkness creeps in

To wrap another cold blanket over my body,

But still it's not as deadly as the words 'goodbye'

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