i listened to the old songs
that made my childhood
and yours as well. u heard
voices in your head and
took on the hardest hits,
alcohol, drugs, and depression.
then i came along after two others,
i don't know if you remember me
but i can barely remember a soul
but you were here for more than my
fingers and toes can count.
one day, i'll apologize
because i think i owe one, because
i am better off alone, some of us are
just god forsaken devils in sheep skin
i am the devil who ended your marriage
even if it was sinned from the start.
another day, i will forgive you and
maybe my own self but i am 17
with more years if i allow myself
to live longer that is. i'll forgive
the countless yelling, crying,
and the forgotten loving moments
in my memory I have stashed away.
if it all happens in one day,
i hope one day you come around for a
nice cup of nonalcoholic beverages
and make up for the lost moments
i craved you were with me.
i miss u but i don't know right now
how to cope anymore