I've been on this route to
understand their thoughts
their guts, their failures
and triumphs
and I loved a few of them.
mistakes is all I take
and I burn my hand
twice as much with the fire they
latch on to me
how can I be naive and still let
them fuck me raw
no condom inside of my castles stay
no allowance inside of my hearts of hearts
I don't know if they know that inside of me
there's a hallow rock begging
for a statement that doesn't leave me on delivered
beyond fucked is what they leave me with
cry baby beyond words of offense
I love them until I no longer hear
myself asking them to do the same
it's quiet when I drive myself
to no end of nowhere
and I smoke
and drink like a giraffe in the desert
slipping into habits I told myself not to
get into but I love too much
and I don't wanna be like them
I hate men.