why do I let it affect me?
Let's assume it's because I am fifty percent
half of your DNA and you are fifty/fifty
your mother and your father
but I am more bothered by my half of yours
you let me go and let me down
told me I'd be safe well you were wrong
my doctor says I am not like you
my mother says it and the rest of the family
too but I see it I sense it I know I am just
like you, you and you and the other you's.
when I get angry I hurt people and myself
I feel your anger because you are my father.
when I cry I blame others and not myself
just like you never thought it was your
addictions.
because I choose to guilt myself into believe
it is my fault you can't change
I have a hard time believing I should to
but can't you see I can't change what makes me- feel a little bit close to what sober you could be?